The Metaphysical Artist and The Academic
The ways of the cosmos, of God and fate, and of life still amaze me, probably always will. Here I am an artist, one who has always been very much about reaching out, the arts, the creative, connecting on those levels, and those types of discernment and inquiries, about open expression to the maximum, tell it is, no holds barred, suck it up, whatever, not diplomatic or politically correct, metaphysical, Biblical Conservative Worldview, at the core spiritual, but not religious, me. That’s who I am at the core. I would have thought that the love connection I would have made, the epic live altering, want to grow old with connection made would have been a mirror of that, but nope.
The gift that life brought me was a very enigmatic, academic who had been closed of from love for so long he had disconnected from the most profound levels of self and divinity and all of that, but was able to re-connect in ways that also enhanced my own connections to all of that exponentially. They say timing is everything and timing wasn’t quite right for a real coming together and full communion on all levels the first time around for this enigmatic academic life gifted me with and myself. He needed and I needed to really be made raw on so many levels before we could come back together, to understand just how deep and what a gift this connection was and how to really appreciate and embrace it rightly.
I also needed to balance my gifts as an artist, and also as a person of faith, and reason to be free of fear, we both did and such a journey takes some time, and doesn’t happen overnight. However, once it has been completed, it is amazing, and the depth of connection is incredible. I don’t even pretend to understand it, as it is beyond my comprehension, so I can only live it and be grateful for it, put it into art and live it also each and every day.