I have been on a long journey of truth finding for myself and my own life and I realized I had to stop this tug of war between my head and my heart, so I went into deep reflection for a little over an hour to really get at my core truth, begin to get their of my heart and mind in synch dream for my life. What did that yield?
I realized that vocationally I really want to have an independent career as a songwriter and recording artist, a music ministry really, that also in some sense serves as a teaching ministry. Don’t get me wrong, any encouragement, inspiration and such from others is welcome and appreciated. Any assistance received in collaboration with people I meet in my Meet Up Networking events is also going to be appreciated. I want to maintain as much independence in the work etc… as possible. There are organizations to help me navigate contracts and all that such as ASCAP, Volunteer Lawyer For the Arts, so I am going to be good on the independent artist path.
Then things moved to my personal life. I definitely think that the person that would be my life partner has to also be my friend, maybe my best friend at the end of the day and it would be nice to have some common ground. However, at the end of it all, what is going to count is that depth of friendship, how we treat each other, being friends etc… not because we can get something from each other, but because we truly feel connected to the other. We have to be able to encourage, inspire etc… each other’s gifts, talents, dreams in some measure always. We may not always agree on stuff, have different ideologies to some extent, but if we have a common spiritual ground, or cultural ground, something like that, at least we have something to anchor us and our deep friendship to begin with. I look forward to embracing this twin flame, soulmate.
This is what came of this long meditation and reflection.
Shalom and Amen