Life has ups and downs and the fibromyalgia comes with ups and downs all its’ own. It has I think been one of the two reasons I have been reluctant to open my heart to love.
I know everyone has issues and stuff, but I guess it’s only now that I have really been able to come to full terms with the past, the hurt, and accept the ups and downs of the fibromyalgia, just adjust to them. That’s great, and I am great I have. Now comes the trusting another person in a few ways. First, trusting they wont trample on my heart, which I know to really embrace love, I have to do that. Second, trusting they will be secure enough etc… and love me enough in the relationship once it is solid to be okay with the ups and downs of the fibromyalgia. Third, trusting they will be supportive of who I am holistically as a person and my goals. I know I also have to do the same, get that.
Scary, this entrusting yourself to another and opening your heart, spirit, soul to another, but I think the journey, all of it, with the right person, worth it. That’s the key, with the right person, your twin flame or soulmate, true twin flame or soulmate on every level.
Who I am is a Conservative, Sweet, but with an unapologetic side of Darn Sassy, Italian-American, Metaphysical Christian Philosopher and Artist to some extent, who loves Israel, as much as she does the land of her birth, so hand off her. That is who I am as a person.
Hey, I am happy with that 100%. That I understand at this juncture isn’t producing income, not yet, though it will soon enough I am certain. However, with the fibro in mind I also have to figure out “what do I do?” I love being a spontaneous poet and songwriter, recording, and being a philosopher, all that jaz, but I also have to get practical to some extent. Practical with following the heart is okay, nothing wrong with that, but even the practical has to be in line with the heart, spirit, and what you love. Therefor, I had to think about what I could do that would bring together my love of beauty, would allow me to do something I could love, follow my heart, be okay with. That’s why I decided to go ahead with being a Monave sales rep and see how I could combine the arts with natural beauty products, to be practical and follow my heart. I believe I can do both, use the practical to be create, fund the creative and even combine the two.
It is always going to be important for me that I follow my heart in some form, in some way. That is for sure.