Fibromyalgia is a syndrome and as any syndrome goes is not quite predictable, so when you make plans ahead of time you may find that those plans get put asunder. Fibromyalgia changed my life, actually put me on the path I feel I was meant to be on, the arts and ministry in some way.
It also keeps teaching me that the adage of best laid plans of mice and men etc… is true. It also keeps teaching me over and over again that patience is not only a virtue, but a necessity, as is flexibility. That doesn’t mean I can’t have goals, a life vision all that, but it does mean that I have be flexible enough to allow for changes, last minute changes etc… Often in life isn’t that the case? You make plans, have it all set out, all laid out, and then boomerang. However, it is important to be able to step back, and rather than get into a tizzy, let it go, or just adjust the plans. If God, the universe etc… determines maybe that plan was not the best option, the way you laid it out, and you need to go back, nothing wrong with having to adjust it. Doesn’t mean you have to scrap it. You simply meditate, pray quietly, maybe in a place where there is nature, and you figure out how you do need to adjust it. Adapting or changing plans, does not make you weak or a failure, but failing to do so or even consider it, makes you a stubborn baboon. Today I was supposed to go to an event, Founder’s Day for the Sons and Daughters of Italy Petrosino Lodge, important day for the lodge, but I had a bad night, and crashed. I could get all down about it, but that does nothing, so I have to let go and if I crash again tomorrow, miss another event I am supposed to go to, okay. Monday I go see the doctor, get blood work done, as it is likely the thyroid, one of the issues the Fibro brings with it, my meds get adjusted and all is well again.
At one point I was even going to close myself off from a relationship, even letting one in because of the Fibromyalgia, thinking that the person I have in mind to have a relationship with would not be keen on being with someone who deals with this syndrome and the annoying boomerangs that go with it. Then I thought, no since I am very open social media about my syndrome and even in discussion about it, have been always, so the person is well aware of it, and if they come knocking looking for a relationship, then I would be wrong to close that door and I would not be giving them much credit as a person if I did, so when they are ready and come knocking, which I cross my fingers is soon, very soon, boldly and courageously they will know about it and we will get through the rough patches together. I look forward to opening my heart etc.. to them and they to me fully and riding the rough waves together, including riptides. Fibromyalgia may change plans etc…, but I can’t let it close me off to others.
Namaste, Shalom and Amen