Don’t Want To Be Protected

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The Journey That is Life.

There are times when people want to protect themselves and others if they are going through a rough patch and I can understand that.  As an intuitive and empath I can sense when someone I have connection to is going through stuff and caring I want to be there see them through.  It’s tough when they are not allowing me in and that being a reason.

I thought about it and asked myself if I wanted to be protected from a vindictive third party or the situation etc.., if that was the reason they were not letting me into their lives, though I sense they want to very much.  If I were running on survival instinct vibrations, fear vibrations, were not one tough cookie having had to navigate fibromyalgia and all the crap that entails, I might say yes I want to be protected and out of sight until they sort it out fully.  Since that is not the case, I have to say no.  I don’t want to be protected.  I want to be there for them every step of the way, ease their tensions, their frustrations, be a sounding board for all their frustrations, maybe even a nice shoulder massage.  I want to be there for them and with them through the good, the bad etc…  I want to share in the creative, in the day to day, in all that makes their life their life, and I want to share with them what makes my life my life, including my work with Hadassah, the Jewish roots of Christ that I love being a part of, as well as our shared heritage.  I want to share all of it with them, even my fibro frustrations.  That is what I hope, pray for, as I do feel strongly connected to them, did the moment we met.  I sense they are going through a rough time, ending a chapter of their life.  I wish I could be there for them, help see them through as they navigate this ocean with lots of angry waves I sense coming at them.  I can only do what they allow me to do and if they allow me in.  For now all I can do is meditate, pray and visualize that they will let me in and let me be their rock, be there for them, and I do hope that we will be able at some point to share a lot of great things, a lot.

Namaste, Shalom and Amen


kappello

Born in New Jersey, August 1965, this Italian-American has always had a great interest in music, particularly the Oldies, Country and Ethnic music, including Irish. For over 10 years Ms. Appello passionately taught ESL to students of varying ages. Grounded if her faith and spirituality, Katherine endured a range of issues, including a great deal of pain, which was finally diagnosed to be associated with Fibromyalgia. The essence and the power of music, of words, allow Katherine to overcome these struggles each and every time. We are all blessed to have Katherine’s strength, wisdom, and words to write “Pray For Me Tonight’