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What’s happening with things and this blog?  I love sharing, love creating my songs etc… and sharing them with others, so here is what I have decided to do.  I will still be registering my songs etc.. on ASCAP and other venues for copyright protection.  However, I won’t be selling them,  same with my coaching.  What am I going to do?

  • I have set it up so you can donate to the blog, small amounts, nothing large
  • I will be regularly sharing my songs, spoken word poetry, meditations etc.. I create with you on here
  • I hope you will consider supporting this blog and thus the arts, including spiritual arts

Thank You

 

Expectations Too High?

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The Journey That is Life.

When it comes to connections, as an overall empath, intuitive and of the spirit, heart on the sleeve channeling poet, songwriter, lyricist when I connect to someone I can connect sudden and strong, very strong, hit like a ton of bricks strong.   That can be complex on both ends of the connection.    

When the connection happens, I jump right off the cliff, full faith that the parachute will open and all will be awesome right away, full embrace, no song and dance, just jump right in.  I jump right in extending friendship, sharing what I sense everything about everything, including the other person’s full potential, problems I am picking on, transitions in their life, all of it, full throttle, no holding back, heart on my sleeve, shoot from the hip.  I have no problem with it, nudging, encouraging the other person, really pushing them a bit to get out of the box, jump off the cliff, trust the parachute to open, take control of destiny, be bold, come on, as a friend, and extending pure Agape Love Friendship through and through, really wanting to be there from the moment that connection is made for that person through thick and thin, hope they will do the same for me.  However, I forget one thing, the other person is not me.  They may not be an empath, an intuitive, an extrovert, of the spirit, heart on the sleeve, shoot from the hip etc… and this may be very overwhelming for them.  My expectations, all these expectations early on may be too much, too soon, too overwhelming for the other person.  Also they may have stuff that if I sense they are trying to sort out in life and me trying to ram my way in was not what they needed, so rather than bring the connection to unity, I may have pushed it away.  It may not have been intentional, but in my heart on my sleeve etc.. from the potency of the connection on a psychic etc… level just didn’t realize.  I also in my really wanting to have them see all their dreams etc… come to fruition and be their biggest cheerleader may not have realized there were things they needed to get out of first, sort out in their own head, heart etc.. first.   As the poem in the Bible says, to everything there is a time and purpose under the heavens.  I have to trust that if this connection so strong, so powerful was made, with so much in common, including what seems to be worldview, then it will come to fruition in some form or others most solid.  If I did push to far, too fast, my error and I am sorry for that, truly and I do hope with the right timing etc… we will be a beautiful solid part of each other’s life encouraging, inspiring.  

Namaste, Shalom and Amen

 

Deep Connect, Reluctance?

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The Journey That is Life.

 

Can you care deeply, have deep connection, still be on some level reluctant about being with someone?  Yeah.  

You can care about someone, maybe even have connected to someone very deeply and it’s mutual, your heart, your psychic center as an empath etc… tells you strongly it is mutual.  There are signs it is and you feel there is great potential for the relationship, the union, you feel it in your gut, your deepest psychic center.  Yet either because of their not having responded to your reaching out, you feeling they are too closed of heart compared to your being an open book, heart on your sleeve, or whatever the reason, a part of you feels reluctant to fully embrace the possibility of a union, even if they were to suddenly show up and say they wanted one with you.  Maybe you have gone through the scenario in your head of what it would be like, what you would say or do etc…, imagining the different outcomes.  That can be lousy because one of the outcomes you can imagine is all that can go wrong outcome.  Then you get too scared etc.. and you talk yourself right out of it. Usually there is a reason why you feel that reluctance, so to just dismiss it, no shouldn’t dismiss it outright, but also shouldn’t allow it to keep you from moving forward with a connection, relationship if you truly are connected, feel a connection to a person.  What do you do?  

The thing is, you really can’t get past any reluctance until you talk to the person, until you are both face to face.  Once you are face to face, you see how you feel one one on one, face to face, discussing any issues, any reluctance etc…, only then can you see what possibilities the relationship and future hold.  Unless and until you actually sit down with the person and talk, it’s all just speculation in your head, now I am not talking about abuse situations, where there was a history of abuse or anything like that and the person wants to come back in, no.  Sometimes you have friendships, or other relationships that for different reasons never got off the ground or had a bit of a rocky road due to baggage you both were carrying, immaturity, circumstance at the time made it impossible for there to be a relationship, or one person reached out the other didn’t respond at the time to the reaching out in friendship for whatever reason, then they do.  Maybe you feel like “why should I now give you the time of day when you basically smacked down my outreach for friendship?”  Then again, they could have had circumstances you don’t know about going on, so maybe need to hear them out.  I have one or two connections that I have zero uncertainty about reconnecting with, whom I met once or twice in context of ministry, then there are others, I have two other connections that for different reasons, even in the context of creative collaboration, I have hesitancy and reluctance.  However, I realize it is not them, it’s me, I am the one with the doubts etc… and really it comes down to being willing to sit down one on one should either ever decide to be in my life in any capacity and listen, discuss, be open fully to them of heart and soul, as I am with my arts, with all of you here with my blog.  

 

Namaste, Shalom and Amen

Content of DNC Emails =EH

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As the emails got leaked, with more coming about how the DNC felt about Latinos as “taco bowls”, Kaine seeing their constituency as ignorant and all that, and seeing the reaction of Democrats to any minority supporting Trump, Conservative values, Pro-life values anything like that I was not surprised.  Why you wonder?  History, the roots of the Democratic Party and the mindset of Progressives, which are a big part of the party, the Woodstock segment.  

Roots and mindset have a lot to do with things.  The Democrats, their roots are dark, tries to present itself as the party of champions of freedom etc.., includes the Clinton team.  Problem with all that, history says otherwise, and history is why they keep growing government more and more.  William J Clinton was one of 99 Democrat Senators to sign something called the Southern Manifesto, which opposed Brown vs. Board of Education to end segregation.  Al Gore’s father voted against the Civil Rights Act, while Goldwater fought for it. The Democrats and you can verify it were the party of slavery, Jim Crowe, all of that.  The GOP actually started as the Abolitionist Party and fought for the freedom of slaves, for their equality. The Democratic party always looked down on their constituents, some in the GOP also do, but on the whole, the DNC has this notion that We The People are too ignorant to do for ourselves, fend for ourselves, think for ourselves and darnet if you are a minority, you have to have the government take of you, think for you, and you can’t be a Conservative Pro-life, Pro Traditional anything, or determine that you are a free thinking, free spirit individual, and community who can solve his or her own problems with innovation and working with others, same with business.  For the Democratic Party, as we see in the emails, if they are not controlling every facet of your life, and some in the GOP, really should just mover over to the Democrat party because they are of that same mindset, and have no backbone to fight the DNC on these notions.  It truly did not, does not surprise me that the Party of enslavement and all that wants a nation of total ignorance, submission, no innovation, no free market, socialism, Marxism, total government dependency, total corporate welfare, too big to fail.  It does not surprise me one bit.  For the DNC to try and demonize the GOP when they were started by the KKK etc… is too laughable, disingenuous and phony baloney.

What does surprise me?  The stupidity of the American people, corporate sector, all segments of society not to see it so much sooner and stop it.  This is why I am supporting a non-politician, someone who didn’t need this friggin headache of running for office, but did it because his country needed someone to go in, who knows the system inside out, is a doer, a tough, defiant even SOB, with a big sledge hammer, including the Constitution and crush the system so it can be properly reconstructed again using the very constitution.  The GOP as it was must not be, nothing as it was must be because it is rigged, busted, broken, all of it.  There are too many unconstitutional agencies, too much red tape, too much and it has to end, and fast, no talking, doing!  

Namaste, Shalom and Amen

Three Birthday Wishes

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As my Birthday approaches, August 4th, I find myself asking if I could be granted three wishes, what would they be?  That is something we should think very carefully of if we had that change.  

However, in listening to my heart, one wish I guess immediately came to mind, didn’t have to think about it.  I would wish circumstances had been different in every way and a particular relationship would have worked out very differently for us both, that it would have worked.  The connection was there, no doubt the love also, even now the connection is still there, psychic bond is there, never faded, still strong, mutually I am sure.  Circumstances, our own personal baggage made it really rather difficult for that to be.  There is still a bit of frustration on my part about how caught up he is in  a world that is not his, and who he has thrown his, his own roots under the bus, a sore point for me, as is his far progressive leanings, but in spite of all that, the psychic connection, soul connection is still strong, hasn’t faded, never will.  I thought about what I would do if they should up on the road to free and clear wanting a second chance to get it right, right before my birthday what I would do.  I smiled and realized I’d accepted as a birthday gift, so long as they would be free and clear, so long as that would be the destination and it would be followed through on, no exception.  Any differences of philosophy, ehhh, no one agrees on all things all the time, what matters is the heart.  

As for the other wishes, well one would be to have the right partner to support me and make the journey with me as I work to build my path as an artist and life coach, to really be there with me inspiring, encouraging, helping me network, being there for me, and I would want to be there for them in any capacity they need me to as well.  The other wish is to have every resource for the full unleashing and to be living my full potential as an artist, as a transitional and transformational life coach, the quiet space, every resources.  I love my 92 year old mamma, but I basically out of a false sense of guilt I now realize did not create a life for myself to be her constant companion and self sabotaged myself career wise, didn’t really pursue my dreams for that very reason, feeling that as my dad had abandoned her, us, my being an only child her not really being fluent in English I had to stay by her side.  It was not wise.  She didn’t realize what I was doing, or if she did subconsciously, she encouraged it. I would wish for every resource to have my own space etc…, everything to really fly as an artist and in my vocation. As I said foremost, I would wish to turn back time and have circumstances everything be different necessary to be different so that relationship could thrive, succeed in every way, every sense.  

We shall see what versions of those three wishes I get for my birthday.

Namaste, Shalom and Amen

 

Partnerships, Ready For That

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The Journey That is Life.

Partnering, Blending, Collaborating, Compliment and Synergy, two halves coming together to form the whole, whether it is for the arts, my path as a life coach/minister, advocate for Israel, even life long companion and sacred union.  

For the longest time I thought partnership meant losing me, having to way of living my dreams, my gifts etc…, and I had a lot of baggage from childhood, so I really couldn’t envision being anyone’s equal partner and all that in any way.  Now I want to do things in partnership, whether it is the arts, life coaching and ministry, advocating for Israel, and I want to have that special someone in my life to share all of it with, an equal, not someone I am going to be a substitute mother for, or teacher for, not that one doesn’t learn from everyone, but I mainly want someone who has learned a lot of their life lessons, isn’t a whiner, can really make things happen, we can make things happen together, be a real team.  I want to have partnerships in the arts in certain music genres that my music seems to move in, so I am going to be looking to move in that direction, same with the coaching, find partnerships to bring in clients later on when I am ready to start that path.  As for my soulmate, life companion,  I am certain there are at least one or two out there that fit the bill, though there might be some things to discuss etc.., but it’s okay, life is a journey of navigation, and one learns how to navigate.  No partnership is perfect, all sweet and sugar all the time, personal or otherwise, but when there is real caring, foundation of friendship, common goals you can get past it, and when you are good in your own skin etc…you can get though any disagreements and be fine.  

I really look forward to partnership and collaboration in life, solid ones, ones that will be based on solid friendship etc.. in all spheres of life, where everyone grows as a person throughout the journey.  

Namaste, Shalom and Amen

Victim Is As Victim Believes One Is

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Blame is a child’s mechanism, not an adults.

I want to thank all those who touched my life in some way first and foremost.  To those past, present, including those who I am now realizing may not have the courage to be part of my life, and I have to release the connection.  

Some of those who were in my life caused me joy, some pain, some a combination, including my dad, and someone I had very deep feeling for and was involved with for a long while because I just couldn’t bring myself to let go and kept going back to something that just ended up causing me pain, even if there were moments of joy.   Then there were the dreams long postponed, the finances I did not handle well for a long time, and the fibromyalgia that turned everything upside down and inside out, which actually turned out to be a huge blessing.  It is in part because of the fibro that I took the artist way.    As I look back and as I look at a world gone mad, a college generation run amok, I realize what is different in me and that is mindset.  I have a different mindset than I did in the past, than I did growing up.    It is not a mindset of “fate has dealt me this card and that card, what can I do?” or any of that crap.  It is not a mindset of being a victim of circumstance, of anything and it is not a mindset of  being willing to live in any box, certainly not one imposed by others, which would limit my talents from flourishing so on and so forth.  Others may not like it, may even rub some the wrong way, but I am not responsible for how others feel, choose to feel about my life decisions for fulfilling my dreams, my hopes, my true heart, not professionally, not even pursuing true love, one that is true pure agape and yes a touch of eros as well, why not.  Whether it is a student in a classroom, an employee, a manager, an artist, anyone, we are as much a victim as we choose to be at any given time.  Even within prison walls, one can be free, one can work to better one’s self and then give back to society when one leaves those walls.  If we believe we are doomed to be in debt forever, then we will be, rather than finding a way to settle that debt etc…  If we believe that the disease, or syndrome defines us, then it will and we will crawl up in a ball in a corner and never live.  If we believe we can not reach out to another, love another or be loved, then we won’t.  We choose whether someone walks away from a relationship before it even has a chance based by how we treat them, respond to them before it has even really started.  If we act cold, uncaring etc… to them, but with others we are all warm and fuzzy, then we basically are telling them leave, you I don’t care to have anything to do with.  When that person decides to do just that, we can’t than moan and groan that they have no interest in being part of our lives, act like victims.  We acted cold, uncaring, unresponsive, and we then get that back, what can we expect?   We are only victims in as far as we have made ourselves victims, not anyone else has made us victims,  and we as a society, as individuals must not live in a victim mentality.  

Namaste, Shalom and Amen