The Enabler Bears A Darker Soul?

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Enablers of any addiction including sex be it the man or the woman bear perhaps a darker soul than the addict.  Enablers of addiction are not the only types of enablers, there are other types.  I am going to start with the enabling we are most familiar with, hear about most 

For whatever reason the enabler of a alcoholic, sex addict or any such addict will:

1. Ignore the addicts behavior, have difficulty expressing emotions

2. Be almost robotic in their life dealingsPput the addicts addiction ahead of everything, unless the addiction is being purposely ignores for personal ambitions as I believe Killary did

4. Avoid any situation of confrontation that would cause the addict to react in anger etc…

5. Lying to cover their behavior

6. Blame others for what is happening or any consequences

7. Resent the addict

That seems to fit the Killary, Slick Willy pattern, and from what those who worked and work security have to say she resents the heck out him, but yet she stays and I will not change my view that it is out of and always has been out of pure ambition that she stayed and never moved heaven and earth to get him into a rehab facility for the sex addiction.  This is my view, my opinion and I stand by it.

Safety and Safety Blanket Enablers:

Safety and safety blanket enablers can be those who never nudge, encourage, or push you outside of a particular world, or zone in your career, in terms of exploring your gifts, talents, always having you play it safe, stay with the familiar in your career in your life.  They measure everything by safety and security blankets, by duty and obligation and they ingrain that in others.  If you have parents that ingrain that in you and ingrain you to never go outside your comfort zone, play it safe, or you have people directing your career who do the same, well you may have a level of stability and a safety blanket, but are you truly living life, your dreams, your full potential, who you truly are meant to be as a person, as an artist, educator etc… Now, out of your box and comfort zone doesn’t mean reckless and no moral ethical boundaries, no.  On the other hand if you are never encouraged to move forward in any bold, courageous way, to not play it safe all the time, to wear your heart on your sleeve and truly feel, love, embrace love, and all that has the potential to encompass with the person who might very well be your truest soulmate, then are you truly living and alive?  If you don’t truly explore the spiritual and philosophical with your own heart, spirit and soul, but just embrace something because that’s what the family has always believed is that authentic and authentic to you?  One has to enable others to have wings to learn to fly outside of boxes, encourage that, love that they do when they do and if you can in any way be a part of that, join them in that journey, rejoice, it’s a beautiful gift you will have been given. 

Enabling can happen in so many ways on so many levels positive or negative and hopefully we give people wings to fly, to see their full potential and to live it and we do not cover up for their failings, when they are in need of help, we never let personal ambition come before that help.  In my next blog I will talk about how to stop being an enabler.

Namaste, Shalom and Amen


My Path to Judaism

As I heard this I realized this describes my journey to the truth that Jesus would never recognize Christianity as his faith and religion were he to return.  It is not anything he created, and the journey God had in mind from the beginning of time was for all to be part of the Tree of Jesse, of Judaism, very heartfelt, not legalistic Judaism.  I am so blessed to have made this journey home.

Can’t Have It Both Ways

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Women want to be equal, treated equally to men, be considered in all things equal to men, so then what is the problem?  

Well there shouldn’t be, except when there is and when we fail to see that women are not men and men are not women.  God, the universal force of creation, call it as you will was biologically clear on that, including with childbearing, it’s the ladies being the ones giving birth to new life, the ones feeding from the breast all that.  The woman is both nurturer, yet one tough cookie.  However she is not a man, so there is this paradox that a woman lives in being a woman.  What do I mean about can’t have it both ways?  If woman say they want to be treated equally to men in work situations, in education, then that is exactly what they should expect, and not whine, moan and groan acting like some delicate flower that has to handled with kid gloves emotionally, verbally, but we had better all get a very thick skin and not expect to be treated any differently, given dumbed down testing or have tests or anything changed to facilitate it.  If we can hack it as is great, if we can’t find another line of work etc… I see it in politics where if the male politician or journalist gets really tough, and I mean bulldog rough and tumble grill your tukkus on your life, your record, your history etc.. same as he would a guy everyone freaks out including the female candidate.  If you can’t take the grilling, and the heat, get the hell out of the kitchen.  Why should a female candidate be treated with kid gloves or any differently than a male candidate?  Why?  I would hope that if I were running for office my opposition if male would not take my gender into account and if I were running against another female I would not take gender into account, I would grill her tukkus and nail her to the wall as I felt was necessary and don’t expect PC as part of the deal.  If they got fiesty, bring it on lady, the fiestier about the issues , the better, so long as we stuck to absolute truth and fact, including in the case of someone like Killary that she enabled a sex addict to be a sex addict for her pure ambitions and she has no right to say she is a champion of women based on her marriage and her record.  Women can’t say they want to be treated equally, are strong etc.. then want safe spaces for speech all this crap.  It doesn’t jive.  Doesn’t mean men can treat women in any way with violence or should degrade them, but at the same time if you are in the political arena or if you are in a high ranking position, and female don’t expect kid gloves and don’t act like you are to be treated like some delicate flower.  

Feminism went far out of what it was meant to be and society in general has warped everything to where everything is upside down, down side up, inside out.  Feminism is not about giving up your femininity, your nurturing, motherhood any of that, despising it, just the opposite.  It is about celebrating all of that, but also recognizing that we are strong because of that and asking society to give us the opportunity to realize the potential of our gifts, talents.  That does not mean we are men or equal to men by nature in every sense,  in upper body strength for example. Again if we are going to say that we are equal in all things to men, that we want to be one of the guys, then we had better not expect any special treatment, adjustment etc.. or to be treated like a delicate flower, and we had better not whine moan and groan when we get treated like one of the guys, grilled like a barbecue on the fourth of July on the debate stage, or in the conference room.

Namaste, Shalom and Amen

Why I Am Not Afraid of My Heart


I was wondering recently what it is that I don’t fear speaking from the heart, call it as I see it, reach out, say what I feel pretty much. What is it that makes me so okay with that, with take it leave it, take me or leave me as is good, feisty, tough N.Y.C. etc..fibro junk and all? It dawned on me, faith.  

Faith and being comfortable in my own skin.  That means that I can speak what is in my heart to pretty much anyone, speak my mind to pretty much anyone PC or not, who cares. I can stand by what I stand by and not stand by what I don’t stand by.  I don’t have to fear what others think because I am comfortable in my own skin.  That is not to say that one doesn’t know how to act appropriately in any given situation, one does , but I don’t create my music or do anything I do based on what anyone thinks I ought to be doing.  My faith journey is my own, doesn’t have to be the same path my family has followed for generations.  I respect their faith and my heritage, but that path of spirituality  and theology does not fit my path.  I have come to a certain understanding of Yeshua and Messiah that more accords with the Jewish faith, so I honor that and if anyone is not okay with that, their problem, not mine, that includes family as much as I love them.  Luckily my mom is not fanatic so her view is “do what you think is the right thing and frankly their theology makes more sense, but at 92, don’t expect me to change paths.”  That’s cool.  

It has been a long and somewhat painful journey to get here, but I am here.  I can share my heart, spirit, etc.. comfy in my own skin.  I wish certain others could do to as well, fully reach out to me, share what is in their heart, spirit and soul.  I wish they felt comfortable totally in their own skin to just take that huge leap of faith and jump right in, reach out etc…start a journey that I think would be amazing.  They have begin making shifts to their life, which I am happy they are doing, and I am so proud to have a connection to them.  What I love most is that the connection was one of immediate magnetic pull of magnetism connection, and inspiration.  I see it as a beautiful and sacred gift given to my life.  I am at point where I can reach out, share myself, who I am, what I feel all of that, even in poetry and song.  I hope everyone can get to this point in life in their own way, and hope that certain people I have a connection to can get there soon.  It is a wonderful thing to be comfy in your own skin and be able to reach out to those you have a connection to in a special way, however that reaching out is done.

Namaste Shalom and Amen

Jewish People Must Become Evangelists

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The light shines within., going out in connection to the Divine Creator.

The more I learn about Judaism, the Pentateuch requirements etc.. of Messiah, the more I study Kabbalah and the more I see Israel under attack and anti-semitism on the rise, the more I feel the need for Judaism, Moderate Conservative Judaism, and Practical Zionism backed by History to be brought out to the masses and evangelization to become part of the Jewish faith.  

When I say evangelization I mean just that, evangelization, not in a yelling screaming in your face kind of way, or knocking on doors because that is just rude frankly.  However, the Jewish community, Conservative Jewish community, moderate conservatives and those of true Kabbalah, not the mystic hodge podge of different religions incorporated Kabbaalah, but those of true Kabbalah, should come together with those of the moderate conservative jewish community and work to share the faith and with the JCRC bring an understanding of Judaism and the truth of Messiah to the world.   Why is this imperative one might ask?  Well it is imperative to the existence of Israel for one as a distinct land of the Jewish people and for the Jewish people and their existence as the children of Abraham, for the gentiles grafted into the tree and all to be under the faith of One God, and One only.   It is also important because we should live according to truth and the Jewish understanding and true kabbalah understanding of the Messaiah, of sin etc… is as I see it truth, makes a heck of a lot more sense than other faith traditions.  It is imperative that the Jewish people share the truth of Judaism and Messiah according to the Pentateuch, not what was then twisted around to fit a narrative because people wanted a savior according to their standards.  Also, for the survival of the Jewish people and Israel itself it is as I see it necessary to share the truth of Judaism and that Yeshua was simply seeking to bring everyone into the Jewish faith, and reform the faith to be less about legalism and more about the heart, that personal relationship with God and each other.  That is not to say that he or God condone abbhorant or deviant behavior, lawlessness any of that, no.  Yeshua also understood that if Judaism gets so bogged down in ritual and law that they forget the human factor then it is no longer about faith, spirituality, nurturing, growing etc.. and that was what he came to save, and he came to save his faith, the faith of Abraham, Jacob and Isaac from that yoke of legalism, devoid of feeling, of heart, of a personal relationship with the spiritual realm.  His intention was as it was from the beginning I truly believe to graft the gentile into the Jewish faith.

I would like to see Jewish media on the Internet promoted more aggressively, openly, and I would like to see Jewish teaching on Messiah and true Kabbalah regularly on TV, on the radio   The faith needs to be shared, the beauty and truth of it should and has to be shared, and I hope in some way as I grow in my journey as a newly embraced member of the Jewish community I can do my part in this endeavor.  

Namaste, Shalom and Amen


Kabbalah Behind the Fiction to Truth


Kabbalah has been like many things over time exploited and twisted into a pretzel that is nothing like the original or the true Kabbalah in its’ original form, and I have realized that about many things including Messiah, and how that was also misunderstood by well meaning Jews in the time of Jesus.  I have discussed my view of the type of Messiah Jesus is as I see it, one from legalism.  

Kabbalah is helping me understand that even in terms of relationship, though I may very well not agree with a particular view of someone I care about and who cares about me, but I should be willing to try and understand where that comes from, especially if they try to do the same for me.  If we can come to understand where they are coming from in terms of that perspective, then we might be able to come to a point where we can say “I love you, care about you, and I understand where you are coming from, wow we have the same over all goal for life, humanity etc..just see a different road of getting there and I can respect that.”  I am realizing with the study of Kabbalah that it is all about perspective, spiritual perspective, vibrations etc.. I am learning to look at the Pentateuch as a book of symbol and metaphor, allegory of  levels of consciousness, as well as seeds of history and sociology combined.  It is truly transformative.