My Other Connection, the (But)
I wrote about one connection I have that is very strong and I can feel, can sense, and the (but), the hesitation that would make me pause about being with them in a relationship. even a friendship.
There is also a (but), pause with the other strong empathic etc… connection in my life, tough there is very strong chemistry, very strong. However, my concern is three fold. One is that I wear my heart on my sleeve, and they are they are very closed, very old school, are just now really opening up a bit, but not sure they would ever really open up fully on all levels. Second, I am on a very different spiritual path, and I don’t know how comfortable they would be with that. I grew up Catholic and he is very much a part of that faith, world, but it’s not who I am, I align much more with Judaism, Kabbalah. I do believe Yeshua came to save, but from legalism and to bring us all to the One God, to Judaism. I am on a path that is Jewish in spirituality etc..Third, my fibormyalgia is a daily ghost that I have always there, always making itself known in some way. I am not sure it is something this person, even if we were to simply engage in an artistic collaborative union and friendship would want to deal with. I realize I should not make assumptions about what anyone is ready or willing to accept or deal with etc…, whether in friendship or anything, yet I have to be honest about what gives me pause. While with the other connection it is a worldview of progressivism and anti-zionism and such, that really irks me greatly, with this connection it is these three points that give me pause.
My instincts tell me both are going to be showing up at some point in my life, be knocking at the door, and I need to be honest with myself about what hesitations I might have. If I am not, I will not be able to address them should either or both come knocking at the door.
Namaste, Shalom and Amen