Can’t Do It All At Once So…


I have several things I want to do, including in conjunction with the Society For Applied Judaism artistically, record a bunch of songs in Italian, and re-record meditations, as well as record new ones.  I can’t do it all at once, so what to do.  I decided the following.

  • Start with erasing all recordings so far and start over 
  • Collaboration with a wonderful artist Michelle and record three songs, work with her for her to record the songs and then put them up for sale on my bandcamp site.  
  • Then I hope to spend time at the Society For Applied Judaism to record a series of meditations from there.
  • The Italian songs, that is project three, once I get practice with my voice and vocals, so I can be part of the recording directly of those songs, not just the writing.  

I want to really get solidly involved with the Society for Applied Judaism and more involved with OSIA, Sons and Daughters of Italy in whatever way I can.  I realize that since I have not yet gotten past the fibromyalgia, I can’t push to hard or too much, so I do have to pace myself.  Life is so good when you can do what you love, and love what you do.  Certain collaborations may never come to pass artistically, but can’t dwell on that.  If people choose to stay in one little world artistically, so be it.  I hope I never stay in one little world artistically.


There Is A Time and A Season

I have meditated, prayed for a pathway in the artistic and spiritual realm combined for years and years.  I have tried on my own, wanting to do it all on my own to move forward.  Yet seemed nothing was really happening.  I thought nothing was, but I was wrong.

What I didn’t realize is that I was laying foundations and in recording and writing, doing what I was doing the spiritual journey, which was like a maze of sorts was all preparing me and building up my confidence for this time, this moment in time.  I am now reaching out to others to seek collaboration and realize I may not be a singer, so much as a storyteller and writer.   Maybe I had better stick with spoken word and writing and let someone else to the singing, the main singing, I can do background or something like that.  I realize that I have to reach out to spiritual institutions that resonate with me and offer to collaborate, to even record albums to sell and part it go to support their organization.  I am hoping to do that with a Jewish Center on 39th street.  Whether I make a lot on the sales or a modest sum, that is not the point, the point is reaching out to collaborate with others, others of like mind, philosophy so I can inspire and be inspired.  Praying alone won’t make the mountain move, I have to be part of the creative process to move it out of the way.  I have to allow myself to be divinely guided as to how I achieve what the divine has inspired in my heart.

I hope this helps to stimulate your creativity and creative path, wisdom, spiritual inspiration.

Broken Road, Not Always Negative!

Sometimes the road is not straight, not smooth and there are lots of cracks, it is broken along the way, especially with relationships, whether family or otherwise.  We may not see a purpose to that broken road, those glitches, but sometimes they are part of what is needed to get us to mature, get straight who we are, and where we are going, what we truly require to be happy, and fulfilled.  It will help us realize what is toxic, hurting us etc… and give us the strength finally to break free of what should have been broken free of years ago, maybe even come back together with what is meant to be.  If the road is not totally smooth, don’t curse it, learn from it and find a way to get to the smoother road, the road to fulfillment, peace and joy.


Some Bonds Never Die



This morning I woke up several times with a very strong sense that a certain person was thinking about me, and very intensely and it was a bout not just the physical, but wanting real intimacy.  

In a way I still l am trying to wrap my head around the fact that after all this time that psychic connection is still there, still strong.  I also was surprised since I am very vocal, no holding back on FB about my views on pretty much everything and I have no intention of becoming a liberal progressive anytime in my lifetime, rather the opposite and hoping to get us free of government involvement in our lives and much more reliance on community, and the private sector for education, for everything.  Since this person is a sadly die hard liberal progressive, I find it interesting and also beautiful that in spite of my being quite blunt, honest in my views, even in regards to his views etc.. on stuff, we still have this strong psychic bond.  

I suppose as an empath and such, there are certain bonds that once made will never die, and I have a handful of those.  It is a beautiful thing, but at the same time, I have to step back when all this connection is happening, to assess what is going on, what  is necessary  in terms of my meditating, the experience holistically and what do do with it.  Though this particular person is not now in my life, and is if my instincts are correct making changes to his life, including legally, which should finalize by the end of the month, he may be thinking about approaching me, coming back into my life.  I am open to accepting that and seeing where it goes, but both of us would have to really get baggage free, and the past fully left in the past.  The past is an old movie, a lesson to be taken away from, but it can’t be the present or the future.  When people are still connected psychically, intuitively, and they come back into each other’s life, they have to do it baggage free, toxic cords free.  I have had the instinct to meditate on release from myself and those i have connection to of all things toxic, includes situations, patterns, emotions.  I will keep doing so.  I truly marvel at the fact that nearly two decades and this connection, though we have not seen each other in two years I think and had had a stretch of time not seeing each other before that, and then had an encounter to talk stuff out, is still so strong on a psychic intuitive level.   It is lovely gift, whatever our worldview differences are.  I consider these connections a gift, even if sometimes the intensity of the other person and what they feel is a bit well intense.  Still, I have learned to breathe through it and see what I am to meditate on, let go of, help them let go of as well.  Should this person or any person I have a solid strong connection to wish to come into my life to pursue friendship etc… or even creative collaboration, they are welcome, but baggage free as much as possible please.  I do believe in the power of meditation, prayer and affirmation to bring that about for one’s self and others.

Namaste, Shalom and Amen


Analyzing Is Not Dealing

There are those who love to analyze everything, life is all about analysis, introspection, and it is all academic, intellectual including in their own lives, with their own challenges.  

Some introspection is great, but if all one does in regards to life’s crap is an intellectual analysis, nothing will be dealt with and there can be no progress made.  One has to go beyond the simple analysis from an intellectual and academic standpoint.  One has to be willing to face one’s feelings, emotions head on in a way that is not destructive.  I tend to meditate and pray at night in bed and even have a recorded meditation that instructs my entire being to be healed and to face all things constructively head on.  Usually I do so through my dreams, which is fine and will get an indication of how to deal with the issue, get a strong gut feeling about things upon waking up.  I know there is this notion of not wanting to rock the boat, but there are times when the boat has to rocked, capsized even, for a solution to come, and that means facing what we feel, even anger and disappointment in ourselves head on.  Does that mean we dwell on it? NO, but we should be willing and able to gain the maturity to face it, deal with it, do so in a way that is not like a belligerent moron, but an adult.  Pretending life is okay when it is not is terribly unhealthy and not the way to go through life.  We have to acknowledge when things are not fine, so they can be made fine, resolved, even if it means we have to let go of people, situations, relationships we have had for a long time.  Is it easy? No, but when it has to be done, it has to be done.  I hope this will help you in that journey.


News, What’s Happening

Inspiration and Love

What’s happening in regards to the arts and other aspects of life?  Here is the scoop:

  • I am realizing the power of that word, that energy those vibrations in regards to the word Christ in doing healing work and artistic work as well
  • I have been invited to join the Artist Midrash at T & V Synagogue
  • My voice back to it’s old self, I can now record the songs, A Capella in Italian for my Valentine’s Day release
  • I am going to once again be participating in the concert given monthly at Most Precious Blood Church
  • I realize that I have always been drawn to Judaism really at the core because it was the first monotheistic faith on on record, and it is the root of what I have always truly been, Metaphysical Christian
  • I am going to be delving into both over the next two years, Judaism and Metaphysical Christianity
  • I also realized it is that about needing God as one needs a crutch, but about choosing God, choosing to acknowledge a creator and being open to connection to that, to that sacred realm

The next two years are going to be quite interesting and quite a journey for me, one I look forward to.  I also hope you will consider my Meditation Sojourn CD, as a gift to give yourself or someone else.  I hope to create other Meditation Sojourn CD’s and offering them on my site at

Thank You


What Founders Really Meant By…

The Journey That is Life.

In the Declaration of Independence, one of the bedrocks of our nation’s formation, identity, along with the anthem, flag, Constitution, when the founders, particularly Federal Republic founders mean by Pursuit of Life, Liberty and Happiness, which was and Property .  but Jefferson changed it to take people out of the mindset of slavery. In regards to this and rights of citizens, it is nothing like what it has been twisted to mean.  We must pray for a peaceful, but effective revolution to get back to what they meant.  What did they mean?

We in our modern society look to happiness as something to pursue and chase, same with life and liberty.  Their understanding was not this at all.  They focused on experiencing and living happiness based on individual talents, gifts, abilities, and overcoming your circumstances with objective moral guidelines.  They saw it as part of the inalienable rights given by God along with life and liberty, liberty from government interference and interference of others in how you live your life, what faith you choose to practice, how you conduct your business, which they understood required a framework of some kind, so we started with the Declaration, then the Constitution.  They understood that you required basic framework of law to insure order, and also that people could pursue free exercise of faith, assembly so on and so forth without government tyranny, without any tyranny.  They understood that that both the Bible and positive psychology give us a very thick understanding of the word “happiness.” It is not about breakfast being yummy. It is about human flourishing, the good life, the obtaining and experiencing of all that can be glossed with the word “happiness,” but only carefully and usually with a few sentences of explanation required to flesh it all out.   The government should create a framework for society to flourish, for people to use free enterprise to get out of any sinkholes or crisis, to use their gifts, talents, and spiritual resources, even at the local community level and for states to be lab rats literally to experiment and then other states see what works very well and adapt that to their state.  The goal of government while providing protection from violence and maintaining a holistic eye on things is there to teach us all to fish, create that atmosphere through the private sector, not to provide a bunch of fish for a lifetime.  

What of equality and natural law? The true definition and understanding is as follows.  n English, equality usually suggests fairness, equity, or the equitable; but what is equitable is often not to give people the same portions, but rather to give what is proportionate to the efforts of each.  It is the European definition, having suffered under Monarchs in the past, particularly the French, and tyrants who have a different and not compatible to our founding definition of equality which suggests forced fairness, equity, or the equitable.  It is not about equal distribution of wealth by force of government and excess taxation, not on the wealthy or corporations, not on anyone.  It simply means that based on what the person has rendered and their level of talent that is what they are entitled to.   It also means that we are all entitled to due legal process in public and private, to not have false information spread as truth to the damage of our reputation or livelihood.   What today is social justice is not, it is a dictatorship and Communism that dictates how we ought to distribute our personal resources, says what and how much they ought to be to make everyone feel good about life circumstances.  Social justice today is  far cry from the true meaning of equality and social justice, which is why we have a messed up world full of debt. That and an emphasis on the material instead of the spiritual.  

If we are going to truly be America then we must radically change how we view rights and equality, all of it, to get back to what the founders envisioned for us, a truly free, diverse opinion, vigorous debate, free enterprise, free market, private charity and welfare nation.


Tikkun Olam or God’s Sacred Precepts?

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There is a notion in the Jewish Faith of Tikkun Olam, repair the world.  To the modern Jews this had meant social justice and trying to force the world to be equal according to a secular model more than the Biblical Precepts given to us by inspiration of God’s Holy Spirit holistically.  How does the Bible tell us to repair the world?  Does repair the world mean we throw out all sacred precepts of faith on sexuality, definition of marriage etc…? Does it mean we force everyone to participate in actions contrary to Biblical Precepts in the name of equality and social justice, or because well that was written long ago and none of it matters except for what modern society says matters?  

These are all valid questions. Sadly, Judaism and even in some sectors of Christianity the answer to the last one is yes.  What is the main problem with social justice as being played out today?  There is this assumption that social justice presented in the Bible is equivalent to charity, to government care and solutions for everything, even everything goes, so long as it makes everyone feel good and equal, which it is not.  As an article online well pint out, the majority believe the wealth should be collected by the government and evenly distributed to members of society that are poor. Some will say social justice sounds like communism. It does; because it is; and the United Nation’s has adopted this Marxist/ socialist philosophy.  It is not the biblical one, and even in the Christian Bible when there is social sharing of goods etc.. it is not government forced, it is the community being persecuted for the faith helping each other out!   This pseudo humanistic movement of bringing fairness is more ideological than altruistic. Altruism is defined as 1: unselfish regard for or devotion to the welfare of others (Merriam-Webster Dictionary). Instead this is based on an ideology: “the integrated assertions, theories and aims that constitute a sociopolitical program.”Convincing people with a platform of platitudes that this is the right thing to do for everyone, as the goal is a utopian type society. But it will never be reached by human efforts no matter how noble or earnest they may be in them. 

What is then justice according to the Bible in terms of government and relationship with others?  It sure as heck is not forced or fanatical environmentalism, a huge monstrosity of bureaucracy and Marxism imposed by the government.  It is not about making what is unnatural order into order for the sake of a modern secular society.  It is not about the faith community being complicit in helping to violate immigration laws blatantly, or to redefine sacred institutions such as marriage to please the people.  That is not to say that one should not treat people with civility and a modicum of respect, basic human respect.  However, the inspired word of the divine is not meant to be used as a tool to create a communist or marxist state, or society where those not following natural order demand that everyone embrace it as the norm and accommodate that in violation of Biblical, Torah precepts on what is natural order. We must realize that Social justice is the far reaching arm of socialism reaching the faith community. It has been connected to liberation theology, think Rev. Wright and Obama, hatred of capitalism, federalism all that jazz, the foundations of our nation, hatred and division. The justice the Pentateuch, even the Christian Gospel speaks of is about liberation from ego and negative influences of the world through a relationship with God, with Holy Spirit working within you to better your life and as you work, and I mean work towards what is your vocation etc… do well, you also help others through individual teach them to fish not give them fish only, and local community collaboration perhaps creating solid internships that teach work ethics and all that, which help everyone expand on their talents, which provide those with disability  or chronic health issues that make it impossible to do the work they did, find a new path through other gifts they may have.  The faith community should locally work with businesses and each other to help bring this about, but it must not be the realm of government because government will always try, as the leaked, not Russia hacked, but inside job leaked DNC emails show, to make it secular and screw God over in the process and his precepts forcing all to accept what is not within the natural order.  

Sadly,  the faith community has been blinded and people in their efforts to feel great about themselves and what they are doing with their faith and their life have denied the truth of what the Pentateuch and even the Christian Gospel have to say.  While I will never accept violence and a secular business and such can bring in who they want as an employee and service whom they wish, the non secular businesses and such must not be forced and coerced into following liberation theology and social justice in an erroneous way, which is what has happened.  I pray it can be reversed, that people realize the government should have little to so with anything in our lives and must never dictate a secular agenda to the faith based community.  I pray also that the faith based community gets strong in adhering to the sacred precepts of the Pentateuch and the Christian Gospel.  Though we must have understanding of the sin nature and tendencies, we must not give blessing to them and be Marxists or Communists.

What do we do for Tikkun Olam, to repair?  Well according to the Pentateuch and the Christian Bible, which built on the Pentateuch it is about individuals and community freely giving and helping, not a Marxist government agenda, and this is where the faith community screws up.  What does it have to say about this? It says the following:  Render true judgments, show kindness and mercy to one another, do not oppress the widow, the fatherless, the sojourner, or the poor, and let none of you devise evil against another in your heart.”, emphasis on one another, person to person, not government to person.  Do no wrong or violence to the resident alien, the fatherless, and the widow, nor shed innocent blood in this place.  Open your mouth, judge righteously, defend the rights of the poor and needy. It is about right judgement, not harming others, not about government doing charity.  Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. Live in harmony with one another. Do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly. Never be wise in your own sight. Repay no one evil for evil, but give thought to do what is honorable in the sight of all. If possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all.  Again, about individual and community actions, not about marxism or socialism at any government level, though an effective system of justice and judiciary is warranted, that is about it for government responsibility.  If that is not the case, then yes the populace can peacefully make suggestions for improvement, never with hate or violence.  Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. Live in harmony with one another. Do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly. Never be wise in your own sight. Repay no one evil for evil, but give thought to do what is honorable in the sight of all. If possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all.  Comfort each other in bad times, counsel each other, all good. Therefore because you trample on the poor and you exact taxes of grain from him, you have built houses of hewn stone, but you shall not dwell in them; you have planted pleasant vineyards, but you shall not drink their wine. For I know how many are your transgressions and how great are your sins— you who afflict the righteous, who take a bribe, and turn aside the needy in the gate. Therefore he who is prudent will keep silent in such a time, for it is an evil time. Seek good, and not evil, that you may live; and so the Lord, the God of hosts, will be with you, as you have said. Hate evil, and love good, and establish justice in the gate; it may be that the Lord, the God of hosts, will be gracious to the remnant of Joseph.  Notice the no no on high taxation, on bribery at the political level.  Justice is related to government in how they run the country, and not putting excessive taxation on the population, in how they conduct affairs of state.  if anyone has the world’s goods and sees his brother in need, yet closes his heart against him, how does God’s love abide in him? Little children, let us not love in word or talk but in deed and in truth.  Private charity is what the Jewish and Christian bile indicate, not government.  “You shall do no injustice in court. You shall not be partial to the poor or defer to the great, but in righteousness shall you judge your neighbor.  No partiality, when it comes to the law and justice.  If you broke the law, you broke the law, that included immigration, not special treatment or turning a blind eye.   There are other passages in these regards, including the government being even handed in giving out justice, taxation, no excess of taxes, no bribes.  

If we truly want tikkun olam, then these passages are the key, not government marxism and socialism or any such thing. Remember, whoever conceals his transgressions will not prosper, but he who confesses and forsakes them will obtain mercy.  Also, , I have set before you today life and good, death and evil. If you obey the commandments of the Lord your God that I command you today, by loving the Lord your God, by walking in his ways, and by keeping his commandments and his statutes and his rules, then you shall live and multiply, and the Lord your God will bless you in the land that you are entering to take possession of it.  Let’s foresake liberation theology and the social justice that goes with it, which is not biblical, especially when it forces those of faith to go against the natural order as put forth by the Jewish and Christian Bible.


Decided To Stop Reaching Out


When you have an instant electric connection with someone and as an empath and such it’s even more potent, your instinct is to build on that, to reach out.  

That is what I do if I have an instant electric connection or general sense of connection to someone.  It’s who I am and that can be good or frustrating depending on the other person’s response.  I have been reaching out to a particular immediate first time we crossed path person I had this instant connection with.  I have done so with sincere friendship, in sincere friendship, even sensed they were going through a rough time and offered to be there as a friend, with sincere wishes to build a solid friendship.  This holiday after I reached out for Christmas and New Year came around and there was no reaching out on their part, I realized it is futile to even try to reach out.  I still sense stuff going on with them emotionally and in life, particularly the heartbreaking stuff and it is a bit intense at times.  I will likely keep feeling that.  I still sense stuff from someone from my past I have not seen in a good while, which was a strong intense connection in my life.  I also have to realize that when something has become futile and the other person has made it clear by their lack of interaction they have no interest in a friendship or even any creative collaboration, you need to just walk away.  It serves no purpose to keep reaching out over and over and over for a good length of time and you are banging your head against the wall.  Am I disappointed? Yes, of course I am, would be silly not to admit that.

On the other hand, I have other people and projects I am hoping to get working with and if they choose not to embrace friendship that I offer, that is truly their loss.  They lose out on a lot friendship and creative wise, but if they have no wish to have a friendship, to be involved whether in friendship, creative collaboration or both, it is their choice and I see no reason to keep pushing up against a brick wall, none.  If I am going to reach out, there has to be a reaching out back at some point and an indication from that person that they wish to engage in a friendship etc… I truly wish them well, but I also won’t be banging my head against a wall.


Appreciating The Spiritual

My synagogue is having a day of unity for their Hebrew School, one where they will be having children from other faith institutions come and spend time with their Hebrew School children, have different activities and hopefully create some friendships. Futile? No, a start.  

I realize that even within faith groups themselves you have the fanatics and that Islam must undergo, certain sects of it, must undergo reformation, a major shift that separates the political from the religious while still respecting the faith conscience of the individual in all spheres of life.  However, if there is a refusal to understand the other, to appreciate the faith that the other lives, and respect their right to live it, then the world can never be okay, nations can never be okay.  Reason and faith can both coincide very well, as to conclude theological points one must.  I hope we can find a way to appreciate the beauty of spirituality and faith as a community, allowing for a conservative worldview based on faith as much as a secular, as there is no one size fits all and we are not robots.  I do also hope that the secular has very clear moral codes and lines  and that are not ever going to make for their intolerance of those not secular, not liberal.

Namaste, Shalom and Amen