Some of us want partnership, collaborative, cooperative, synergy, intertwining for very good reasons. However, that and speaking, sharing from the heart openly, freely and whenever free flowing is misinterpreted.
I create strictly according to in the moment, at that moment Holy Spirit given and inspired material. I don’t force anything, set time specifically aside to write songs or music or even my meditations. I write and record things as they come on the spot when they come on the spot more often than not, in terms of my own stuff. However, I also have a strong sense of wanting to closely collaborate with others day to day, find those who will value my skill set as an artist and so much more. Who will value that I wear my heart on my sleeve, will pry their own heart open, see wearing heart on the sleeve not as an evil thing, see my sharing what I think and feel for the greater good of the project, the relationship etc.. as a good thing, not an evil thing, or a possessiveness thing. It doesn’t matter if it is professional or personal, to me there has to be communication, free flowing, open and from the heart, heart on the sleeve. There has to be connection, cooperation, collaboration, really working as a team or nothing will work. I don’t want to do lone ranger only and so when I make any kind of really positive, great connection I see no reason not to reach out, share, heart on my sleeve, be totally open with my ideas etc…, intertwine socially as well. Why not? It seems others don’t always take well to this, and view it as possessive, as perhaps I might have ulterior motives and withdraw, suddenly withdraw. I know I am simply sharing, caring, reaching out and being authentic to myself in doing so, in seeking integrated collaboration etc…, but others don’t seem to always see it that way. Hmmm
I could stop being me, feel awful about being me, never reach out again, give up on ever finding solid partnerships to engage in creatively or otherwise, ones that are bold courageous, heart on the sleeve etc… I could do all of that, feel sad, depressed about it all, but that would mean life and the world would be deprived of my works, of what I could achieve and that is not an option. If others choose to let their fears, paranoia etc… get in the way and withdraw, or walk away, okay, up to them, but I have to keep being me, reaching out, speaking from the heart so on so forth.