You see that sun peeking out, those rays reflecting, bouncing off the rocks and water? Sometimes that is how it is, how our part in things is.
Not to long ago in a meeting with higher ups, I gave my word that a particular task would be done. I asked what was needed for the parish to thrive, to be saved, and I got my answer, a plan, a solid plan. Naturally I gave my word that myself and my colleague would put that forward, after all it made sense that a solid plan would be the first step, presenting that to them, and then also at the meeting with the Societies and Fellowships that are affiliated with us in any capacity and wish to integrate further with us. Even for sponsors having a concrete solid somewhat detailed holistic long term plan would show we were serious contenders not rank amateurs. It seems the most common sense natural thing to me, but not to my colleague. For some reason they did not understand the need for this or why I felt it was even our responsibility to put forth any such plan to save the church as had been discussed in this meeting that they had decided to skip. I gave my word and created a plan, which I sent to my colleague and the response initially was that it would be discussed, but then when we did see each other in the office, total rejection, refusal to even consider anything but going forth on a project to project, one day at a time basis. I found myself in a bit of pickle and had to let one of the members of the main Cathedral know I created the plan and did forward it to my colleague, but he has no interest in pursuing any long term planning etc… I want to keep my word and make sure the Monsignor receives the plan as promised, but at the same time my colleague is senior, though both of us are volunteers, as he has been there longer than I have and outranks me. Yet, I am on the same page as the team at the Cathedral, under whose jurisdiction we now are. Yet, my colleague has been their longer and has ranking, even though the feedback I am getting and the fact that artists are now refusing to work the concerts at the church and prefer to organize gigs outside the church with me, says a lot about how badly we require a cohesive plan, a master plan. I could just go ahead and send the plan over to our Monsignor, for the greater good of the parish, which I am inclined to do. I don’t want to resort to that yet. I would rather first try to get my colleague to see the importance of a plan based on what has happened and is happening. Only as a last resort do I want to go rouge or anything like that with this. Meantime, I will organize indie concerts, help my friend with her fashion line, get it in stores in NYC, and work with my Acoustic Praise music meetup group and pray.
It is draining when you know the plan you have is cohesive and necessary for the greater good of the organization, when you are in agreement with the “CEO” of sorts of the organization and others heading the parent organization, yet your key colleague, out of pride or whatever, won’t acknowledge that the team of the parent organization, whom you agree with is correct in their assessment of what is needed and your willingness, determination even to provide it. This is where you truly hope for a miracle, major one.