Who Do I Give My Power To?
This week and next is a week pretty much full with doctors appointments, and the gluten free and fomap diet continue. Though the meds do help with the pain etc..I have to be always on guard. Why be on guard?
Well, Fibromyalgia is a syndrome, not a cold you have just for a few days and then it goes away, so I have to be aware of that yes, but I also have to be aware enough not to give it full power over my life. If I give it full power, then the fatigue, the constant fatigue and pain though controlled to some extent by the meds, would have me sleeping a good part of the day, especially since with this syndrome we have trouble getting to sleep and sleeping soundly through the night. Despite the thorns of this syndrome, I refuse to let it overtake me or my life, so I push through to write and record, to inspire. I now have between bandcamp, number1music, and soundcloud over 300 followers and subscribers That’s pretty good, and a good feeling to know I am impacting lives, especially when I get the emails that let me know. I am blessed, but like I said it would be easy to let the Fibromyalgia overtake me and add to this the fact that I am also having to take care of my 94 year old mom whose English is limited, and is starting to get forgetful about stuff, leave the water on, the stove. I meditate, I discuss things like this with her doctor, have a great support system that has my back and hers. I am even filling out a medical proxy for her. I am doing what I can and still taking care of myself to the best of my ability, which is wise. Think of being on a plane, if something happens, they always say to have the adults use the oxygen first because if the adult is not okay, how will the kids be okay. Taking care of one’s self is important as one makes this journey through life’s sometimes muddy waters. It is up to you not to let any of that overwhelm, rather inspire in constructive ways.
What about you? what issues do you have going on in life? What burdens do you feel you are carrying? I am not saying they are not burdensome, but it is up to you to decide if they are going to overwhelm and drown you. You need to step back, and determine what you need to move through it, and be whole in some way shape or form. you need to figure out how you are going to be okay , and productive in spite of the crap going on with you, or around you. No one can do it for you, but you can seek and should seek the right support system. Please be wise and don’t go to anything radical. There are good people who can mentor and coach you as you try to navigate life’s storms.