The Life I Want
As I look at this I see what I would like my life to look like, a snapshot of what I would like it to look like. It is also my wish for others. As I make this journey to create a new life, one that pushes past the fibromyalgia, there are days when the meds calm everything down the pain, all the stuff that comes with it, the lack of sleep etc.., and I can see this all happening very easily, and then there are days when it’s a lot harder. Today I went to my neurologist for a follow up on my hand which was in pain a few weeks ago and she didn’t like the way I was moving my neck so she did a check and I ended up having to get my homeopathic with a touch of cortisone, again, though I had shots six weeks ago. Does it make for a tired me at times and the ideal life seem a bit distant? Yes, but not impossible, not with grit, with faith, with determination. That means I have to ask questions about whether the choices I am making are healthy in the long term, and I have to not be impulsive, spontaneous if stirred in the Spirit by the Spirit, yes, but that’s different than impulsive. I hope to build this life, this snapshot for the long term using meditation that helps me ask and answer crucial questions, enhance my gifts. Life can be an amazing journey, in spite of the bumps in the road.