As the new year begins I embark on a plan for what I will do, goals set for my faith life, wellness, career, all of it. I would love it all to be smooth sailing, but then I recall Christ at Calvary and why He gave his life for me. This poem is something I need to keep in mind because I am far from perfect, except perfect in Christ, but not in myself. I can’t do what I have often done which is not move forward because of being so fearful of screwing it up “again”, thinking I had to do it all perfectly, be perfect, and of course when I couldn’t feeling really lousy and doing something really dumb, that did not honor myself as a woman, as a person. I have to remember that I have a guide book, the ability to meditate, to discern choices, decisions etc.., and no I won’t always get it right, but with keeping a balance between my head and my heart I think I will have a shot at getting right often enough, and when I don’t I pick myself up, get back on that horse and keep going. One thing I do hope is that when I do discern, it’s not a thick-headed “what I want and my way” decision, but truly what the Holy Spirit guides me to. Human nature being what it is, there will be times when the thick-headed have it my way will win and I will convince myself it’s the Holy Spirit “speaking” when it’s me actually. New year, new opportunities, and hopefully greater discernment.
Namaste, Shalom and Amen