Not About the Storm
I went for a second opinion, after even surgery to do a biopsy for endometriosis and remove fibroid was unsuccessful due to obstruction the doctor couldn’t figure. She felt a partial hysterectomy was the only option, but thought it was a good idea to have me see an ob/gyn surgeon, so yesterday did. He tried to do an in office biopsy, but no dice, so he concluded the same thing, hysterectomy, everything except my ovaries. The surgery won’t be done until July and with the pain etc…, I am getting more and more limited in my daily activity, add this to the fibro and it’s enough storm to beat anyone down, but see it’s not about the storm. When I got home I was annoyed, very much so and a bit irritated, but I watched my Britcoms, did some writing, even came up with an outline for the Coaching path, different elements of it, and at the doctor’s office, I even write a bit of poetry. Yes my life seems to be one big storm, and delay in terms of certain things I’d like to do in life. Yet, I am grateful that in spite of the storm/s I can still dance, still write, reflect, still dance, explore life, and hopefully bring others on that same journey. I may find that suddenly tomorrow as I walk back from grocery shopping it hits me and I do a bit of crying, but even if that happens, I’ll have something to write about, a poem or song to share. It’s not about the storm in the end, but whether you can dance through and in spite of the storm.
Namaste, Shalom and Amen