As my Godmother, spoke of my family from Italy coming and the different activities they would be engaged in and how I could go to the Bronx Zoo or the Botanicals with them, and especially not feeling well today, a touch of the flu I think, and all the menopause stuff, it really hit me. I am so drained I couldn’t even be sad as I usually am, missing the person I used to be. I am drained and numb in many ways. I am sure when I get back to church, getting into the routine of connection to all that I will be re-energized. It needs to be okay for me to admit that I am drained etc…I am admitting it, and there’s a sense of relief in admitting it because admitting it means I can get on a path to feel again, to live again, even if in some small measure.
Namaste, Shalom and Amen