Being Social or Hiding/Running?
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Social Butterfly, we’ve heard the terms right and “busy bee”, which on the surface can sound great, but what is the motive behind being a butterfly and a busy bee?
Motivation is often the key to a lot in life. I have at times, including when I did not want to deal with pain and the reality of fibromyalgia done the busy bee thing, trying to be involved in anything and everything at once. The result was major fibro crash, so not so smart. The human tendency and we kind of see it from the get go even in Genesis is to evade, run from, escape, not face up to things, not want to deal with things. Some go to extremes to not deal with or face their own pain, hurt, memories etc…, drugs, alcohol, not everyone. Some find the arts as their way to get out the pain etc.., even cooking as a therapeutic way to deal with stress, and pain. There is no one size fits all for how one deals with pain whether that is prayer, meditation, the arts, cooking, baking all in moderation, in a healthy way, even socializing. However, when a person totally delves into a frenzy of hoarding almost one friendship after another, one activity after another, one charity after another etc…, afraid to be in silence, alone, alone with one’s feelings, thoughts etc…, well not good. Everyone has stuff that is not so great in life that happened, decision they wish they had made differently, things they wish they had handled differently, but with prayer, with faith, with changes in current patterns that can be washed away, one can find new life. That is healthy and wise, quite healthy and wise to do so, recommended actually.
However if one is scattered all over the place in a constant flurry of activity, has to always be surrounded by people activity and noise because they can’t be alone with themselves, their own thoughts and feelings, memories, not good. I realize there are going to be some sad, lonely times, moments, even when God unites me with my twinflame soulmate in true union, in sacred union, the nature of life. I realize I need to have those alone creative times, which I don’t really have now to create music and record freely what I write, to be alone with memories, even painful ones, process them and cry if I need to or want to, ball my eyes out if that is what I want and need, feel my chest rip open and know I will still be okay, maybe even write some awesome stuff out of it. I may also end up remembering some really great stuff and write some funny, even joyful stuff, who knows. My activities should be not many, not busy bee ones, but few and ones I do because they are truly dearest to my heart, and time I spend should be spend with very special people. I spent this weekend having a great time with truly great people from the Joseph Petrosino Lodge, for a cause I believe in supporting veterans. I realized in terms of my meet up groups I need to get out of most of them because they really don’t interest me they were groups I became part of just for busy bee reasons, not because they really were anything I was going to be really active in. I also realized I don’t have to prove anything to anyone, just have to appreciate the gifts God gave me and use them wisely and effectively. Time to really streamline my life, my activity, time to be authentically me and grow up once and for all, but like I said still be me, sweet and spice, all rolled up into one.