New Habit, Hmmm What Shall it Be?

Forming New Habits

I have been thinking about it and we work with three areas of being, heart, spirit and soul, for me the balance of those and of those with consistent right knowledge seems key to a great future and solid faith journey.  My new habit, to start with I would like to work with is balance of heart, spirit and soul as a Christian artist, with this seeking of this consistent right knowledge.  What do I have to for that to happen? As I see it a few things:

  1.  Meditate on the right things
  2. Choose the right place to seek knowledge
  3. Develop my craft as an artist and my faith building in a way that balances all three

The right things, right place, that is the next piece that has to fall into place, which I will be working on, and sharing with you.

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As I recorded my latest improvisational poem and posted it today, and saw then the email that gave hope of potential artistic representation, I had mixed feelings. 

I love doing freesyle poetry, recording, singing, and if I have the means etc.. I will welcome the chance to , produce etc.., but there is still a broken wings factor that will never fully perhaps heal.  There is that child within abandoned, hurt throughout her life that will never fully heal perhaps, that has only in the past two years found her voice, truly begun to find her voice.  Can one fly with a broken wing? Can one truly color with broken pieces of crayon or chalk? Yeah, I used to it all the time growing up and teaching.  Was it easier to do so with a full piece of crayon or chalk? Yeah.  I still colored, just took off the paper and colored.  It was not impossible, just meant I had to maneuver my fingers a bit.   This is no different.  Broken wings, heart etc… we all have some of that, but that does not mean we should let it stop us from coloring life with beautiful colors, with our beautiful colors. 

Amen

Knowing Their Spirit, Knowing Them

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Often people will speak of what Christ, or a person did, but they don’t really know them, and even when they think of characteristics they don’t understand the context that the creator intended for those characteristics for our greater good and that of society.  One of the problems with religion often times  and relationships is that we might know what people do but not understand who they are.  I would like us to look at where we are.  I will share where I am with all of this as well

 

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First I want to discuss a few things.  When the bible talks of love, it does not mean love without truth, even if it is a moral truth they don’t want to hear, without moral boundaries, even if they don’t like the boundaries being given to them, same with charity, it does not mean charity without wisdom, or charity that keeps a person a victim or dependent, rather charity that empowers, that helps bring one to healing, and patience does not mean patience with destructiveness or self destructiveness. Everything has to be with truth, with moral truth, integrity, balance, wisdom all that jazz.   Where am I at with the gifts, with ministry, teaching, discernment, with patience, charity, kindness?  Well ministry is not necessarily about a pulpit or teaching about a classroom, these things can be done through the arts, through internet platforms such as a blog, a podcast. The discerning of spirits, word of knowledge, have those covered pretty much. Wisdom and Fear of God, getting better at it, in terms of self discipline in overcoming sin strongholds through meditation and prayer, giving myself a literal “stop, think before you act” instruction when necessary, prompted in the spirit.  The kindness part, well could do a bit better we all could.  I have the tough love tendency a lot, have a tendency to lean that direction, love you, but will hit you with the truth whether you like it or not especially biblical truth.  I could do better in my approach.  Patience, I have gotten better, but it is not one of my virtues, never has been and will always be a tough one for me.  Do I beat myself up for not being perfect in the gifts of the spirit, for not having achieved immense success in ministry and teaching through the arts etc… yet, for not having reached millions across the globe, for not being perfectly patient all the time etc…? No.  Do I give thanks in Christ that I am on the road to being a better person? Heck yeah!  Do I periodically examine my life, self to see where I am at with things, cultivate my gifts, see if I am cultivating them properly, wisely etc…? Should I? Heck Yeah!  With the help of The Advocate from the High Heavens and my will to do so, I shall!  From the study of the gifts and fruits including character character traits spoken of in the bible of the Holy Spirit which are also those of the Father and the Son, I can come to know who they are and who I should strive to be, but in right context, remembering integrity, moral boundaries and all that jazz, matter.

Amen

 

What A Warped Society We Weave

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https://www.cnsnews.com/blog/gage-cohen/kids-can-know-theyre-transgender-two-years-old-univ-calif-mental-health-director

https://www.yahoo.com/news/catholic-school-statue-covered-being-074924831.html

The first story should make us all gag and do a exorcist like full head spin, going “WTH?!!!!!”  Imagine what a field day NAMBLA will have with this one and other pedophile groups! How the hell does kids playing with toys or play around mean they are gay, transgender etc..? How the hell do kids understand they are anything about sexuality as two year olds or even eight year olds? If they are molested over time and that is the sexual relation they are exposed to or have traumatic experiences with the opposite sex or antagonistic ones why might that not be why they are leaning a certain direction?  From a spiritual and physical world existing understanding, dark entity oppression and influence?  In our warped society, many would see no perversity in the first article, in the first worldview.  Yet, a statue of a man with a kind heart giving a hungry child a loaf of bread, that is deemed lewd etc..?  Drag queen TV that’s fine, teaching all kinds of LGBT lifestyle stuff to young, very young children, that’s progress, but teaching about solid boundaries of behavior, about traditional family, strong family, a strong community of faith, a creator of all things etc.., that’s being Nazi.  Debating all ideas in college, having a range of opinions expressed including Christian, can’t have that.  Someone like me, I would be enemy number one on college campus as a professor or a student because I would be open about my faith, my conservatism, my capitalism, make no apologies, even if it literally cost me my job and my degree.  I have to be true to self and He who created me, who gave me life and to a orderly and right order society.   These two articles are just one example of many contrasts I could give.

Amen

Spiritual Self Discipline, Christ Consciousness

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Spiritual Awareness can be pretty messy, which is why this subject of self-discipline is not really an option. Especially if you are going through spiritual awakening process, you will understand that it can be a painful process. Parts of your soul will awaken, nagging your attention to develop them. New gifts of observation and visualization will often pop up, sometimes dragging your whole normal life to mess. It is for this reason why I can’t stress enough the importance of self-discipline. You will need a whole structure or procedure of meditation and prayer practice to handle the new surges of energy your soul parts will manage to attract. Trust me!

I have been through this process and I found that without specific structure of practices and prayers, my life became a total mess. I even started losing interest in life. All became meaningless. It is then I found the truest importance of self-discipline.

Now don’t give me those excuses! Work, daily routine… where there is a will, there is a way. Self-discipline is not going to rob you of your precious time. It will in fact teach you importance of time management. There is no better way to develop punctuality than incorporate set of practices which you do on daily basis. You will also find out the relation of your spiritual gifts in daily life. You will find the practical implementation of those abilities which you are starting to find out in life as spirit grows.

Find the Balance between Strict Structure and Open Mindedness

There is a line between being open and being strict. We often see religious people with narrow minded personality. They are too afraid to let a belief challenge their already established ones. This is because losing your pre-established thoughts for sake of new ones can be a really scary thought. Why you ask? Well isn’t it obvious? Such people have restricted to few beliefs and told themselves this was the only way towards spirituality. Although they are very structured and follow fixed routines, this is not the spiritual structure I am talking about.

We then find sometimes the examples of too open minded spiritual people. Not pointing fingers, but being spiritual without anything to guide is like handling a large flow of water coming towards your way. Without a channel to guide its flow, you are going to surely let it be wasted everywhere. You can’t harness the force of water, what you will do is create a mess.

What I am talking about is a perfect balance of two. Why? I just told you the bad things of these two. Remember we are talking about the bad side of extremes. Extremism is always wrong. What I am talking about is true side of Christianity which is balance. Be open-minded but be self-disciplined. Be accepting yet be mindful of what is socially as well as morally unacceptable. You must find ways to express your spirituality. By this way, you actually create a channel to handle the massive amount of energy which you will put to great use.

Whose Responsibility, Risk and Reward?

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Two schools of thought, ideologies etc…Socialism and Capitalism.     This chart gives the differences in a very concise manner.  http://keydifferences.com/difference-between-capitalism-and-socialism.html

There are key differences, important ones being responsibility, spirituality, risk, reward ration, full realization of self, the basis or even incentive for that.  True capitalism, not crony, which is what we have had much of, but true capitalism and private community and faith based charity create an amazing society, world, but for that to happen some key elements have to be present at all levels of society.  First thing is a natural love of law and order, personal development, and of development of one’s talents, gifts, discovering what they are, a supportive law abiding community, and natural order family unit of great integrity to also show you that path and help you discover that.  A true capitalist society understands the value of individual, as well as collective contributions of gifts, talents whatever they are and even when life circumstances change, new or perhaps never before explored gifts are encouraged for continued self reliance etc… There is also in the USA, used to be a strong faith component that kicked you in the tukkus to strive for integrity etc…, not to say we are perfect and achieve it perfectly, but it was there, strongly, it mattered.  The government in a capitalist society, the education system is not the parent, is not the primary educator and shaper of worldview, rather the family and local community is.  When that is strong, solid with solid ethics, integrity, morals and thriving through true capitalism, when there is no crony capitalism, no corporate welfare, rather full range of risk and reward, everyone knowing there is no bailout, so make it work, do it right, no one is going to save your tukkus, stuff gets accomplished, innovation happens.  When government takes on a role of parent, nanny everything under the sun, and has constant bailouts for everyone, no one learns any lessons, no one develops thick skin, no one seeks to innovate.  Does that mean that government shouldn’t have some laws to keep law and order, all that jazz?  No, of course it should, but not to point of suffocating, stifling innovation.  A big part of life is this equation, not a comfortable one, but a necessary one, “risk and suck up risk if you want reward, potential reward, realize “buyer beware, if anything seems to awesome to be true, triple check it, likely is”  Life is about discovering what you and your gifts are made of, which means risk, reward, and potentially disappointment and heartache here and there.  That is what builds character.  It also forces you to learn to make decisions, to think through things critically not with emotions, or seeing boogeymen everywhere, but it teaches you to figure out how to discern things in life.  When government says “we will take care of everything, decide everything for you, guide every aspect of your life”, you are in serious trouble, for many generations to come. 

For there to be true freedom, you can’t have snowflakes in a society, a society full of them, the government micromanaging lives or society.  Human beings can not, must not be micromanaged.  Nations must as true to capitalism as possible, full risk and reward, yet community, locally and individually we should be able to constructively help those in need and those who did risk and lost in that process to rebuild.  That is true capitalism and a strong society, nation.

Quote of the Day Reflection

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There is no love without forgiveness, and there is no forgiveness without love.
Bryan H. McGill

Do you have to like everyone you love? Do you have to approve of every action taken by those you love? Wait are these trick questions?  No, they are not.  Loving people does not mean you are going to like or love everything about them, or how they live their lives necessarily.  You may not always be thrilled in the aftermath how you lived your own life, may have moments you don’t like yourself much.  Can you love on a broad human scale to forgive, even if you voice your distaste etc…, hopefully and please non-violently?  You can’t really forgive if you don’t have genuine love for the person, or a general Agape love that is taught in spiritual communities.  Does that mean you have to associate with them, especially if they show a pattern of negative behavior, show they are incapable of true relationship etc…, even true friendship?  No, you don’t.  Forgiving is as much about you and your own journey, loving yourself enough to release the harmful poison that bitterness and lack of forgiving bring to your heart, body, spirit, soul and life.  What about in cases of a tragedy, don’t we want justice?  Yes, but you won’t get justice if you are do blinded by anger and rage that you can’t let justice take its’ course and trust that whether in this life or the after, it will come, in God’s time, not yours, NOT yours.  Justice is not the same as enraged immediate revenge, which could result in an even greater tragedy and error. Without forgiveness there can be no discernment of any truth, that includes forgiving one’s self for errors, missing the mark as scripture says.  Not to say we shouldn’t strive to be better persons and cultivate discernment, right moral, ethical etc… judgement even in how we live our lives, we should, for our sake, the sake of nations, communities and greater society, future generations.  Forgiveness does not mean you have to be a part of someone’s life, have a relationship, or if you do approve of how they are conducting their lives, it means you can mutually agree to disagree and express how you feel without fear one to the other, if you have a really together life with solid boundaries, moral and ethical boundaries etc..who knows you can be a great example for change and transformation. 

Amen

Reflection, Quote for the Day

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Positive anything is better than negative nothing.  To avoid criticism, do nothing, say nothing, and be nothing. If you suffer, thank God! It is a sure sign that you are alive. Elbert Hubbard, American writer, 1859-1915

As I read these quotes I thought of today’s politicos and even so called activists, academics, the mess we are in all over the place and they hit home.  They are interconnected.  Let’s start with the first one.  Positive action to solve issues is always better than sitting around doing nothing and watching the house burn to the ground, and if lives are at stake, people are trapped in the burning building then there is moral imperative to do something.  Same if you have people trapped under a building, right? Yes and no.  There you have a different scenario.  There is a Brady Bunch Christmas special where Mike Brady is called in by this boss who did not listen to Mike about putting certain safety features and he and two other workers get trapped under building rubble.  Of course the family wants someone to go in and save Mike right away, or a team to go in, but if they do, not knowing just how stable or unstable the beams are the whole thing could come down and kill them all.  How would that be good for anyone including the families of those who die under the total collapse of the building?  Mike who is the architect knows the building finds his own way out to safety, via his own ingenuity.   Action needs to be positive, but it can only be so if there is no political or such ambition behind it, no one side only view behind it, and if it is seen in full view mirror historical, cultural, financial etc.. past, present, future to the great good of present and future generations, including financial health of the greater community, includes nations.  Is that asking for a lot of maturity? heck yeah.  Knowing when to do something, a little, a lot, nothing for now, letting individuals, communities and their own ingenuity take over so they don’t become dependent children, individuals, communities etc…  and really are able to take pride in their ability to map out their own destiny, find talents within they never realized they had, or make use of talents they never got the chance to make use of, is crucial.   For politicians and those in high profile positions, doing nothing, doing little, letting We The People, forcing us to solve our own problems, in community, including within the faith community, through the private sector mainly, with our own ingenuity, not telling us we need to suck up the fact that life is not always sweet as honey, has thorns like roses have thorns, and that government is not your mom and dad, is not responsible for your every care and whim, deal with it, is not a good way to get votes, is it?  It guess it wont go over well with the image of smiling, kissing babies and all that come election day.  So, they say nothing of what needs to be said, which is stop being a nation and society of whiners, complainers, vampires, thugs etc…, grow up!  Instead they do Negative Somethings and keep getting us into more debt, more division and a bigger mess. Families are doing the same, parents with their kids, same thing, couples, in all spheres, faith institutions trying to be hip, modern, politically correct being fools and clowns.  That leads us to the third quote.  OMG, please don’t give our young people any sense of competition, any sense that they are not all geniuses in school, or that anyone of them is any less in aptitude in any way shape or form, oh no!  Save them from any speech that will cause them to be hurt in feelings or any way  shape or form, oh poor babies should they have to suffer a different point of you, the travesty the trauma!  Seriously?  A sterilized world, life where you have no emotions, no constructive emotions, no constructive debates, even passionate ones, vigorous ones, where you never are hurt, never are heartbroken is a world of robots, a world of non humans, of cold, lifeless androids.  Sucks.  On the other hand, being pure anger, rage, emotion, can’t handle the truth about anything, means you are perpetual child, annoying child who at some point everyone will want to smack upside the head a thousand times over, wanting you to get the hell over yourself and grow the hell up!  Also sucks!

Sadly this is the world we are living in and yet I would like to think there is hope for this to turn around and for us to live in a vibrant world where heart and reason meet, congeal, work together, where it is about the big picture of common sense for the greater good long term financially for all, giving free reign of ingenuity to the local community and individuals to be able to solve problems, to present solutions, and for a lot of people with a strong backbone, not a society of whiners, complainers etc…, no need for safe spaces and playdough, or whatever it is called, been a long while since I was a kid.

Amen

Fibro Once Again, Bump In the Road

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Sometimes fibromyalgia can be compared to being in a dark room.  You make plans, want to, but then at the same time, the fibromyalgia is so unpredictable.  Add to that the fact that now my 93 year old mom is starting to forget, leave the gas on, and adding more stress, something not good for anyone with fibro. Today I missed out on a day of heritage celebration because of the fibro messing with my memory in a sense.

I have set my cell phone alarm to go for doctor appointment before, since the alarm on the dresser clock doesn’t work any number of times.  However, I was worried after mom again left the stove on and I then went in to get something and saw she had, and the shift in weather, made for a horrible night, so I set the alarm settings on my phone, but never saved them, so the alarm this morning never went off.  If mom wakes up and she knows I have plans she will wake me if I have had a good night’s sleep, my blood pressure was high, sugar was off, arthritis pain acted up or just knows I really want to be there, but she had not slept well, , so she didn’t wake up either.  I could get very discouraged, get all down and depressed, which wont help at all.  Instead, I am blogging, listening to music that uplifts me, inspires me and I am planning on my activities for tomorrow, including a class in Music Appreciation at my coop, in the community room.  This is not the first time that because of Fibromyalgia I have had to either do last minute cancelations or stuff like this has happened and it likely won’t be the last.  What matters here is how I respond to these moments, these “crisis” moments, and if I choose to see them as crisis.  Another example, I will do all I can to help a church I feel strongly about saving to thrive, but if after all has been tried it still folds, I can’t have a pity party for the church, what I can do is figure out how to make my faith life stronger and make the faith stronger.  I can honor my heritage daily in different ways and it’s up to me to find constructive ways to do so.  Life and fibromyalgia will throw curveballs and yet it’s not the curveballs that are the issue, it’s how I respond, that is the issue.

Amen

Reflection for Today, Attitude, Intent

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Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude. ~ Thomas Jefferson, American former president from 1801 to 1809

Attitude and intent, what’s the big deal, you have a dream, a goal, see an injustice, what you think is one, a need you think needs met in society etc…, you just go full speed bull in a china shop and do whatever it takes to make it happen, right?  Be the hero, right?  Not so fast, buddy, not so fast.  A goal, even righting what you perceive as a wrong can be disastrous, have a disastrous end.  The attitude and intent of what you do has to be with integrity and nobility, with a sense of reason, objectivity, if we are talking on a larger scale in some cases historical and overall life context.  An article in Forbes recently explained that attitude is more important than one’s IQ.  Huh? That’s right attitude matters more than a person’s IQ, interesting huh.  Why?  A person with a growth mindset, a mindset of willingness to learn, of inquiry is more likely to meet with success in life, then one without that willingness.  Attitude also is important in terms of being able to accept and manage failure, if you can’t, God help you, you are dead in the water.  Attitude is important in life.  You should have clear sense of values and all that, but you also have to be willing to learn, to grow, to accept failure as part of life’s learning process, if you do fall down and have to get up again.   Goals are set in life with intent of reaching a destination, but often we can go through life without intent, ships just roaming through the seas, drifting and that also has an effect on others who have no clue what we stand for, who we are really.  We may have a sense, but we leave others confused, and even in just our day to day lives, in our speaking etc… what is our intent?  Do we know?  Do we have any idea what we are achieving? Most likely we give no thought to that.

I am realizing in my own life how much of an impact my fibromyalgia and my not so healthy co-dependent relationship with my mom has had on my attitude, not in a good way.  I am also realizing I have been left with impatience and fatigue, overall impatience and fatigue with life, human stupidity etc…, you name it I have impatience for it.  I also realize that intent is something that I never really thought about in terms of my artistic life etc…, and it is only now that I have really come to a place of intent, the intent being to help people find their place of spiritual and creative potential, and figure out how to best fulfill it, hopefully with that undo some of the damage done by this “modern, and liberal progressive” malarky.  As for my own self, I am going to be seeking community, community close to home, in and through my coop,  faith community, connecting to my culture through the Casa Italiana at NYU, and perhaps a meet up group I create.  I have some work to do in terms of my own self as regards the toll these two things have taken on my attitude and intent, but half of the battle is knowing, so I am well set to make changes. 

Amen