New Beginnings

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As the new year begins I embark on a plan for what I will do, goals set for my faith life, wellness, career, all of it.  I would love it all to be smooth sailing, but then I recall Christ at Calvary and why He gave his life for me.  This poem is something I need to keep in mind because I am far from perfect, except perfect in Christ, but not in myself.  I can’t do what I have often done which is not move forward because of being so fearful of screwing it up “again”, thinking I had to do it all perfectly, be perfect, and of course when I couldn’t feeling really lousy and doing something really dumb, that did not honor myself as a woman, as a person.  I have to remember that I have a guide book, the ability to meditate, to discern choices, decisions etc.., and no I won’t always get it right, but with keeping a balance between my head and my heart I think I will have a shot at getting right often enough, and when I don’t I pick myself up, get back on that horse and keep going.  One thing I do hope is that when I do discern, it’s not a thick-headed “what I want and my way” decision, but truly what the Holy Spirit guides me to.  Human nature being what it is, there will be times when the thick-headed have it my way will win and I will convince myself it’s the Holy Spirit “speaking” when it’s me actually.   New year, new opportunities, and hopefully greater discernment. 

Namaste, Shalom and Amen

Knowing When To Redirect

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Life has a way of kicking you in the pants so to speak when you need to make changes and when my allergies hit this time around it was not like other times, it was hard and I am still after five weeks dealing with full fibro flare ups, crashing etc…, not fu.  My voice is awful, so doing any seminars etc.. is not an option right now, so what do I do?  One of the important lessons in life is knowing when you need to redirect your energies, life etc.., even if just for a while.  For now, until March of 2019 where will I be directing my energies?  Well..

  • Exercise and wellness, joined a gym, signed up for personal training five sessions so I can have a plan of wellness and light exercise, yoga, healthy Fibrmyalgia planned out that I can follow
  • More writing, creative writing, have pushed that to the side, haven’t felt very inspired, so will try to get that old magic back
  • Writing out seminars and deciding on longer term programs to offer as well for March and beyond
  • To be the best me I can be, I need to be in a good place of wellness on all levels, so getting to the gym, working out a good healthy diet for the fibromyalgia, organizing ahead of time what I want to offer, getting it in writing is a smart thing to do

I will be sharing my journey of wellness as I start going to the gym again after a long absence, and will start getting back to poetry writing and recording.

Shalom and Amen

 

What Is Coming Up In This Coaching Hub

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What can you expect to see coming? Good question? I think so.  One thing I am working on is getting my ZOHO CRM integrated with this blog, so that I can streamline everything in one place. The goal is to integrate it all into one, so I can host meetings everything on this blog platform.  That’s the goal and I have someone working on this.  Fingers crossed and a prayer or two that they integrate it all and well. 

The first thing I will be offering is a November webinar to celebrate achievements, what was learned about the self in that journey and what intentions/commitments are going to be set for the New Year.  The goal for me is offer at least one seminar per month in both English and Spanish, giving two dates per seminar, two for the English speaking and two for the Spanish speaking.  On the youtube I am also going to offer material in Italian, so I have two meditation I have recorded in English and Spanish, now will record in Italian.  My niche as I gain more experience, will be relationship and spiritual coaching.  That’s the goal, focus on those two, and relationship encompasses all relationships even with self, even looking at what patterns have we been moving in and what we might have to change to really have solid relationships, even with our own self. I also hope to have four live seminars per year, and next year a mini holiday concert and celebration for those who have made the journey with me in the hub.That is what is going on in this coaching hub.  Once I have everything integrated and all set for registration and payment for the webinars it will be posted and you will I hope join me on the journey.

Shalom and Amen

 

Forgiving Self

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This is something that I think will be a long journey for a lot of us, one that we make intellectually at first and for a long while, but emotionally, deep in the heart, in the spirit at the gut level, that takes longer.  One of the tings I will have to meditate on for myself is this very thing.

Shalom and Amen

What’s New?

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Yeshua Groups!

Yesterday I spoke to Izzy one of the founders and I am on track to lead a Yeshua Group, create a sense of community, which I love.  Church used to be that, community, discussion, reflection, community.  I want to gather in a semi public place, tell the stories of the bible, have everyone in the group contribute, research something about the background of the story, share, contribute, and then we can reflect, discuss. Community is what lifts us up, not to say we shouldn’t understand the moral lessons, the lessons of ethics and integrity, but open ended questions, discussion, connection, that matters.  I look forward to creating that.  Stay tuned for more!

This Caught My Eye

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Why did this catch my eye?  One of the themes that keeps coming up in my classes as I study to be a Coach and NLP Practitioner is strategy and the other focus.  Those two keep coming up. I thought about social media twitter, fb etc… Don’t get me wrong I believe they can be of great use, but as I keep finding out, they can also be a huge distraction, something I think is happening also to our POTUS.  I had set up for the third time a twitter account for the purpose of sharing my blog, the bandcamp site with my music and poetry, etc…,, which is also about sharing the Gospel tweet as part of my volunteering for the organization I am with that fights bullying and human trafficking.  I got sidetracked, how by engaging in discussion on twitter.  The problem with online discussion is it’s all bitesize, you can’t really convey the full meaning and context of your message unless you add a few attachments, memes and all that.  I deactivated my old account an once again am starting from scratch with a new account @KANYARTIST which I just set up today.  I will seek this time to stay focused and not get caught up in anything that steers away from what my purpose is for using social media.

Amen

Some “Just Friends” Category

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Whether it’s online or offline, you get a sense of things when it comes to people, and if you work to develop discernment or have people around you that have that gift, but mainly your own gut when it’s not fear driven, but really contemplative prayer and meditative in nature will guide.

Some people you have an instant connection, which is great and you find them easy to talk to right away, feel at ease, all of that stuff.  Great, as long as you are sure who you are talking to.  There are some connections that are immediate connection et… as well, but even though both or a few of these connections have that ease, there is still discernment required.  Sometimes after a few conversations with each or several of the parties, you just know.  You have a Holy Spirit sense which one really has the maturity, common goals etc.., potential to be more than just a friend and which one either because of a certain immaturity you sense, for whatever reasons, that Holy Spirit intuition which person is the just friends one.  You have to honor that, honor that sacred intuition.  You have above all honor your own soul, own spirit about who to have in your life and in what way they fit into your life. That’s not always easy to do, but with faith, discernment, meditation, prayer, maturity, common sense, it can be done.  That is where I am now along with planning clearly my journey in life 2018-2020, laying the foundations.  It’s a great thing, working towards achieving your dreams, and getting there when you do. I pray that the vocational goals, goal of creating ministry through coaching and the arts combined, as well finally joining my life to a true soulmate are achieved. All I can do is my best, give of my best, of my best self.  All any of us can do.

Shalom and Amen

Where Do I Go From Here?

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As I look at this picture, I see where I want to be my end goal, a soaring eagle and as I think of the anchor of everything in my life, it is Christ, it is scripture, along side Conservatism  Where I have I guess I have had a winding road is taking that anchor and bringing it into my every day vocation, which is really what I want to do, as a Coach, as am Artiste. 

Question is “How?” I love meditating with prayer and music, love writing song and poetry, love writing and singing, reciting, all these things. We are a social animal, so how do I take all of this and create a social circle, particularly with the fibromyalgia being a thorn in my side, a shadow over me day to day?  These are all important questions, so what would Jesus do? He prayed, he surrendered to the Father, he let go, trusted, did what he was called to do.  I know that faith, spirituality, guiding and the arts are where I am supposed to be, the journey I am supposed to make, which includes some tough love.  I have taken the first step of enrolling to train as a Coach, I will study to be a coach in several areas, most likely will move into spiritual or wellness coaching.  I am working on making sure I get into my own wellness zone, more water, watch what I eat, meditating.  I also have to figure out how to come into or create community, which is tough due to the fibromyalgia.  Even today as I was running my errands, the humidity in NYC, I thought I was going to black out in the street, got home, my blood pressure had dipped tooo low. I feel fatigued, and yesterday was supposed to go to a lecture, but couldn’t, the fatigue was too overwhelming.  Having to work around that is one of biggest challenges, but I am sure that with finding the right mentor/s I can work through it.  It may not be an overnight thing, but nothing worthwhile comes without putting in effort and patience.  I also have to really seek to be true to my Christian self, something else I have to truly explore in depth.

Shalom and Amen

Do I Take the Literally or Metaphorically?

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As we come to another Father’s Day and I am brought back to my dad, my childhood, a not so pleasant correlation of dad and goodbye, which left a permanent scar.  Last night, when I got back from having a nice evening with my cousin, who keeps that link alive for me, I was also when we passed by the church went in with the lights dimmed, the quiet of it reminded of my dreams, the ones I spoke about, and whether I should return to the Catholic faith, what were the dreams all about, something started to dawn on me.  There are important words, even in the study of scripture, of any faith tradition, in any reading of any significant undertaking.  They are literal, symbolic, metaphorical, and also discernment, in terms of which is it?  Now what? 

I thought about my spiritual songwriting, when I had discerned stuff about what I did need to do and when I felt closest to God.  I also thought about what the main feel, texture and theme of the dream was, or the main ones were? I also thought of when did I feel most in touch with God, Christ, Holy Spirit, when did even scripture discernment come, even to more deeply understand the juncture of Bible and Constitution?  The main theme/s, feel I would have to say, quiet internal contemplative, in the backdrop of sacred chant.  The sense of peaceful contemplative was so beautiful, wasn’t a religious feel per se, but I felt very close to the Heavens.   I thought of Psalm 23, the Book of Ben Sira, Jesus peaceful and also strong as they came to get him to bring him to his death. These were what resonated with me in these dreams.  Then I thought about the times I most felt scripture spoke to me, and the universe around me spoke to me as an artist, and either very spontaneous, I never plan my writing, or when I was sitting somewhere on the weekend or even during the week with my mini digital recorder listening to meditative contemplative music.  I realized that meditation is along with writing my form of prayers, of discerning, understanding the Bible, scripture, life.  I need to cultivate a more disciplined meditative, contemplative prayer and study path for myself, even if it’s Zen meditation, learning that form of meditation, praying, conversing with God, Christ for the Holy Spirit to help me write material and provide services that will truly impact lives to the max.  The other thing I realized I need to get back that fibromyalgia stole from free has stolen from me in life is community. I want a community that is really going to bring me a sense of peace, of really bringing out the utmost creativity, potential for me to give back to society and make sure that God can see I have not wasted my gifts, talents.   I do believe we each have a purpose and an anointing even when it comes to how to serve others in our humanity, and for me I do feel it is the artistic and in providing some slightly tough love motivational, life coaching.  I will keep you posted on this journey,

Amen and God Bless.

To all the great Dads out there God Bless!