Pray, Then What?

Pray Then Let Go

Okay, so you prayed, and prayed, and you prayed, now what?  I meditate and I pray every night, even pray the Anglican Rosary, have created my own meditation of positive affirmations, so where are the inundation of blessings, the miracles and all that I could ask, could, notice I said could.  I could also become angry, bitter, decide there is no God because geen wiz I didn’t get my wish my way when I wanted boo hoo, could.  What purpose would they serve?  None.  Instead what am I doing?  I following strong Holy Spirit guidance of what I am supposed to do with my music and this blog each day after listening to the mediation upon going to bed, listening to it a few times and praying the rosary.  What have I been guided to do, radio, focus on putting the songs up for sale on TuneCore and getting the songs played on radio, with goal of getting interviewed on radio.  I am hoping to also send the music to music blogs once I have the funds for a blitz, major blitz promotional campaign to send a few of my songs to radio and to blogs, have my fiverr virtual assistant take 10 hours or so and dedicate them to that.  I would like to focus my time on the writing, research, the recording.  Prayer is not an automated teller where you put the card in and poof out comes the money, not quick cash thing and it may take a good period of time to get any return on your prayer investment.  Your return on that investment may be a NO answer with nothing but walls and daggers etc.. everything you thought should be for your life shattered, so what ought to be can actually take place.  If we do trust and pray, not force, manipulate shake our fist in anger, defiant to do it and have it our way, some pretty neat stuff can happen, if we let it.  Praying is not really the hard part, the hard part is the trust and let go now, just let go, just let it go, not push, insist upon, just let go.  That doesn’t mean I don’t do what I am guided to do each day or each week, like I have been guided, prompted to offer an online seminar about Releasing Fear the first week of April and I will post details on here about ten days before.  We still do what we are guided to do in meditation and prayer, but in and with total peace.  I know, believe me I know, taht is not an easy thing.

Shalom and Amen

Good Stress, Bad Stress

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I wanted to share something practical with you because we all have stressors in our lives and some stress is good, some stress is bad stress.  I hope this helps you to figure out which stress your life is running on. It also gives some tips for dealing with stress.  I will also be posting a meditation for stress reduction in the next few days or so along with know yourself part 3.

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40 Years in the Desert, Why?

In the Desert

God refers to the Israelites as “stiff necked”, but that could be said of all of us at any given point in our life journey as we decide as did our parents Adam and Eve that we know better than the Holy Trinity, our wisdom is greater than biblical wisdom.  People will think it awful that God let them wander for such a long time, but did he really?  Was it God that was the problem?  There are a few things that one notices in the Book of Numbers and even in Christ with his interactions with the apostles. Rebellion, a big thing with us humans, whether it’s with God, with authority in general, even our human parents when we are teens, young adults, that sense of defiance, that our 16 or 18 years of life makes us so much wiser than someone with 40 or 50, 60 years of life, wiser than the creator of all things. The Israelites through Moses were given the game plan, he asked the Lord what it was, but nah, they kind of decided, screw that God, we prefer to go with our game plan, well okey dokey, yeah, worked out real well, not.  Then, even when they defy etc…, God still shows mercy, and what do they do, complain, worship idols etc…, for those who try to make Jesus out to be some Love Guru, no he had little patience with his disciples and crowds, their rebellion, nonsense often, made it clear, I am the only ticket to heaven, he wasn’t big on sharing the ticket to the final destination.  God could have just destroyed them all, but he has mercy and has them wander until the older generation, the stiff necked and rebel generation dies out.  What of Moses, why not let Moses enter the promised land?  His disobedience, he chose the people over obedience to God.  They could have had a straight line into the land promised them, and Moses could have entered the land, but that same problem that got us thrown out at Eden, we see coming up over and over throughout scripture, and it brings to mind the song “My Way”, which is often the human motto.  

We all I think have our own 40 years in the desert, I’ve had it, and am coming out of it, but it’s not easy coming out of such a journey.  I lost a lot of time and I am not playing catch up in terms of my vocational path and in different ways.  My well being was hit hard by my rebellion, not seeking to understand effectively what God meant by ministry, when he put that in my heart.  I am realizing that though He did put music and ministry in my heart, I still have to make the journey of connecting to Father, Son, Holy Spirit, having the help of the heavens to discern what that means, what the right path to that is.  If I try to do it stiff necked my way I will have a lifetime in the desert.  That is not a fun picture.

Shalom and Amen

Why Some Artists etc..Do What They Do

If I Can

Emily Dickinson wrote this in one of her poems and as I read it I thought of some us artists, ministers, tough love coaches who do what we do, who write the songs we write etc… and why we do it.  I have shared a lot of my life’s journey, and will be recording more of my songs, have them professionally recorded, produced, songs that have meaning, that will hopefully inspire, be light bulb moments for you in your life. One thing I wish I had realized a lot sooner was just how much God does love us and how that love came through in His given moral precepts, then I would have made one or two choices differently that would have saved me many years of heartache.  I would have not have sought after something that I had not businesses seeking after, or been in a relationship I had no business being in.  When artists and others say something is a labor of love, I sometimes though have to scratch my head because I have to wonder if they really do care about the audience they are reaching out to.  I have to wonder if they care at all about the soul of those individuals, even the lives of those people.  As anyone who puts out a product in the artistic, ministry or coaching field what you put out there impacts potentially the entire moral fabric of a person and if who you are influencing is youth, a lot of their years.  A labor of love should be not only love of the craft, but also love of all that is within the realm of what is ethical, of integrity, moral and good, of what will empower people to that path.  I hope that in my own journey as an artist, minister etc…I am very aware and very intentional, understanding this very important lesson.  I hope that when I engage in anything that is a labor of love artistically or otherwise I do so with love of God, Country and all those I serve with what I create and produce.  If I don’t then it’s a labor of love of myself, and that’s not going to help you or really teach me anything either.  This journey needs to be a collaborative learning experience, one that inspires me as I inspire you in that realm I spoke of.  I hope with the help of the Holy Spirit I always do just that.

Shalom and Amen

Be Proud of the Steps

Be Proud Along the Way

When we watch an epic film, especially set in an epic time, hear an orchestra concerto, see a cake that is a true masterpiece of art, even perhaps our own, we beam with joy and pride,  This goes for anything, even any milestones with one’s kids, friendships, relationships.  We see the end result and wow, but what of a journey that has been a bit rocky, or very rocky before getting to a masterpiece?  Wait a minute, you think that epic film didn’t give at any time the director, producer, anyone and everyone on set the need for nexium?  That masterpiece of a cake or three course meal that has everyone fawning, you think it happened the first time around? Hello, test kitchen, trial and error, mishaps etc…, lots of steps from A to Z.  Yeah, great to look at the final product whatever that is, the achieve, but don’t discount being proud, not in a narcissistic way that everyone will want to smack you upside the head for being an arrogant twit, thank you very much, but in a healthy recognition of the steps taken, time etc… put in to get there.  Do I have a songwriting deal with any record label yet, or being called to be a speaker at events yet? No, but I am happy that I am taking steps to get there and each step along the way is a jewel, one I should cherish, along with my faith.  Also think about the fact that God could have created anyone, but chose to create you, hmm.  Again, no getting all narcissistic, but, that means there are gifts, talents you are meant to share.  What are they, and how do you constructively share them?

How Cool God Created You

Amen and PS. the non functional product page will be gone in the next 24-48 hours.

Knowing Your Strengths, Getting Focused

I love to sing and that’s great, I love to write, also great, love to perform artistically when it comes to poetry, also great, love to teach, coach, minister also great, but what is the core of my strength?  Where should I put the focus?  This is important.  I had one of my songs professionally produced, “I Won’t Apologize for This” including the vocals, looked at which pieces got the most views etc… on youtube and asked for feedback, honest back from those who know me.   I realized that my strength is in speaking up, speaking out what the Spirit, Holy Spirit guides me to speak and write, so I can teach etc…, but the singing, music production, best leave that to someone else.  I best focus on the writing part, maybe even doing seminars.  I still sing when I send the samples to the producers and vocalist who produce the tracks for me, so they can hear the baseline melody I want to for the piece.  When I am at Mass, I sing my little heart out, in tune, out of tune who cares.  Objectively seeing one’s gifts and being able to let go of stuff, and saying “Ok Lord, leaving that so someone else and I will do this other thing, leave that to others to do”, not a bad thing.  Know your core strengths and work with that.

My New Habit Realization -Progress?



I have started the goal of being more informed about and aware of my faith.  How is that going?  I found a great study for me to study and grow in my Christian faith.  The commitment to study, listen to the lessons consistently has been a bit wobbly.  I decided to start with the study of the Creed because the Creed is the great summing up and condensing of our faith, especially the Apostles Creed.  I am aiming to get better at it, to be more consistent with the studies, daily basis, and also to consistently attend prayer sets at Life Center Church.   The fibromyalgia and not so great health stuff the past few weeks have not helped, but on the days I have felt well, I have made it a point to study, to learn, to pray.   I realize that it is important to anchor it on an old habit and I have always loved listening to faith based music and such on youtube, so my love of understanding the faith, of seeking true understanding and theology of the faith is not new.   I am building on established habit, that included prayer, as I have recorded a meditation that is faith based, Christ based, which I listen to in bed several times a night and at least once when I wake up.  Building on a foundation of some kind, is important.  I will keep you posted.


Realizing My Potential etc.., Patience Required?

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Establishing myself to the global public as a writer creative and as an Inspirational/tough love coach takes time, work, patience different elements to come together.  What I do during the time of building success will mean a lot.  It will be a reflection on me, if I remain true to who I am, my “calling”, how I promote my work.  If I become impatient and want it all to happen right away, then I might not make the wisest decisions.  I am having someone create a solid marketing plan, am also seeing which videos have the most views and if the ones with the most views are the spoken word and spoken word with some singing sprinkled in, then in the new year I will re=record a number of pieces in that manner.  I have to be patient with myself, the process of building up, building up on solid foundation, and making sure I am always authentic in my material, even in my personal development.  What is going on with my artistic life etc.. bullet points?

  • Compiling poetry to record, modify to make my own and philosophical quotes to also turn to poetry, improvisation poetry
  • Hired a PR strategist via FIverr to create a strategic PR and Marketing plan for me to implement
  • Plan to review my youtube channel, videos to see if it is best to re-record all pieces to be spoken word only or spoken word with smattering of song, or combination of both of these

I’ll keep you posted!



How Goes My New Habit Adaptation?

Forming New Habits

I spoke about connecting heart, spirit and soul, and that means solid reason based faith, not just emotional based faith and living, a balance of both.  That means knowledge, as it points out here, there should be a 30 day commitment and it should be based on a habit or inclination already existing, a positive one please.  I have always loved to learn about the faith, including through music.  I researched and found a study site for bible study and theology that is solid with a basis of not only scripture, but also a historical and sociological basis.  I have started the online free study and plan to go through the entire program.  Balancing that with a belief in the spiritual gifts, gifts of the spirit, prayer, need for community I will be working to discipline myself to attend communal prayer weekly at a nearby evangelical church, starting this coming week.  I have started the study with Thirdmill, free studies online, a very solid program, and will let you know about my experience with this study program and also with Life Center Church here in my neighborhood, where I also hope to contribute my artistic talents. 


New Habit, Hmmm What Shall it Be?

Forming New Habits

I have been thinking about it and we work with three areas of being, heart, spirit and soul, for me the balance of those and of those with consistent right knowledge seems key to a great future and solid faith journey.  My new habit, to start with I would like to work with is balance of heart, spirit and soul as a Christian artist, with this seeking of this consistent right knowledge.  What do I have to for that to happen? As I see it a few things:

  1.  Meditate on the right things
  2. Choose the right place to seek knowledge
  3. Develop my craft as an artist and my faith building in a way that balances all three

The right things, right place, that is the next piece that has to fall into place, which I will be working on, and sharing with you.