Some “Just Friends” Category

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Whether it’s online or offline, you get a sense of things when it comes to people, and if you work to develop discernment or have people around you that have that gift, but mainly your own gut when it’s not fear driven, but really contemplative prayer and meditative in nature will guide.

Some people you have an instant connection, which is great and you find them easy to talk to right away, feel at ease, all of that stuff.  Great, as long as you are sure who you are talking to.  There are some connections that are immediate connection et… as well, but even though both or a few of these connections have that ease, there is still discernment required.  Sometimes after a few conversations with each or several of the parties, you just know.  You have a Holy Spirit sense which one really has the maturity, common goals etc.., potential to be more than just a friend and which one either because of a certain immaturity you sense, for whatever reasons, that Holy Spirit intuition which person is the just friends one.  You have to honor that, honor that sacred intuition.  You have above all honor your own soul, own spirit about who to have in your life and in what way they fit into your life. That’s not always easy to do, but with faith, discernment, meditation, prayer, maturity, common sense, it can be done.  That is where I am now along with planning clearly my journey in life 2018-2020, laying the foundations.  It’s a great thing, working towards achieving your dreams, and getting there when you do. I pray that the vocational goals, goal of creating ministry through coaching and the arts combined, as well finally joining my life to a true soulmate are achieved. All I can do is my best, give of my best, of my best self.  All any of us can do.

Shalom and Amen

Where Do I Go From Here?

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As I look at this picture, I see where I want to be my end goal, a soaring eagle and as I think of the anchor of everything in my life, it is Christ, it is scripture, along side Conservatism  Where I have I guess I have had a winding road is taking that anchor and bringing it into my every day vocation, which is really what I want to do, as a Coach, as am Artiste. 

Question is “How?” I love meditating with prayer and music, love writing song and poetry, love writing and singing, reciting, all these things. We are a social animal, so how do I take all of this and create a social circle, particularly with the fibromyalgia being a thorn in my side, a shadow over me day to day?  These are all important questions, so what would Jesus do? He prayed, he surrendered to the Father, he let go, trusted, did what he was called to do.  I know that faith, spirituality, guiding and the arts are where I am supposed to be, the journey I am supposed to make, which includes some tough love.  I have taken the first step of enrolling to train as a Coach, I will study to be a coach in several areas, most likely will move into spiritual or wellness coaching.  I am working on making sure I get into my own wellness zone, more water, watch what I eat, meditating.  I also have to figure out how to come into or create community, which is tough due to the fibromyalgia.  Even today as I was running my errands, the humidity in NYC, I thought I was going to black out in the street, got home, my blood pressure had dipped tooo low. I feel fatigued, and yesterday was supposed to go to a lecture, but couldn’t, the fatigue was too overwhelming.  Having to work around that is one of biggest challenges, but I am sure that with finding the right mentor/s I can work through it.  It may not be an overnight thing, but nothing worthwhile comes without putting in effort and patience.  I also have to really seek to be true to my Christian self, something else I have to truly explore in depth.

Shalom and Amen

Do I Take the Literally or Metaphorically?

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As we come to another Father’s Day and I am brought back to my dad, my childhood, a not so pleasant correlation of dad and goodbye, which left a permanent scar.  Last night, when I got back from having a nice evening with my cousin, who keeps that link alive for me, I was also when we passed by the church went in with the lights dimmed, the quiet of it reminded of my dreams, the ones I spoke about, and whether I should return to the Catholic faith, what were the dreams all about, something started to dawn on me.  There are important words, even in the study of scripture, of any faith tradition, in any reading of any significant undertaking.  They are literal, symbolic, metaphorical, and also discernment, in terms of which is it?  Now what? 

I thought about my spiritual songwriting, when I had discerned stuff about what I did need to do and when I felt closest to God.  I also thought about what the main feel, texture and theme of the dream was, or the main ones were? I also thought of when did I feel most in touch with God, Christ, Holy Spirit, when did even scripture discernment come, even to more deeply understand the juncture of Bible and Constitution?  The main theme/s, feel I would have to say, quiet internal contemplative, in the backdrop of sacred chant.  The sense of peaceful contemplative was so beautiful, wasn’t a religious feel per se, but I felt very close to the Heavens.   I thought of Psalm 23, the Book of Ben Sira, Jesus peaceful and also strong as they came to get him to bring him to his death. These were what resonated with me in these dreams.  Then I thought about the times I most felt scripture spoke to me, and the universe around me spoke to me as an artist, and either very spontaneous, I never plan my writing, or when I was sitting somewhere on the weekend or even during the week with my mini digital recorder listening to meditative contemplative music.  I realized that meditation is along with writing my form of prayers, of discerning, understanding the Bible, scripture, life.  I need to cultivate a more disciplined meditative, contemplative prayer and study path for myself, even if it’s Zen meditation, learning that form of meditation, praying, conversing with God, Christ for the Holy Spirit to help me write material and provide services that will truly impact lives to the max.  The other thing I realized I need to get back that fibromyalgia stole from free has stolen from me in life is community. I want a community that is really going to bring me a sense of peace, of really bringing out the utmost creativity, potential for me to give back to society and make sure that God can see I have not wasted my gifts, talents.   I do believe we each have a purpose and an anointing even when it comes to how to serve others in our humanity, and for me I do feel it is the artistic and in providing some slightly tough love motivational, life coaching.  I will keep you posted on this journey,

Amen and God Bless.

To all the great Dads out there God Bless!

Wings to Fly, You as The Wind

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I recorded a new meditation, and hope to do more of that and of course more songs of my own and also improve spoken word, to really be a blessing.  Another way I hope to be a blessing is to support and stand with Israel by giving some of my time to organizations such as Proclaiming Justice To The Nations.  I love doing what I do with this blog, the songs, and I do the best I can in terms of creating the best quality product I can, using online mastering tools and all that.  I know it’s not ideal, but I love sharing it all with all of you.  I thank you for the chance to do this, to share, to be a part of your lives in some small way, maybe make an impact in some small way.  I would like to do more, to host live events, free seminars live, free prayer and meditation events.  I hope you will find it in your heart to donate to this blog or purchase the songs etc…That will give greater wind beneath these wings and help this eagle to fly higher to perhaps impact more people in more ways.  I thank you in advance for the earning of my daily bread, the ability to help others and letting me be a part of your day and make a difference in any way I can.

Amen

 

Happiness, Tips For the Journey Part I

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My bandcamp site is up, the rest of the songs have to be put up and I have to put in the descriptions, but as I prayed, meditated and discerned, my instinct was that ministry through the arts and coaching was the path to follow. Yes, fibromyalgia is a thorn in my life, quite an unpleasant one, but doing this lifts me up in spite of the thorn, thorns presented by the Fibro and that is connected to these two elements:  

  • Giving yourself permission to say yers to what uplifts, to what has been discerned as part of your anointed path
  • Taking time to evaluate this, create and implement a plan according to divine guidance and providence

I am finding that as I am doing this things are flowing and the feedback I am getting on my music is great, awesome, one person said that there may not be magic left in the world but my music is magic.  I thought, I am just doing what God is asking me to do, minister through music, the arts and in some way through coaching, that’s all.  I am glad that in doing these steps I am making a difference, impacting.  The evaluating, discerning, planning are all very important before acting, not to say you should spend eternity evaluating and be too scared to act, no, but a period of discerning, evaluating, planning organizing is a good idea.  I started out with selling through Tunecore, putting my stuff on various sites to stream and promote and now in prayer and discernment the gut instinct was do all sales on your own site, and focus on promoting that website, and reaching out to record labels, organizing a meet and greet, do some improvisation performance and spoken word, get some media presence, arrange it for September, then do a holiday show in December.  That is what I plan to do.   Divinely guided discernment, evaluation the key, along with planning, saying yes to that.  I’ll be discussing other elements of happiness, so stay tuned!

Shalom and Amen

 

Streamlining My Life

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I am getting more in tune with Holy Spirit and I keep getting the word Streamline, that word is coming up over and over, so I have been thinking about it and how to streamline different things in my life.  I first had to figure out why this call to streamline and I guess it is because I have been on a winding road of discovery etc.. for so long in terms of my faith, my gifts, talents and my path with those gifts, talents in terms of what God wanted me to do with them. In regards to the music, poetry would I focus on genres per se or themes, and perhaps themes is best, streamline what themes I’m spiritually guided to focus on.  Then focus on two venues online to stream them and one to sell them on.  I decided bandlab and soundcloud to steam, tunecore to sell.  In terms of live shows, well, I sense again around holidays and themes is best.  What of the coaching and ministry intertwined, wellness overall wellness, which would include social, spiritual holistically, and do online seminars and then twice a year live events.  Then comes my medical, well there as well, except for my internist, I am moving all my medical needs to one place, which means switching my ob/gyn, dermatologist, gastroenterologist, ENT, getting all my medical personnel in one place.  That will also open up a door that until now has not been able to be open.  I do feel that I need to streamline tings, get my life in a more streamlined position in certain ways.  Does that mean I have to lose being creative and all that, no of course not, but I can be less frazzled and be able to have more creative focus and that can contribute to my overall wellness.  I also did something to help with my sleep, which was a bit of an issue as is often for those with fibromyalgia, I got a mattress cover that is sensopedic and sensopedic pillows as well and I am able to sleep through the night, no tossing, turning waking up throughout the night, so though I still have trouble falling asleep at times, once I do fall asleep, I sleep straight through, big help.  I am working on making changes in my life that will benefit me, but also make me more productive so I can be a better artist etc…and that makes me happy.  If we really want to make changes in life we can, we just have to connect to Spirit, to that Divine spark and accept guidance, then take right action.  We don’t have to be stuck or in quicksand going down, and that is a beautiful realization.

Amen

Pray, Then What?

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Okay, so you prayed, and prayed, and you prayed, now what?  I meditate and I pray every night, even pray the Anglican Rosary, have created my own meditation of positive affirmations, so where are the inundation of blessings, the miracles and all that I could ask, could, notice I said could.  I could also become angry, bitter, decide there is no God because geen wiz I didn’t get my wish my way when I wanted boo hoo, could.  What purpose would they serve?  None.  Instead what am I doing?  I following strong Holy Spirit guidance of what I am supposed to do with my music and this blog each day after listening to the mediation upon going to bed, listening to it a few times and praying the rosary.  What have I been guided to do, radio, focus on putting the songs up for sale on TuneCore and getting the songs played on radio, with goal of getting interviewed on radio.  I am hoping to also send the music to music blogs once I have the funds for a blitz, major blitz promotional campaign to send a few of my songs to radio and to blogs, have my fiverr virtual assistant take 10 hours or so and dedicate them to that.  I would like to focus my time on the writing, research, the recording.  Prayer is not an automated teller where you put the card in and poof out comes the money, not quick cash thing and it may take a good period of time to get any return on your prayer investment.  Your return on that investment may be a NO answer with nothing but walls and daggers etc.. everything you thought should be for your life shattered, so what ought to be can actually take place.  If we do trust and pray, not force, manipulate shake our fist in anger, defiant to do it and have it our way, some pretty neat stuff can happen, if we let it.  Praying is not really the hard part, the hard part is the trust and let go now, just let go, just let it go, not push, insist upon, just let go.  That doesn’t mean I don’t do what I am guided to do each day or each week, like I have been guided, prompted to offer an online seminar about Releasing Fear the first week of April and I will post details on here about ten days before.  We still do what we are guided to do in meditation and prayer, but in and with total peace.  I know, believe me I know, taht is not an easy thing.

Shalom and Amen

Good Stress, Bad Stress

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I wanted to share something practical with you because we all have stressors in our lives and some stress is good, some stress is bad stress.  I hope this helps you to figure out which stress your life is running on. It also gives some tips for dealing with stress.  I will also be posting a meditation for stress reduction in the next few days or so along with know yourself part 3.

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Thank You and God Bless.

40 Years in the Desert, Why?

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God refers to the Israelites as “stiff necked”, but that could be said of all of us at any given point in our life journey as we decide as did our parents Adam and Eve that we know better than the Holy Trinity, our wisdom is greater than biblical wisdom.  People will think it awful that God let them wander for such a long time, but did he really?  Was it God that was the problem?  There are a few things that one notices in the Book of Numbers and even in Christ with his interactions with the apostles. Rebellion, a big thing with us humans, whether it’s with God, with authority in general, even our human parents when we are teens, young adults, that sense of defiance, that our 16 or 18 years of life makes us so much wiser than someone with 40 or 50, 60 years of life, wiser than the creator of all things. The Israelites through Moses were given the game plan, he asked the Lord what it was, but nah, they kind of decided, screw that God, we prefer to go with our game plan, well okey dokey, yeah, worked out real well, not.  Then, even when they defy etc…, God still shows mercy, and what do they do, complain, worship idols etc…, for those who try to make Jesus out to be some Love Guru, no he had little patience with his disciples and crowds, their rebellion, nonsense often, made it clear, I am the only ticket to heaven, he wasn’t big on sharing the ticket to the final destination.  God could have just destroyed them all, but he has mercy and has them wander until the older generation, the stiff necked and rebel generation dies out.  What of Moses, why not let Moses enter the promised land?  His disobedience, he chose the people over obedience to God.  They could have had a straight line into the land promised them, and Moses could have entered the land, but that same problem that got us thrown out at Eden, we see coming up over and over throughout scripture, and it brings to mind the song “My Way”, which is often the human motto.  

We all I think have our own 40 years in the desert, I’ve had it, and am coming out of it, but it’s not easy coming out of such a journey.  I lost a lot of time and I am not playing catch up in terms of my vocational path and in different ways.  My well being was hit hard by my rebellion, not seeking to understand effectively what God meant by ministry, when he put that in my heart.  I am realizing that though He did put music and ministry in my heart, I still have to make the journey of connecting to Father, Son, Holy Spirit, having the help of the heavens to discern what that means, what the right path to that is.  If I try to do it stiff necked my way I will have a lifetime in the desert.  That is not a fun picture.

Shalom and Amen