Life Lessons 44 and 45

45 life Lessons

Yielding is not easy since we have this thing called EGO and we want to be right, don’t want to look stupid or silly etc…Yet, what if not yielding, we end up actually looking that way, whereas if we had yielded, even just a bit, we would have been wise and looked wise before others, been an example of wise?  Bible says we perish for lack of knowledge, well part of that I am realizing is lacking knowledge, discernment and understanding when it comes to our own self-discipline, and how to navigate situations, relationships to know when to stand firm, not move, not budge, and when to say “is this such a priority that I am willing to have a war, that I have to be right?”  Meditating and studying sacred text is a way of reaching discernment, but so is the observation of life and people.  Seriously, if I had really paid attention to the world around me, looked at who has constructive patterns vs who had destructive ones and what are they, I would have looked at what successful, healthy relationships looked like in different aspect of life and what the pattern was when each yielded. Not saying I would do things exactly as others do since I am me, but I would have gained wisdom, maybe my life would look a bit different now.   Yielding at the right time, for the right reasons, once discerned is not a bad thing. 

When I was a kid one song that I used to listen to over and over was “I Never Promised You a Rose Garden” and the other was a song about love and it said that you didn’t know love until it chilled you to the bone, turned you inside out.  Life is like that, love can be like that, turn you inside out and upside down.  It may be for you or me more so than for others, to a different extent.  No one is immune from pain, though they may mask it, hide it, every one of us has had daggers thrown at us, some missed some hit.  Satan throws and if we have a strong constitution, strong faith etc.. we stand strong, stand tall, we may end up on our knees, we may bend, but we don’t break to the point of losing faith or knowing who we are.  Life is the ability to create, to do, impact and so much more, even with just a smile, the bounce in our voice, so no life doesn’t come all wrapped up in Christmas or other really pretty paper, but it is still a precious gift.  Even I have to remind myself of that each day in prayer, meditation, going out and seeing God’s creation, appreciating the seasons, the fact that I am alive and here, just here.  I hope you can appreciate that to. 

Namaste, Shalom and Amen

Distance Healing -Tune In

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Hi everyone.  I want to thank everyone who follows this blog, your follow, support means a lot so thank you.  I am going to be offering weekly Distance Healing for all my blog followers every Monday-Saturday 10:30 am.  I just need you to go somewhere quiet and peaceful and get comfortable for about a half hour.  I must caution do not consume alcohol that day, and if you have a pacemaker, are diabetic, please do not participate, as it is energy based and it can mess with your pacemaker and shift the sugar levels,. I really would love your feedback on anything you feel happening and remember if you feel dizzy, if you feel any sensations, any tears come, it’s all part of the cleansing.  I will ask you to be well hydrated earlier that day going into the late afternoon, and have a glass of water nearby if needed. I will send distance instruction to your higher spiritual self, beginning with a grounding exercise. The goal is connect your higher Spiritual Consciousness to be open to Divine Healing on all levels.  When done, you come back to the present slowly and at a pace you are comfortable with.  I will open it with a prayer of gratitude and the core Healing  Principles.  Afterwards, if you could post on the comments section what your experience was it would be really appreciated.

Thank You

Life Lesson 17 and 18

45 life Lessons

 

Childhood can be heaven, limbo or hell, depends on the adults around you, it can even be a combo dish, again depends on those around you.   People talk about a lost childhood and in a sense yes when your childhood is unstable, filled with a lot of negativity whatever that negativity may be, in whatever dose it may be, however harsh it may be, a piece of you is lost.  However, it is up to you whether you stay stuck there or whether you decide you will break free of those chains and at some point be a happy inner child and a happy adult that lives life to the fullest, happy, healthy, wise, thriving and prospering on different levels, making the journey along those lines.  It may take a short while to get there, or it may take a very long hard road.  Hopefully, you meet some good people to help you along there.  It’s also never too late to go after the dream you had growing up, even if it’s not exactly the way you pictured it growing up, meditate, pray, be guided as to how once you make that choice to let go, forgive for yourself not them, and live, truly live, how those healthy dreams can become reality.  Move through and past any inner negative self talk and obstacle, if necessary find a group online that will encourage you, pray with you and for you, meditate with you.  Your childhood junk etc.. does not need to determine your whole life, unless you, unless we let it.

Shalom and Amen

Collapse and Rebirth?

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Today I had to go for a bone density test and MRI of both knees, and it took two yours total, and the MRI of my knees not comfy as I have lower back issues to having to be there on my back and not move for an hour was very uncomfy.   How was I not ready to jump out of my skin?  Well, I asked for music, classical light music, so I allowed my conscious mind to set itself aside and make way for my subconscious mind.  

Fibromyalgia, let’s face is is not a fun journey by any means, but I had two choices lay there and be miserable, or go into a meditative state and see if I gained any insight and once again that project for the wellness wheel came rushing through and last night I received a call from and old friend who is a very experienced hypnotherapist and wants to collaborate.  I have been praying, meditating for God to unite me with people of integrity and ethics to collaborate with.  Last night I get the call.  Today as I was getting the MRI, I decided, breathe, relax, meditate, release, let go, and drift into a place of discernment, connect with the Holy Spirit and that is what I did and the time flew by.  The other instinct I have is that any political activism or campaigning candidates and their surrogates do in the GOP must be tied to The Trump MAGA Platform of Conservatism.  This nation can not go the other way, the way of thinking free stuff because nothing is free, even Venezuela’s government has now admitted Socialism is a failure.  I can be scared for my country, and do nothing or be a voice that speaks up, even if it’s not popular, doesn’t matter.  I can seek a group that understands this as I do and that the National Platform of MAGA must be tied into any advocacy etc.. done locally for Conservatism, who understand that Republican is not good enough, to save America Freedom Caucus, MAGA Republican is what’s needed, looks for and backs those candidates, fights for those candidates.  I could let the fibromyalgia make me obsolete, a nebulous presence in the universe, or a start that rises out of the ashes to fight hard for God and Country, that is up to me, that choice is mine to make and I choose option number two.  All in all it was a productive morning, even if a bit uncomfortable. 

Amen

What Was The Actual Deception?

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There are not a lot of specifics in the Eden narrative in the Bible and we are left to wonder what was, is the core lie that Satan told, tells humanity, which led them to be disconnected from God, from the realm of heaven and thus lose their immortal soul, to have to have God put his Word to Flesh? 

A conversation recently gave me a pretty good idea.  A center for holistic stuff, someone there had called me to discuss my possibly training with them as a spiritual life coach.  Hitler came up and in the metaphysical, New Age objective truth, Dharma view of things, Hitler was not evil, he had a path, he got lost, he was not evil, not an evil man, etc….get the gist. As I thought about other conversations with those of the New Age persuasion, even a family member most recently, it finally hit me.  Satan’s lie isn’t that he doesn’t exist or even that God doesn’t, his big lie is subjective truth and morality.  That’s his big lie.  Now we have a society where there are no boundaries, Pedophoellia is being given a different name, label to try and make it seem less horrific and deplorable than it is.  If Hitler, Stalin, if their souls were not so corrupted, so not even sure there are words to describe it, then what is evil.  These men were and are, same as with Pol Pot, Mao Zedong.  These men were, always will be the definition of EVIL.  Gender Dysphoria is it seems the norm now and irresponsible parents are having their young kids have surgery rather than help them understand who they are in Christ, that they were made male or female according to the will of the creator and that is to be cherished, loved, honored, celebrated, whatever distorted thoughts they have about their sexuality, gender is not coming from God, from a place of distortion, rejection of self.  There is even a website that promotes alternative relationship situations, trios and whatever else goes for you to be happy.  Subjective truth is all about me me me in this moment, what my impulses say I want, all about feeling, and that means lots of distortion, means the Prince and Principalities etc.. Paul spoke of in the New Testament are loud and clear and they are the ones being listened to, just like in the Garden. 

In that Garden oF Eden, they had a choice to make honor and believe in God’s objective holy truth, or Satan’s subjective do as you please, screw any and all consequences, even to your own well being, that of others etc.., just do your thing and whoever doesn’t like it, screw you, God included.  Ding Ding, first prize if you can guess which one they chose, we have a winner, it wasn’t God’s truth, nope, it was the Satan Version 2.0, do as I please, to hell with anything else.  I’ve been there more than once, never ended well.  I got lost in the choice thing myself and more than once chose the rebel truth, Satan’s truth, and it didn’t work out well.  It seems now, more and more people are spitting in the face of God’s truth, of objective truth and instead moving more and more to Satan’s Subjective Truth 2.0 or higher.  What can we who get it do, well, speak up, and yeah you might get people yelling your face, but it’ll be something to put in our diary.  Not saying to stand on a corner all by yourself and start screaming the Gospel, no.  Maybe you can get packets of bookmarks with some bible passages and when you go to the beauty salon, when you are leaving, say, I want to say thank you for the great service and in addition to the tip you leave give them a bookmark, little things like that. 

Satan is very clever, he disguises subjective truth and reality, including in the moral arena as “rights” and “happiness, pursuit of” and all that jazz.  If truth is only what I feel, want etc.. in any given moment and not based on long term foundations, then there is not truth, so what does society have, nothing, what do people have, nothing, who are they, nothing, no one because they have no care identity, since there is no core.  The New Agers will say, the core is “spiritual being”, there is not sin, only good and bad decisions, so what Hitler did, it was his spiritual being out of alignment, uhh, no it was evil, pure satanic evil.   Subjective truth, even those who participated in the atrocities will twist and turn things to justify what they did.  Truth either is or isn’t, either we core truths, unchangeable, by which our nation, our faith institutions, we live by or we have nothing, we have no truth.  For those of us who have been found or found themselves again, truly, we understand this and we understand that God’s Word is Objective Truth, The Truth, Principles by which nations, society, and lives can thrive. Subjective truth, not truth, it’s whatever works according to what I feel in the moment, and according to what I see as truth, as reality, as moral truth etc…, me, I’m the God source, the one making the rules, me.  No, that’s not how it works, not according to God, not according to scripture.

Satan sold Adam and Eve a big lie, subjective truth and reality, truth is whatever you want, whatever you need it to be to be happy happy happy etc.., that’s truth.  Only, it’s not. 

Shalom and Amen

 

The Past Paid A Visit

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I had a dream and that dream was of one who was a major part of my past. I had not really thought of them for a while, but I guess there are those who touch our lives so deeply, have such an impact for good or not, or a mixed bag, but so deeply that they truly are a part of us forever. How do I feel about this? 

Mixed bag really.  In a way I feel sad because we got it wrong in how we dealt with “us” the situation, relationship etc.. and it had potential to be perhaps even a great friendship, but we screwed up.  I am so sad because I think about the fact that we are so opposite, so opposite in our worldview, so I wonder if we did come together, if this dream were a premonition, foreknowledge, how would we reconcile that, and if we could.  Then there is also a sense of sweetness that the bond is so strong, even years later I have such a dream.  I also have to acknowledge that there is a pain associated with this relationship pain caused and received.  I can’t ignore that, and if I were to honor a pledge I made to this person, I would have to truly reconcile that pain, along with any loving feelings, couldn’t just ignore it, neither could they ignore any residual hurt they felt in my regards.  All that would have to be addressed.  Any fears, insecurities about ourselves and each other would have to be courageously spoken and addressed.  We weren’t ready to love each other, even if we did back then, now, perhaps we could, perhaps we could love, accept unconditionally, not try to fix the other, address what needs addressing and simply work on being the best me each of us can be, grow together.  Perhaps, or perhaps I continue to work on myself and continue t move on.  We shall see if the dream I had is a foreshadowing, a foreknowledge, and how I navigate it, we shall see.

Shalom and Amen

What Makes Friendship Unbreakable

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Friendship, a beautiful thing.  There are friendships that last a lifetime.  What makes that possible.  I have been thinking about that, about what would make a friendship that is really deep and would last a life time. 

First thing I think is a similar worldview, shared values, some synchronicity and synergy.  What else, is that all?  No. Those things may change over time to some degree, so there also has to be the ability to accept change, and sometimes if one has very deeply held views on issues, that is not easily done.  There also has to be the ability to discuss a range of issues without getting into an all out war, which again, if either or both of you are very passionate about the issue may be tricky.  You also have to able to tell it to each other as you see it and accept it.  That is not always easy.  If one of you has very strong intuitive spiritual tendencies and stuff strongly comes up, you and you are a very strong personality by nature, you find you can’t not just say what you sense. That can create friction, so navigating that added element can be like sitting on a bomb and not having it go off, not moving so it doesn’t go off so to speak.  There are many nuances to friendship, for it to last a life time, so many levels of dance and sometimes one of you will trip durning this beautiful dance and there is no recovery. 

I have also realized that I really never had the friendships, not more than one or two that were really of great depth, and those of these that were couldn’t withstand my personality, as I can be rather passionate in my opinions, viewpoints, and also expressing what I intuitively pick up, strongly pick up.  When anyone picks up stuff intuitively or gets info in a dream, it is not that absolutely it will happen, but when you keep sensing that strongly or have a recurring dream of it in regards to yourself or your life, it’s telling you, take a look at what is going on so you don’t end up there or take care of something because this is a looming possibility.  In friendship, any relationship people find it hard to deal with this, especially since I am not one to back down just for the sake of keeping the peace.  That I am realizing has impacted my relationships.  I realize I need find a way to change some dynamics, while still honoring my views and also the intuitive impressions I receive.  I do need to check into a regular group meditation practice and such because that I believe will be of help. The dance of relationship, of friendship is one that I realize requires balance and I need to find that balance within so I can have it externally in my relationship with others.  I don’t want superficial relationships, I don’t need many either.  I do want a few that are truly deep connections and are lifetime ones, so I need to be myself the type of person that embodies someone that others would want to have such a friendship with. As I make my way through this course of being my own coach, interesting insights emerge. 

Amen

Why Hasn’t My Meditation, Prayer Worked?

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I have been creating meditations for myself for the longest time, affirmations etc.., but so far, not really yielded the results I would have hoped, so what gives? 

I am studying Coaching and the first course is How to Coach Yourself, so one of the assignments is a meditation and as I looked at it and recorded it, it dawned on me.  I was setting an agenda, but not really asking questions to determine what the agenda should be, what my life’s purpose truly was as per the Lord’s anointing and what parallel to that was in my heart, spirit and soul, for long term fulfillment and joy.  The meditation given to us asks questions, asks us to reflect on these questions, find the answers deep within, the authentic and true answers, ask divine guidance as per our faith.  The other thing is that I always do the meditation in first person, so I am going to record it in second person and listen to it, see how that works out. The journey to authentic self for me has to tie into my core anchor, Christ, not religion per se, but Christ.  That’s important, but the life I live, where I live, so many aspects of getting a destination of the painting has been painted, fully painted, that is where this meditation comes in.  

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It is in the silence that I must go, in that silence I will find the answers.  Silence, total silence is not always a comfort for us, it scares us, to be totally alone with ourselves because what will we find in our hearts, spirits and souls, in that depth will the heavens speak to us. 

Shalom and Amen

Ask and Ye Shall Receive, OK

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Many of the things that have occurred with friend, family I have foreseen in my dreams, even stuff with my own life.  I have asked always the Creator of our amazing universe etc.. to lead me home spiritually, to show me where I am to be, and I admit I have a strong rebellious streak, so I am not always the most cooperative daughter when the Lord communicates.  I have been resistant to the Roman Catholic Church, think mainly as I said as a rejection of my childhood roots in a way, I have had this love-hate relationship not with the Holy Trinity etc.., but the Church, the bureaucracy, and because it is the faith of my family, and that relationship has always been rocky on all sides.  What do do?

I could Just go the Protestant route right or spiritual, not religious, right. I have tried that, done that. Here’s the thing, when I meditate and ask for the truth, truth of scripture, of where God’s true home is, I keep having dreams of being in a Roman Catholic Cathedral being blessed and cleansed with incense.  I have been fighting even in these dreams that no, I don’t do religion, bureaucracy all that jazz, that I have areal issues with this liberal progressive nutty Pope, so thanks but no thanks. The dreams keep on coming, so I have to decide with my receiving songs, poetry as I have through spur of the moment intuitive almost trance like moments, in the moment instincts that have been spot on, dreams foreseeing stuff in regards to my family, friends, myself, do I ignore these dreams, continue to stay away from the faith, the Roman Catholic Church, or do I stop rebelling, listen to message I keep getting? I believe in the bio ethics, pro life etc.. teachings not because I have to, because it’s my family’s faith, since a number of them are liberal, don’t honor the doctrines and true teachings, but because they are a beautiful truth of faith and reason that resonate.  I love Gregorian Chant Music, and when they have the Latin Mass, I find it absolutely beautiful.  I have a choice to make, keep rebelling, or surrender to the Holy Spirit, what I am being guided to, hmmm what will I do?  I will continue meditating, contemplating and perhaps say a rosary or two, attend Mass this week, or a Legion of Mary meeting with Rosary said during, see how that feels, that goes.  We shall see how I navigate this, we shall see.

Shalom and Amen