Angels, May You Feel Them Near


I came across this and wanted to share it with you.  Angels are here to help us, to offer assistance, to be messengers, battle for God on our behalf, sometimes they are of the angelic nature, but sometimes angels are right here on earth in the flesh and I hope when God puts one before us we can recognize him or her and be grateful.  I hope we can discern true light angels from those that pretend to be of the light, but are actually deceiving, leading us down a path of perdition.

Initiative Seen As Rivalry?


The Journey That is Life.

Can a person’s initiative be seen as rivalry? It might be, depends.  It depends on a few things.

From the standpoint of the person with the initiative, what’s the motive?  Is the motive really caring about the organization, the people within the organization, the community etc..?  Is the initiative coming from a true calling of the Holy Spirit, not from ego, but from a true calling to go along this path.  If you see something crumbling, and you feel a true stirring of the soul to help rebuild it etc.., and your motives for the initiative, even small step initiatives within the organization, your participation then no problem.  If when you are taking initiative you are doing so in a way that is truly constructive, making it understood why you are taking the initiative you are, then should be fine, even if you have a bit of rough start. If the motive is however, ego centered, proving you are better than anyone else, getting only your own agenda in, out of context of what the organization represents, trying to fulfill some dream of your own, you might then encounter problems.    Motives for taking initiative within an organization is crucial, matters a great deal, for your own heart, spirit and soul if for nothing else.  What about from the other person’s standpoint?  Let’s say you are very decisive, boom boom boom, decide, do, now, pronto, clear as the morning sun what needs to be done, now and why, and what shouldn’t be done and why.  You are willing to take the bark and bite from the top, bit back if you need to because you did what had to be done for the good of the organization making decisions as they needed making in that moment. Well, Okay great  What if the other person is not like that, what if those around you working with you are not like that?  Let’s keep it simple and say a key colleague.  What if they are not like that?  They may not know how to respond to you, to your boom boom boom approach, very clear cut Holy Spirit know what to do when and how here and now, ready to do it and if I have to have go up against the big guy okay approach.  They may feel threatened by it, unsure what to do with you, with your approach. They may feel overwhelmed a bit, particularly in the beginning.  What do you do?

As always I am a big fan of meditating, praying.  In the end you have to decide if the initiative is important enough to the progress of the project, organization etc.. that you need to keep taking initiatives.  If you do, keep praying, doing what needs doing and if there is any fear etc… on the part of the other person, pray it subsides and they realize you are doing what you truly are being led to do for the organization, for the greater good and will be with you, on the same page, at the same pace.


Faith, Belief, Holy Spirit, Powerful Team

Holy Ghost

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As I look back on my life I always had the Holy Spirit trying to guide me, Christ trying to work with me, so why so long to get to such a great place?

I had a certain level of faith and at times,  without true contemplation and understanding, moved forward with things when my spirit was stirred to something.  When I felt a call to ministry and the artistic, I really didn’t take the time to pray about how to prepare and so I went around in circles.  I also had a hard time believing God could really love me and want to bless me, since as I saw it my earthly father didn’t fight to have me with him, didn’t think I was worth having around, and my mom, she loved me, but she just couldn’t understand the artistic and intuitive empath gifts, so there was a lot of tension there growing up, lots of discouragement etc.., so I had a faith in a creator that I think i was born with since at not even the age of four my parents one night found me kneeling at the edge of my bed hands folded prayer style and me looking up at the sky smiling eyes closed whispering to someone.  When they asked I said I was saying goodnight to our big daddy in the sky.  They were speechless.  When they divorced, that whole nasty thing take away my ability to believe, not my faith, but my ability to believe that I could ever have security, happiness etc…  It has taken a very long time to shed all the negative baggage from that part of my life, from my childhood and one or two not so wise decisions in my adult life. God is very wise, so is Christ and of course the Holy Spirit.

Now that I have shed most of that baggage, they have been able to bring me to a place where I can put forth my gifts, talents, my skills etc…not only for my own personal development etc.., but also for the good of community, fellowship, faith, so much more.  Now I can hear the Holy Spirit stirrings and step back to process, seek to discern the whole picture of what God wants done, not for my own desires, but for a broader good, one that will also of course be a benefit for me in the long run, teach me, help me grow.  The combination of faith, belief that I am worthy, and the stirrings of the Holy Spirit are a very powerful team to work with, when done rightly.  I am glad that I have a great faith structure, Roman Catholicism and a great church Shrine of the Most Precious Blood in lower Manhattan to work with, to grow and develop in my faith life and my life in general.


Dark Room, Headphone, Numb, Yikes!

a dark room

I had a dream this morning about someone I know and it truly pained me because I care about them as a person and what both of us hope to save in therms of our faith and an institution.

When a dream shows me someone carrying a bunch of stuff, equipment, papers etc… and they are about to fall to the ground, smash to a million pieces, them saying oh oh as they try to keep that from happening, and they then refuse all offer of assistance offered, all wisdom, insight advice offered in that same dream, any attempt from anyone in that regard, rather going into a dark room, headphones on, fidgeting with equipment that is not in line with what is needed, just being in the dark, working alone in a dark room, a dark place.  That kind of dream is heartbreaking because it tells me that a person is not only living in the dark about what is going on around them, refusing to heed any advice, any input etc.., but that they have tuned out to true intimacy, true close relationships of any kind.  They are carrying all this load on their own, refusing to accept help, real help, real close deep profound connection help, collaboration etc…  They won’t share anything of depth with you, or rally anyone in any intimate connection way, though they may have lots of people they know.  It was heartbreaking to watch this person in my dream go into that dark room, cover his ears, refuse to hear, refuse to acknowledge, perhaps even his own heart, spirit and soul truths.  One can choose to stay in that dark room forever, alone, shut everyone out, heed no one be a team of one, but that is a dark place to be, letting past hurt baggage accumulated stay there.  One can do the opposite and be liberated from all that junk, baggage, not be in a dark room, not have headsets on and ignore truths about what should be done, reach out and ask for help directly, collaborate, coordinate etc.. directly on a day to day basis.  That takes a lot of courage to do so and awareness of the fact one is in the dark all alone, in that dark room with those headsets.  

What do you do if you have, as an empath etc.., these insights?  When you receive these insights it is usually for a reason, and the first thing to do is pray and meditate as to why you did.  If it’s a dear friend you are an integral part of their life, hang out a lot, really close, you can directly approach them about it.  However, if that is not the case, as much as it pains you to receive this insight, you can also be grateful that you did receive and pray, meditate for their healing of heart, spirit and soul, for release of all their baggage, breaking down of all their walls, all that is toxic etc…for the light to shine bright in their lives.  Don’t give up, meditate, pray and as best you can, offer help periodically, maybe just in the form of thoughtful questions to ponder.  


Whole Body Healing, Regeneration


Each Day we encounter energies, tensions etc.. on different levels, some are thrown at us externally and not so easy to deflect.  Others, we create by being fragmented, by not being wise stewards in our lives, by not having cohesion in how we manage things in our life, work, relationships, thus creating negative flow.  We create tensions etc.. by refusing to realize when we are on a wrong path and refusing to make changes for our greater good, happiness etc…, and even that of others in doing so.  I hope this helps to bring healing to you and also awareness of these things so you can and will make any necessary changes to your life etc…, very constructive ones.