There is the divide, one not easily reconciled, if at all. Culturally, being Italian the Roman Catholic faith is a central part of the identity, but I have never, even as a kid been comfortable with it.
I remember even as a kid being resistant to confession, the whole notion of Papal authority and all that. As I got older, the whole annulment thing, different things, no matter how it was explained, how logical it was presented, didn’t jive, even veneration of saints and icons. It didn’t jive. I find myself now with a disconnect between my cultural heritage and my theological, heartfelt belief. The cultural heritage is Italian and Roman Catholic with distinctly southern traditions of the faith and theological heartfelt beliefs along the lines of two things 1. The 39 Articles of Faith of the Anglican Creed and Christ Consciousness, that means something very particular to me, which I will explain. Christ Consciousness to me means understanding the various layers of meaning to the teachings of Christ, heart, spirit and soul. One thing that strikes me is that he dished out both Agape and tough love, didn’t shy away from calling out the missing of the target, he did it. As I seek that home that aligns with me spiritually, theologically, creatively and can also help me to still honor my heritage, my Christ Conscious is invaluable as are my Italian-American identity, as well as my love of God and Country.