” I can’t change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust the sails to always reach my destination” Jimmy Dean
As I see my fibromyalgia worsen and the fatigue etc.. become a daily occurrence, and having to adjust my life to that reality, but wishing to do much in the way of the arts, and other things, this quote seems quite appropriate to reflect on. I may not be able to change the fact that I have fibromyalgia, and I may not be able at any point to do any traveling to perform in any whirlwind manner and stuff like that, so does that mean I can’t pursue my vocation, or arrive at my destination? No, it doesn’t. What does it mean? It means that I may have to do a lot of my performing, most of it locally, online, do my PR and Promotion online and all that. Is it the same as doing live tours and all that jazz? Probably not and yes it frustrates me, but I am still the pilot of the ship that God put me on, though he is the lighthouse providing that guiding light. He gives me the tools, opportunities etc…, but I have to be free of any anger, bitterness, any notion that life, people etc.. “owe” me anything. If I have an attitude that life owes me, people owe me anything, if I am angry and bitter then I will not be able to navigate the ship that is my life out of any choppy waters. As for where I am with my life or am not, I can play the blame game, and if truly wanted to find someone to, could blame society, my parents, childhood etc…, not to say that external stuff doesn’t have influence, sure, but ultimately it is down to my choices in terms of where I am with my life or am not. I have to accept that, as unpleasant as it may be and take full constructive responsibility. I can’t put in anyone else but my own decision where I am at with my life, in the end it really does come down to me and what I decide, my actions or inactions. My ship has goals, goals that will have to be worked out in the context of my Fibromyalgia and though that is not ideal, being angry would serve no purpose, nor be productive. How will I be productive, well I am already doing it how?
- Creating and producing content for the blog and my youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/kappelloarts
- Promoting the blog and youtube channel
- Attending Music Appreciation Class here in my coop and other activities to broaden my horizon
- Working with my church to launch a successful concert and arts series, sustainable one
- Working on collaboration with artists to do concerts and other projects
- I have joined the Constitution Party of NY to restore our Federalist Republic
- Looking into different senior communities with lots of artistic and faith based activities for my future security
I am being proactive and adjusting the sails to reach my destination of being a working artist and life coach/minister. Will much of it be online and locally due to the fibromyalgia? Yes, is that ideal, no, but it is okay, it is what it is, it’s an adjustment of the sails, to adjust to the direction of the winds, and that’s fine, perfectly fine, constructive, and good, healthy.