Storms Keep Coming, Shelter Is Strong


These past months have been stormy and it seems I am not coming out of the rain yet.  My allergies put me through weeks of hell, then hit with the flu, now am on antibiotics for a bladder infection, am having one or two other issues as well.  The remaining time before Christmas will be spent going for tests and specialist consultations, OY!  I could be all pissed off at God, give up on anything changing, but how would that help me or anyone?  There is also the theology and understanding I have that this is not God doing this to me, but a result of being a physical being in a physical world, where there is decay. To blame God, be pissed at Him, to me makes no sense at all.  Be pissed at the entity, entities, energies of decay that have created this situation for humanity, all of us and other situations of pain etc.., that makes sense.  Yet, the anger is an important point because if the anger is bitterness long-lasting anger, not helpful.  If it’s righteous anger, Satan, I have held fast to the Covenant etc., you have no claim, I am going to overcome the storm, you do take steps to do so, that’s great.  I get thrown into these storms, true, but what’s important is what do I do?  What am I doing? 

Medically, I am going to be going for those tests etc.., logical and practical to do so. I also presented a wellness plan to my doctor which she approves of, and have already started substituting natural products for my meds. In January with my insurance Silver Sneakers benefit, I will have access to YMCA, Community Centers to participate in wellness and light exercise programs, which I will avail myself of.    Starting this month I will be going to a monthly Healing Circle at the nearby Buddhist Center, focusing on Christ as my anchor.   In addition, I have put together a proposal for an offer I received to potentially host my own online radio show, will send it on Monday.  For the blog, I’ll be posting mini-meditations, and intro seminar blog posts and then I will also in the store have full-length medications, seminars you can purchase in the store.   I keep thinking what scripture says that I can do all things through Christ, and I take that to heart.  What I have done in my meditation is to Consecrate the things that matter to me, my hopes and dreams to the Sacred Heart of Christ and Mary, that act of consecrating to the sacred, the holy, the divine is a strong anchor of positive flow and energy for my life, for navigating the storms, moving forward so I can be inspired, but also so I can inspire others, which is what brings me joy. 

Namaste, Shalom, and Amen                        

Feast of Seeing, of Opening Your Eyes

Feast of St. Lucy

On December 13, the Feast of Saint Lucy is celebrated in some countries. This is a special Christmas holiday that is very important mainly in Scandinavia and Italy. It’s called St. Lucy day (also known as St. Lucia Day). The celebration is held in honor of Saint Lucy, a martyr who became a patron of the blind and those with eye disorders who died during the Diocletianic Persecution.  The reason I love this is the light. 

Light, candlelight and St. Lucy being the patron of those who doesn’t see, not with the eyes, but perhaps with a different sight is beautiful.  The physical sight sees only what is in front of us, but the discerning sight of the spirit sees so much more.  It sees, senses emotions not being expressed, catches subtle cues and signals, facial expressions etc.., it connects to the spirit, soul of another in dreams, in music, paintings and so much more.  This feast of St. Lucy can be a beautiful reminder of all this and that although the spiritual realm, God, Christ, Holy Spirit, angels, love are not things you can physically hold in your hand, they are real, they do exist, and we can discern their being present and around us.  

Namaste, Shalom, and Amen

Advent Prayers

advent wreath prayers


I wanted to share these Advent prayers.  I love celebrating the Judeo-Christian aspects of the faith, as a matter of fact we had a Hanukkah party at my coop and we were given a box with a small Menorah, and candles, booklet on how to light them the prayers, and so I am celebrating both aspect of my biblical faith the Judeo and Christian by having my Anglican Rosary I say every night before midnight, and will help mum set up for Christmas, the decorations at home.  Enjoy these beautiful prayers and a Blessed Advent.


Was It Beneficial To Ignore?

Ancient Bethlehem

As I think of the child in swaddling clothes, and as I think of the kids in my family at Christmas, their whole childhood and teen, just beginning teen, journey and my own, I think of the books that didn’t make it into the bible.  I think of the books that speak of the childhood of Jesus, of his relationship, in childhood, with Judas, of how he had to grow in stature, knowledge, favor with God, what that means.  These books would give us a glimpse of that. 

Did we and Jesus lose in those books not being shared with us?  I think, yes we did and so did Jesus.  Knowing that Jesus had a typical, kind of typical childhood, where he rebelled, had to reconcile His God side with the Human side, that inner journey and battle to balance, become the fullness of Messiah is something that could bring great comfort to parents and to all of us.  It gives me comfort knowing He in his humanity was less than perfect and had to learn to harness his gifts, divine powers, as we all have to learn to harness the gifts we have, though in our case it’s to not use them for bad.  In His case it was just keeping them under wraps until the right time, and as a kid in human form, sure that was not easy, especially when He saw kids being unjust etc… or adults.   It gives me comfort to know that I am not the only kid and teen who gave her mom acid reflux at times.  It also gives me comfort because it means that Jesus can understand all of me, not just the adult rebel me, but all of me, and so can the Father and Holy Spirit, the angels, all of the heavens.  To me the writings of the childhood of Jesus that the Church rejected I don’t reject, I look at them as a source of comfort, pity the Church doesn’t and has erased an entire chapter of the life of Jesus.  I don’t think any less of His deity knowing He had a rebellious childhood and teen streak, not in the least, it makes me love Him more, knowing he conquered it, was able to, with the help of the heavens, overcome that and become the Christos, Christ, Messiah, Savior of us all. 

Namaste, Shalom and Amen

Life Lessons 44 and 45

45 life Lessons

Yielding is not easy since we have this thing called EGO and we want to be right, don’t want to look stupid or silly etc…Yet, what if not yielding, we end up actually looking that way, whereas if we had yielded, even just a bit, we would have been wise and looked wise before others, been an example of wise?  Bible says we perish for lack of knowledge, well part of that I am realizing is lacking knowledge, discernment and understanding when it comes to our own self-discipline, and how to navigate situations, relationships to know when to stand firm, not move, not budge, and when to say “is this such a priority that I am willing to have a war, that I have to be right?”  Meditating and studying sacred text is a way of reaching discernment, but so is the observation of life and people.  Seriously, if I had really paid attention to the world around me, looked at who has constructive patterns vs who had destructive ones and what are they, I would have looked at what successful, healthy relationships looked like in different aspect of life and what the pattern was when each yielded. Not saying I would do things exactly as others do since I am me, but I would have gained wisdom, maybe my life would look a bit different now.   Yielding at the right time, for the right reasons, once discerned is not a bad thing. 

When I was a kid one song that I used to listen to over and over was “I Never Promised You a Rose Garden” and the other was a song about love and it said that you didn’t know love until it chilled you to the bone, turned you inside out.  Life is like that, love can be like that, turn you inside out and upside down.  It may be for you or me more so than for others, to a different extent.  No one is immune from pain, though they may mask it, hide it, every one of us has had daggers thrown at us, some missed some hit.  Satan throws and if we have a strong constitution, strong faith etc.. we stand strong, stand tall, we may end up on our knees, we may bend, but we don’t break to the point of losing faith or knowing who we are.  Life is the ability to create, to do, impact and so much more, even with just a smile, the bounce in our voice, so no life doesn’t come all wrapped up in Christmas or other really pretty paper, but it is still a precious gift.  Even I have to remind myself of that each day in prayer, meditation, going out and seeing God’s creation, appreciating the seasons, the fact that I am alive and here, just here.  I hope you can appreciate that to. 

Namaste, Shalom and Amen

Gratitude Prompts, Living in the Light

25 Graditude Prompts

As we go through the holidays, it can be so easy to see what we lack, what is missing etc.., but Jesus said to be of good cheer, even in the midst of pain, be of good cheer for he overcame this world, he did so via gratitude, via prayer, connection to the Father, his Creator.  I can be all sad, stay sad about what I lack, any financial shortfalls, and believe me depending on government programs for your day to day sustenance can make anyone depressed.   I can be sad about nor having a life partner, a good man to share my life with, but then again, best to focus for a time now on getting healthy.  I have time for God to bring me into union with that person.  I can find stuff to frown about every day just by way of how messed up we humans are and the world is.  However, I can also do the opposite and go through the prompts each day, take two prompts. 

What makes me smile?  Children playing, smiling, being children is always a joy. Music, song, poetry makes me smile, as certain ones can bring back such great memories.  Writing, singing, teaching, they make me smile because I am touching spirits and hearts.  The beauty of nature, the complexities of nature showing the amazement that is God, our Creator, makes me smile.  These things all make me smile, so if I can think of these things then any darkness is pushed out, doesn’t mean I don’t resolve issues, but I choose to live my days grateful for the things that make me smile.  What makes you smile?  What do I love about myself? This question is not meant to be narcissistic, but rather be grateful for any gift, talent the Lord gave us.   What about myself am I grateful for?  My ability to be firm and fierce in my faith, general faith principles, have one hell of a debate, raunchy one even and then still be best friends.   Rather than beat myself up about immaturity in the past, I can instead focus on positive traits in the present.   I am determined to make a conscious effort to live in gratitude each day, each and every day. Will you join me?  I hope so. 

Namaste, Shalom and Amen

Life Lessons 42 and 43

45 life Lessons

Thanksgiving, mom wasn’t well, and I wasn’t feeling all that great, but that evening I get a call, come by for coffee at least, the kids are asking about you, so okay off I go, it was in the same building complex, so no biggie.  I am the only Conservative, firm in Christ as my anchor, the Bible as my anchor of truth, in this group of supposed devout Christians, who are progressives who believe the Bible and all such text to be a myth.  As dessert was being enjoyed, they started bashing our POTUS, MAGA, Conservatives, basically, me, as I am MAGA and Conservative.  I wanted to wage war in defense, but there were kids present and instead, I took a deep breath, went to the bathroom, took a few more deep breaths, composed myself and went back and enjoyed the sweets, and the coffee.  There are times when as much as you want to stand in staunch defense etc… it is wiser to take a few breaths, walk away and come back.  One of the aspects of maturity is knowing when to do so, where and when, how to fight which battles.  If you don’t calm the mind first, you won’t be able to really discern that.  Breathe is an important aspect of discipline I am learning.  The other aspect is that in addition to being grateful, as long as it is in line with biblical truth, concepts, and precepts of ethics, integrity etc.., it’s okay to ask even God for that blessing.  It’s okay to ask to succeed, thrive and even prosper with your talents, gifts, knowledge, understanding.  Asking with humility, also confidence and faith is the key, with belief, and the understanding that your timing of now please, right now, like yesterday please, may not be God’s timing. His may be tomorrow, next year, in three years, and it’s okay.  Ask for guidance on what to do from starting of the journey to reaching of destination.  If you don’t ask, even with God, with gratitude for blessing you have already, how will you have that relationship and how will anything happen? Something to think about. 

Namaste, Shalom and Amen

Left Me Scratching My Head



You go to church, give a nice donation every week, won’t dare miss Mass, ever, you made sure your kids never missed Mass, and even made sure to go to the Vatican.   Awesome, right.  That’s my relatives for ya, my cousins, those I grew up with.   Devout,  religious, so why my apparent confusion and my “Huh?”.  Well, today in conversation the Pope came up and a nutty liberal theory was presented about why this Pope doesn’t live in the Vatican.  See, it’s because us Conservatives are out to whack him, have him sleep with the fishes and all that jazz, yeah, okay. Oy! Then I was told that It’s all myth, all sacred text is pure myth, yet in the breath was told Jesus should be followed.  It made me think of when Jesus says about on the day of judgement how many will say they did this and that in his name, and he will reject them because of their hypocrisy.  My other cousins that I didn’t grow u with, but recently connected with have a different take.  They are church goers, but they don’t see the bible and bible teachings as myth.  They see it as God’s truth, even if they and I also know we don’t always manage to perfectly live up to it.  It just really struck me the hypocrisy of the  devout outer layer, but inward the total lack of belief, but then I realized a lot of people are like this and in part because it’s only way we can justify sin that may have gone on or is going on within our own circle.  I briefly went there myself, but only briefly. 

What about me?  I have for the longest time felt and understood that God and Yeshua never intended for a new religion to form, but rather to have Judaism clarify its’ moral and ethical code, but at the same time operate with empathy towards all and the community.  That empathy did not mean negating the truth of God, His nature and his laws.  One reason I resisted Church was that I never really felt that was what was God’s intent, or Yeshua’s, so in a sense I felt it was hypocritical to go to church.  I am still feeling that way to an extent, but that may change at some point.  Now, my path of wellness is taking me to the East to acupuncture, massage therapy, Buddhist meditation and then yoga.  However, in my meditation, Christ is always the center, the core, always will be.  I hope I never become someone who is outwardly religious, but inwardly an atheist. That truly is a punch in the gut to the Holy Trinity, to all the heavens and to those who truly do believe, honor God’s Holy Truth, the Bible. 

Shalom and Amen

Inspiration or Dictation


If you see this picture, inspiring, I think so and that is what made me choose it, but someone else might choose something else as inspiriting.  When God decided to pen his Holy Scriptures, the Bible, he understood this and he understood a few other things.  He understood personality, style, perspective, cultural experience.  What does this have to do with the Bible, and who wrote what, and God being the same now and forever? A lot actually, a whole lot. 

Poetry, Fiction, Song, take any genre and you have numerous writers within that genre, but a publisher knows that each writer has their own style, personality etc.., so he can’t use a cookie cutter approach with all the writers, same goes with a good teacher and her students. When the Holy Spirit inspired Moses, and those of the New Testament to write, He had to keep in mind their personality, their life experience, a host of things because He had to honor their free will and their personality.  He will never honor our sins, but our personality, style of writing and all that, yeah. Luke was a physician, perhaps a pediatric doctor, worked a lot with children because he focuses on the childhood where others don’t, so God honored that background in him to tell of Jesus’s childhood.  What of the one who had been a tax collector, what are his accounts like, what do they tend to focus on? What of John? Why is John inspired to write in a mystical fashion?  Could it be that John by nature was a philosopher, esoteric? Paul, what of him, well he was passionate, so his writing letters in defense of Jesus’s truth is perfectly in line with his character.  See what I’m getting at? The Scriptures were not a dictation per se, but rather given in accordance with each person’s personality, background etc.. to relay God’s truth.  God is consistent in that, so if he is consistent in that regard, then his core precepts and moral boundaries are also consistent, which is why scripture tells us God is the same past, present, and future.   When God inspires a poem, a song in me, he knows my personality etc.. so giving me something in the Rock genre would not work, not at all, it’s not in line with my persona.  God is consistent and so are his concepts and precepts of ethics and morals, of rejecting sin though he loves us the sinners.   

Then we get into the question of what sin is and speak to 10 different faith leaders, likely to get 7 different answers.  I am going to take a crack at this based on scripture, metaphysical and other levels of understanding, common sense and observation.  As I have come to understand sin and missing the mark, sin is this.  It is actions that are destructive to yourself, to others, society, and with malicious intent.  It is actions that destroy the fabric of society in some way, and natural order as designated by God and nature which God created, but through arrogance and pride was corrupted.  Some would say, well does that mean I should stay in miserable family or relationship situations forever, even harmful ones? Are they miserable because you and the other person have not fully embraced Christ and Biblical wisdom? Are either of you refusing to acknowledge baggage and issues that need help resolving? Have you done all possible to salvage the situation and it just is as miserable as ever or more so?  If there is truly no fixing or saving the situation and there is a danger to the person, or persons in the household, well no God doesn’t expect you to stay.  He understands that this is a broken world and because it is, sometimes stuff can’t be fixed and we have to move on, even with parents and their kids.  Is sharing the wealth sinful or not sinful? Depends.  Are you forcing people to live in almost dictatorial conditions or less than optimum quality conditions in a misguided notion of equality?  Sharing, tithing all of that has to be voluntary, not government mandated, so yes it is a sin to force distribution of wealth under government rule.  At the community level if the churches, synagogues etc.. create an email list and they let the needs of the community, people be known and people help voluntarily, fine, awesome.  Let people keep most of their money, of their earnings and let the local community be the one to distribute wealth.  No sin in that.  What of love, is all love okay? No, a parent that loves to the exclusion of boundaries is missing the mark of good parenting, of Godly parenting.  Love that takes advantage of another’s goodness and good heart is not a Godly love, the opposite.  Sin is about what is in the heart, boundaries and such.  Sin is about being selfish and destructive to self, other and society with maliciousness, with spite, or taking action with not caring about the consequences, not even measuring them, figuring out how to minimize them, though it is broken beyond repair and you know you have to move on.  Even in the political arena, laws, borders, boundaries matter, they matter to God, so they need to matter to us.  If you read scripture, that mattered to God, natural order, boundaries, even sexual natural order, hence the end of Soddom and Ghammorah.  Not as complex as sometimes church leaders would have us think. Hope this helps bring some clarity.

Shalom and Amen 

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