Knowing Your Strengths, Getting Focused

I love to sing and that’s great, I love to write, also great, love to perform artistically when it comes to poetry, also great, love to teach, coach, minister also great, but what is the core of my strength?  Where should I put the focus?  This is important.  I had one of my songs professionally produced, “I Won’t Apologize for This” including the vocals, looked at which pieces got the most views etc… on youtube and asked for feedback, honest back from those who know me.   I realized that my strength is in speaking up, speaking out what the Spirit, Holy Spirit guides me to speak and write, so I can teach etc…, but the singing, music production, best leave that to someone else.  I best focus on the writing part, maybe even doing seminars.  I still sing when I send the samples to the producers and vocalist who produce the tracks for me, so they can hear the baseline melody I want to for the piece.  When I am at Mass, I sing my little heart out, in tune, out of tune who cares.  Objectively seeing one’s gifts and being able to let go of stuff, and saying “Ok Lord, leaving that so someone else and I will do this other thing, leave that to others to do”, not a bad thing.  Know your core strengths and work with that.

My New Habit Realization -Progress?



I have started the goal of being more informed about and aware of my faith.  How is that going?  I found a great study for me to study and grow in my Christian faith.  The commitment to study, listen to the lessons consistently has been a bit wobbly.  I decided to start with the study of the Creed because the Creed is the great summing up and condensing of our faith, especially the Apostles Creed.  I am aiming to get better at it, to be more consistent with the studies, daily basis, and also to consistently attend prayer sets at Life Center Church.   The fibromyalgia and not so great health stuff the past few weeks have not helped, but on the days I have felt well, I have made it a point to study, to learn, to pray.   I realize that it is important to anchor it on an old habit and I have always loved listening to faith based music and such on youtube, so my love of understanding the faith, of seeking true understanding and theology of the faith is not new.   I am building on established habit, that included prayer, as I have recorded a meditation that is faith based, Christ based, which I listen to in bed several times a night and at least once when I wake up.  Building on a foundation of some kind, is important.  I will keep you posted.


Realizing My Potential etc.., Patience Required?

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Establishing myself to the global public as a writer creative and as an Inspirational/tough love coach takes time, work, patience different elements to come together.  What I do during the time of building success will mean a lot.  It will be a reflection on me, if I remain true to who I am, my “calling”, how I promote my work.  If I become impatient and want it all to happen right away, then I might not make the wisest decisions.  I am having someone create a solid marketing plan, am also seeing which videos have the most views and if the ones with the most views are the spoken word and spoken word with some singing sprinkled in, then in the new year I will re=record a number of pieces in that manner.  I have to be patient with myself, the process of building up, building up on solid foundation, and making sure I am always authentic in my material, even in my personal development.  What is going on with my artistic life etc.. bullet points?

  • Compiling poetry to record, modify to make my own and philosophical quotes to also turn to poetry, improvisation poetry
  • Hired a PR strategist via FIverr to create a strategic PR and Marketing plan for me to implement
  • Plan to review my youtube channel, videos to see if it is best to re-record all pieces to be spoken word only or spoken word with smattering of song, or combination of both of these

I’ll keep you posted!



How Goes My New Habit Adaptation?

Forming New Habits

I spoke about connecting heart, spirit and soul, and that means solid reason based faith, not just emotional based faith and living, a balance of both.  That means knowledge, as it points out here, there should be a 30 day commitment and it should be based on a habit or inclination already existing, a positive one please.  I have always loved to learn about the faith, including through music.  I researched and found a study site for bible study and theology that is solid with a basis of not only scripture, but also a historical and sociological basis.  I have started the online free study and plan to go through the entire program.  Balancing that with a belief in the spiritual gifts, gifts of the spirit, prayer, need for community I will be working to discipline myself to attend communal prayer weekly at a nearby evangelical church, starting this coming week.  I have started the study with Thirdmill, free studies online, a very solid program, and will let you know about my experience with this study program and also with Life Center Church here in my neighborhood, where I also hope to contribute my artistic talents. 


New Habit, Hmmm What Shall it Be?

Forming New Habits

I have been thinking about it and we work with three areas of being, heart, spirit and soul, for me the balance of those and of those with consistent right knowledge seems key to a great future and solid faith journey.  My new habit, to start with I would like to work with is balance of heart, spirit and soul as a Christian artist, with this seeking of this consistent right knowledge.  What do I have to for that to happen? As I see it a few things:

  1.  Meditate on the right things
  2. Choose the right place to seek knowledge
  3. Develop my craft as an artist and my faith building in a way that balances all three

The right things, right place, that is the next piece that has to fall into place, which I will be working on, and sharing with you.

Forming New Habits

Forming New Habits

I have prayed and meditated as far back in life as I can remember and when I have gotten a “word of knowledge” my approach has been “full steam ahead, broad stroke with big brush”.  We know the question that gets asked “So, how’s that working for ya?”  Well, truth be told, not as great as I would like it to, and that could be said pas and present.  When I found this pin, I realized that I have been changing my approach, adjusting my compass, how I respond to any turbulence etc..  What I would like to do is take one item listed at a time, share my view of why I think it makes a lot of sense, and apply it to my life and share with you how that is going. 

Let’s start with focus on one new habit.  Often we for example make a list of ten new year resolutions, well how realistic is that, or of ten goals to achieve in the next month.  Having goals is great, but how about one day at a time, one step at a time, one goal at a time, one habit at a time.  One new habit, I need to choose one new habit, something I want to initiate to improve my life, assist in my personal growth maybe as an artist, or in my faith. This is a start.  In the next few days I will think about this goal, and set that goal.  I will let you know what that goal is. Hopefully you will be inspired along my journey.

Shalom and Amen


God, Determination, Faith Bigger Than

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Life has a lot of stuff it throws at you.  Me, it threw messy divorce of my parents, not  a heck of a lot of support for my gifts, talents, no real mentoring to help me find my way with any of that, lots of pain etc.. from the divorce, being caught in the middle of a lot of anger etc.. between dad’s family and mom, fibrmyalgia, debt, lack of life direction, lots of pain, lack of direction, of support, of any mentorship, all the pain that goes with all of this, and a not so healthy relationship with my mom who without realizing it, due to the language barrier she had and never remedied, failure to create a life outside of being my mom, created an unhealthy co-dependent relationship for her and me.

All of this could have totally chewed me up, spit me out, crushed me, but my faith, however imperfect, however choppy at times, my determination to find my way home to my purpose in life, to realize what my core gifts, talents were and put them to constructive use were stronger than any of this stuff.  Do I have great finances at 52, and a life as I wish it?  No? Am I with the love of my life? No, not yet.  However, that does not mean it not within my reach, it just means I have to stay the course, stay the path to get them and keep the faith, keep the determination and any negative destructive, self destructive crap voices that crop up, don’t listen tell them to take a hike go screw themselves, they are not taking me down. End of debate!!!

Life and Trees, Huh?

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Trees are pretty darn amazing if you think about it. The roots, the trunk, the rings, the branches, leaves, and even fruit that grows on it, flowers, pretty amazing.  Trees are also a great metaphor for life and faith life if you think about it, and apply it to living.  How, well let’s explore that.

The trunk, the trunk is strong, rooted deep in the ground firm, and goes deep, quite deep and could be seen as the unconscious self, the part that hold much of our hidden memories, even suppressed anxieties etc…, also that innate search for something, that intangible something we can’t quite discern what it is we are looking for, that all encompassing love that we can’t quite define, that tugging at the conscience even when society says yeah do what you want, but deep down we know better.   It’s the storage area of all the memories and lessons hopefully wisely learned in our lives, the place where God was able to touch us, make an impact initially.  Then you have the branches and leaves that tell of all the external stories in our lives, all the fruits we have born, have created, the arms extended, what we have carried, the storms we have weathered, the rings tell of the years gone by.  Carvings can tell of who and what has visited us, left their mark on us literally.  

If I am going to be a tree, what kind of tree do I want to be?  What kind of roots do I want to plant what kind of fruit do I want to produce? These are all important questions as I journey through the second part of my life being at the slightly over 50 mark age wise.  I need to determine this and then make it happen with the Lord’s help, be a fruitful Tree of Jesse, one that produces good fruit, not only for myself, but also for others. 


Finances is one of the areas that causes a lot of stress for people, for couples, families, so when I came across this, I had to share.  Sound or unsound  life and financial decisions can stay with you long into the future.  I hope this will be of help and inspiration.  I hope that I have learned my life lessons and make wiser choices in different areas of my life than some I have made in the past.

Financial Wisdom


Not On Schedule, OY!

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I had it pretty much planned out.  I had the plan for what I was going to record and have posted for Thanksgiving and prior to Advent, had a plan, was going to work out great.  I should have remembered.  What should I have remembered? 

The best laid plans of mice and men of course, such plans can easily not be God’s plans or can be easily upset by Lucifer’s mischief.  With the flu, viral general infection, and bad sinus infection that is giving me constant nausea it’s making it hard to stick to my plan.  Do I chuck it, forget it, get really angry at God, the universe etc…? No, annoyed, sure and am in my perfect right to get as annoyed as I want.  It’s my plan gone amok and I’ll cry, for like ten seconds, if I want to.  Then, then I decide how can I kick Satan in the tushi for messing with me!  The original plan was one song per night three nights a week starting to record last week, well that plan went out the window.  Instead it will be writing and recording several songs a night every night potentially starting next week.  See how Lucifer and his army, his legions like that turning of lemons into lemonade! I am too bitchy to let him and his army win, so if I am supposed to spread holiday cheer and share the Good News, then I will find a way to do it, no breaking any laws ever, but where there is truly a will, there is a way.