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Yeshua Groups!

Yesterday I spoke to Izzy one of the founders and I am on track to lead a Yeshua Group, create a sense of community, which I love.  Church used to be that, community, discussion, reflection, community.  I want to gather in a semi public place, tell the stories of the bible, have everyone in the group contribute, research something about the background of the story, share, contribute, and then we can reflect, discuss. Community is what lifts us up, not to say we shouldn’t understand the moral lessons, the lessons of ethics and integrity, but open ended questions, discussion, connection, that matters.  I look forward to creating that.  Stay tuned for more!

This Caught My Eye

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Why did this catch my eye?  One of the themes that keeps coming up in my classes as I study to be a Coach and NLP Practitioner is strategy and the other focus.  Those two keep coming up. I thought about social media twitter, fb etc… Don’t get me wrong I believe they can be of great use, but as I keep finding out, they can also be a huge distraction, something I think is happening also to our POTUS.  I had set up for the third time a twitter account for the purpose of sharing my blog, the bandcamp site with my music and poetry, etc…,, which is also about sharing the Gospel tweet as part of my volunteering for the organization I am with that fights bullying and human trafficking.  I got sidetracked, how by engaging in discussion on twitter.  The problem with online discussion is it’s all bitesize, you can’t really convey the full meaning and context of your message unless you add a few attachments, memes and all that.  I deactivated my old account an once again am starting from scratch with a new account @KANYARTIST which I just set up today.  I will seek this time to stay focused and not get caught up in anything that steers away from what my purpose is for using social media.

Amen

Why Am I on Board with RNHA?

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Today I met up with some fellow MAGA patriots from the Republican National Hispanic Assembly, which welcomes Hispanics and Non Hispanics  Why is this fight so important to me? My faith of course which says i must steward this great gift given by the Lord which is America, all the ideals it encompasses, including law and order, without tyranny, still law and order.  There are other reasons as well. 

One is that poem about they came for so and so, I said nothing, then they came for me and there was no one left to speak, that poem.  My family has lived under fascism, dictatorship, socialism all that crap, so when the Democratic Party, any party starts to lean Socialist Marxist Communist, it scars the heck out me, and I know we are in a fight for the very soul of not only the survival of the Republic, One Nation Under One Flag, One Language, One Law and Order Constitution, Borders to be Respected, but also for the soul of current and future generations.  Why the soul of current and future generations?  Think of what is being taught by the Left? Normalizing Pedophelia by such groups affiliating themselves with Left leaning political groups, renaming it as adult child attraction some such nonsense.  The distrubing part is wanting to bring all these liberal “norms” into the classroom of even the youngest most impressionable minds, then we wonder why we have the I am Jazz’s of the world, all this gender dysphoria etc..all over the place it seems.  Can we let children just be children, not brand them with adult ideas, just teach them math, science, all the wonders of learning academics and general life skills of empathy, also clear decision making.  That is what school should be al about.  You see, everything the Left is doing is to dismantle the great Republic that people shed blood and tears to create, any and all social norms, national sovereignty, free flow of ideas, viewpoints, self reliance, individuality.  For me, with what my own family experienced with dictatorships etc.., there is not way any Patriot of true Red, White and Blue can let this nation fall prey to anything like Communism, Socialism.  Even those of faith who understand we are stewards of this planet of the nations we inhabit were born into can not let their nations fall prey to that because only true the true grit and spirit of Capitalism, Constitutional Republicanism is what lifts people up, rather than keep them down. 

It is for these reasons I fight for the soul of my country, of the people who are part of it because it’s really one and the same for many generations to come. If you are a MAGA Patriot, a NYC MAGA Patriot, connect to us, you are not along, on FB NYC Patriots and God Bless. 

I Got Lost Along The Way

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As I read this poem, it really caught my eye. I realized I got lost somewhere in my journey in life I got lost.  I got lost in regards to who I am, who I am meant to be, my calling, got lost.  I have kept seeing the thorns in my life, not the roses, the pain not the blessings, the hurt people caused, including my family, even those who never set out to hurt me.  I haven’t focused on the blessings, on the good times, which is what I should have focused on more so that any hurts.  Some hurts, some stuff people do is pretty bad, and I am not saying we excuse, we don’t, but if we mainly see that as the sum total of our lives it really does hold us back and it makes us indecisive because then we don’t trust ourselves, even when it comes to decision making and doing anything in life because we are convinced subconsciously we are going to get hurt, we are going to mess it up, fail etc..Even with our faith, we lose sight of our union with Father, Son, Holy Spirit, how to have that, that changes don’t come about from religion, but relationship.  A good and right bible teaching church community I am realizing matters and we should pray to find one, but it’s relationship that brings about the understand of how much we are loved that Christ gave his life, went through hell and overcame all he did so we could have life. I got lost in life, somewhere and forgot that that is the Kingdom of God in a nutshell and it is at hand, all I have to do is desire it and take hold of it, seek it each day morning, noon and night in my actions of how I am in the world, honoring my country, myself, in prayer, scripture truth, being in but not of the world.  I have to not focus on the thorns of the past, but the many roses of the present and future, the infinite possibilities.

Amen

Some “Just Friends” Category

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Whether it’s online or offline, you get a sense of things when it comes to people, and if you work to develop discernment or have people around you that have that gift, but mainly your own gut when it’s not fear driven, but really contemplative prayer and meditative in nature will guide.

Some people you have an instant connection, which is great and you find them easy to talk to right away, feel at ease, all of that stuff.  Great, as long as you are sure who you are talking to.  There are some connections that are immediate connection et… as well, but even though both or a few of these connections have that ease, there is still discernment required.  Sometimes after a few conversations with each or several of the parties, you just know.  You have a Holy Spirit sense which one really has the maturity, common goals etc.., potential to be more than just a friend and which one either because of a certain immaturity you sense, for whatever reasons, that Holy Spirit intuition which person is the just friends one.  You have to honor that, honor that sacred intuition.  You have above all honor your own soul, own spirit about who to have in your life and in what way they fit into your life. That’s not always easy to do, but with faith, discernment, meditation, prayer, maturity, common sense, it can be done.  That is where I am now along with planning clearly my journey in life 2018-2020, laying the foundations.  It’s a great thing, working towards achieving your dreams, and getting there when you do. I pray that the vocational goals, goal of creating ministry through coaching and the arts combined, as well finally joining my life to a true soulmate are achieved. All I can do is my best, give of my best, of my best self.  All any of us can do.

Shalom and Amen

Online Potentials and Perils

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Like many things in life the Internet has its’ yin and yang, potentials, and perils so to speak. Instagram is an example of that.  I have had several gentleman follow me after posting videos to promote my blog, my music. 

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind interacting with fans once in a while, but these guys don’t seem to come in with a lot of maturity.   You have those that are like a bull in a china shop as the saying goes and immediately bombard you with personal questions, or those who immediately start calling you sweetheart, honey, babe, all this stuff, which is not appropriate unless you two are officially a couple for some time or are engaged. Then you have those who start off seeming nice enough, great, then after a few chats declare their love, are ready to upheaval their life for you, move to the ends of the earth for you.  They don’t know your background, your history, anything about your life, family, and you have not verified anything about them, their background etc…, yet they are declaring forever their love and wanting a commitment.   That is not realistic, definitely not a sign of maturity.  You can look at a photo, see someone’s videos online, all that and love certain qualities that come across, their eyes, their smile, you can feel something sparked, not saying you can’t, and when you talk online, chat you might feel very much at ease with them and they with you.  That does not constitute being in love or that the relationship is solidified in any substantial way.  Relationships take some time to build, you have to seek common ground, really know you will be there for each other through thick and thin, and all of that takes time, takes spending actual face to face time with each other.  Knowing a person past and present is not done in a few chats, falling in love, real Agape, and beyond love is not done in just a few chats.  Also, if someone is going to make any choices in life about changing anything in their life, it has to be for them, not you as the reason to run from where they are at now.  When any relationship on line is attempted to move at the speed of lightening to “love you to the end of time” or anything like that and they want a firm commitment of partnership, commitment, red flag.  For me anyway, I promised myself and God that when and if I were to make that solemn commitment it would be made with maturity, deliberation, prayer etc.., and the person would be one of like mind, goals and also one of maturity.  One can be spontaneous and still have maturity, but there is a difference between mature spontaneity and immature impulsiveness.  It’s important to know the difference. 

I am  open to love and marriage all of that, even through Instagram, but it has to be with a person who has a certain level of maturity and of course a MAGA Patriot, one of like mind.  If I sense any red flags I need to pay attention.

Amen

Still With You

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As I watched the Capitol 4th Celebration on TV and they mentioned 9/11, I thought of the dreams I had had that week about people jumping out of buildings, buildings on fire, funerals, crazy dreams that made no sense at the time and that morning just before the alarm was set to ring, shortly before I had a dream with my Nanna, dad’s mom telling me, go back to sleep, stay in bed, it’s not your time to go.  I didn’t understand, but my gut said, listen to Nanna.  When the alarm rang and mom came to wake me up at 8:15 or so I said no, Nanna said to stay in bed, not time to go and I refused to go to the appointment. Well if II had I would have been in the Towers. 

Was it my Nanna? Was it God sending an angel in my dreams taking shape as Nanna so I would listen and not go that day? The theology really of it didn’t matter, still really doesn’t matter.  What did and does is that God was with me, felt I needed to be here, had something to do with my life, now granted fibromyalgia hit and hit hard, and I have had a winding journey to get to the understanding that I love inspiring and coaching whether directly or through the arts, but still.  It also as I remembered this and my dad, different people, realized they never leave us, their memory, even if there was family turmoil and they were not in our lives long, they never leave us.  I didn’t see Nanna after I was 10 years old, and my dad I was ten when I last saw him alive and then saw him again in a casket.  People may not be with us physically, but they don’t ever leave us, what they said, taught us, memories created, all of that crops up at times, depending. We are shaped by those in our lives, our interactions etc…I need to take a look at that for myself, my own life.

There is someone else who is always with us, the one who created us, He, the Word Made Flesh, and the Spirit of Counsel, and as I re-learn about our nation, it’s birth, different events that gave birth to us, to the USA, I know that to be true.  Never forget we are never alone, though people may forsake us, the Trinity and Heavenly hosts do not.  Amen

 

What Makes Friendship Unbreakable

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Friendship, a beautiful thing.  There are friendships that last a lifetime.  What makes that possible.  I have been thinking about that, about what would make a friendship that is really deep and would last a life time. 

First thing I think is a similar worldview, shared values, some synchronicity and synergy.  What else, is that all?  No. Those things may change over time to some degree, so there also has to be the ability to accept change, and sometimes if one has very deeply held views on issues, that is not easily done.  There also has to be the ability to discuss a range of issues without getting into an all out war, which again, if either or both of you are very passionate about the issue may be tricky.  You also have to able to tell it to each other as you see it and accept it.  That is not always easy.  If one of you has very strong intuitive spiritual tendencies and stuff strongly comes up, you and you are a very strong personality by nature, you find you can’t not just say what you sense. That can create friction, so navigating that added element can be like sitting on a bomb and not having it go off, not moving so it doesn’t go off so to speak.  There are many nuances to friendship, for it to last a life time, so many levels of dance and sometimes one of you will trip durning this beautiful dance and there is no recovery. 

I have also realized that I really never had the friendships, not more than one or two that were really of great depth, and those of these that were couldn’t withstand my personality, as I can be rather passionate in my opinions, viewpoints, and also expressing what I intuitively pick up, strongly pick up.  When anyone picks up stuff intuitively or gets info in a dream, it is not that absolutely it will happen, but when you keep sensing that strongly or have a recurring dream of it in regards to yourself or your life, it’s telling you, take a look at what is going on so you don’t end up there or take care of something because this is a looming possibility.  In friendship, any relationship people find it hard to deal with this, especially since I am not one to back down just for the sake of keeping the peace.  That I am realizing has impacted my relationships.  I realize I need find a way to change some dynamics, while still honoring my views and also the intuitive impressions I receive.  I do need to check into a regular group meditation practice and such because that I believe will be of help. The dance of relationship, of friendship is one that I realize requires balance and I need to find that balance within so I can have it externally in my relationship with others.  I don’t want superficial relationships, I don’t need many either.  I do want a few that are truly deep connections and are lifetime ones, so I need to be myself the type of person that embodies someone that others would want to have such a friendship with. As I make my way through this course of being my own coach, interesting insights emerge. 

Amen

An Exchange Reinforces The Vision

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Life will give you answers, the sun will show itself.  If you recall in past posts I have spoken about dreams with recurring themes and I also have had a sense of relationship, how I felt my companion and I would come together, how that would develop .  I wondered about that, what was coming up in the meditation. This past week, life has given me some indications 

To begin with someone started following me on instagram and we have started chatting, he even sent a photo of him and  his mom.  The way this is developing with each being a cheerleader for the other in their work, in general, building from a friendship perspective, sharing family photos, having open discussion, very organically, naturally about issues of the day.  I can feel an easy flow of energy back and forth, which is nice.  Should this continue to flow and move along as it is now, awesome.  Then there is the coaching thing, what will I specialize in? I went to see my gastro doc and as he was speaking about how he likes to listen to the patient, look at the whole picture, not just give a pill and send them on their way, when I told him I was studying coaching,  The conversation and my own interests made me really lean towards wellness coaching. Next thing, the dreams regarding my spiritual life.  As I am not thrilled with the hostility towards those of us who are Traditionalists, Conservatives Socially, Politically, who love the Latin Mass, things like that, the confusion this Pope has sown, and who perhaps for some some reason, and for reasons I have spoken of before possibly contributing, I have detached from the church.  This new connection I have made that flows so easily, is Roman Catholic, so seems I keep being brought home to my roots, God keep trying to bring me home to my roots.  I have a few things now to reflect on, to ponder and I am continuing to work on new material for the Jam on the 27th, so hope to see some of you there! 

Amen

The Life I Want

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As I look at this I see what I would like my life to look like, a snapshot of what I would like it to look like.  It is also my wish for others.  As I make this journey to create a new life, one that pushes past the fibromyalgia, there are days when the meds calm everything down the pain, all the stuff that comes with it, the lack of sleep etc.., and I can see this all happening very easily, and then there are days when it’s a lot harder.  Today I went to my neurologist for a follow up on my hand which was in pain a few weeks ago and she didn’t like the way I was moving my neck so she did a check and I ended up having to get my homeopathic with a touch of cortisone, again, though I had shots six weeks ago.  Does it make for a tired me at times and the ideal life seem a bit distant? Yes, but not impossible, not with grit, with faith, with determination.  That means I have to ask questions about whether the choices I am making are healthy in the long term, and I have to not be impulsive, spontaneous if stirred in the Spirit by the Spirit, yes, but that’s different than impulsive.  I hope to build this life, this snapshot for the long term using meditation that helps me ask and answer crucial questions, enhance my gifts.  Life can be an amazing journey, in spite of the bumps in the road. 

Amen