Actions Have Consequence

What’s the big deal, take a knee or take a bow, land of the free, home of the brave right? Not that simple.  Actions have consequence, especially actions that have lousy timing, that say to those who put their lives on the line each and every day in different ways, “screw you, because of a few bad apples, we are going to ruin the game for fans and publicly spit in your face”  Actions have consequence, and you can’t get all Antifa, BLM like on the field, We The Patriots and they the Fans, won’t tolerate it.  We will strike back, and do so where it hurts most, the pocketbook.  There are now signs in bars that used to show NFL games saying that due to the disrespect shows our country, our flag etc.. those locations will not longer be showing NFL games.  They know they will take a financial hit, but they are patriots above all and do not take kindly to this kind of crap. 

I have had winding journey in my spiritual life etc.., but even within that, I stood firm in Christ, in God and Country, you honor God, Flag, Anthem, Country, those who gave their life for it past and present.  If you don’t stand for at least some of these core things, you stand for nothing.  Why? enveloped in that are certain values, certain principles and an understanding that yes we should stand up to wrong, but there is a time, a place, a way.  For example marching wearing masks, hiding like cowards, carrying any kind of weapon, ready to destroy property, to attack law enforcement for doing their job and protecting everyone on the scene etc…, calling for the destruction of the nation you live in and benefit from, that says you have no character other than a rotten one, an immature one, nothing good can come out of you, or what you do.  Tearing a country apart as those on the Left are doing, rather than One Nation Under God Indivisible etc.. has consequences, and I hate to think if things keep going as they are what those consequences will end up being.

Yes, I Am Worthy

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As I read this I thought wow a lot fo it, that’s me, that’s where I am at, and what I have come to understand.  I tell myself daily to get over it, whatever it is, and get moving with life, with living, being a warrior for inspiration, all that.  I realize time is precious and it can’t wasted with people who are not 100% honest and sincere, who want to play games etc…. If people come with truth, honesty, sincerity, open heart, then I welcome them.  I realize I am very much loved, loved by my creator and no greater love can there be, if I truly am open I can feel Him and all of heaven with me.




Collapse and Rebirth?

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Today I had to go for a bone density test and MRI of both knees, and it took two yours total, and the MRI of my knees not comfy as I have lower back issues to having to be there on my back and not move for an hour was very uncomfy.   How was I not ready to jump out of my skin?  Well, I asked for music, classical light music, so I allowed my conscious mind to set itself aside and make way for my subconscious mind.  

Fibromyalgia, let’s face is is not a fun journey by any means, but I had two choices lay there and be miserable, or go into a meditative state and see if I gained any insight and once again that project for the wellness wheel came rushing through and last night I received a call from and old friend who is a very experienced hypnotherapist and wants to collaborate.  I have been praying, meditating for God to unite me with people of integrity and ethics to collaborate with.  Last night I get the call.  Today as I was getting the MRI, I decided, breathe, relax, meditate, release, let go, and drift into a place of discernment, connect with the Holy Spirit and that is what I did and the time flew by.  The other instinct I have is that any political activism or campaigning candidates and their surrogates do in the GOP must be tied to The Trump MAGA Platform of Conservatism.  This nation can not go the other way, the way of thinking free stuff because nothing is free, even Venezuela’s government has now admitted Socialism is a failure.  I can be scared for my country, and do nothing or be a voice that speaks up, even if it’s not popular, doesn’t matter.  I can seek a group that understands this as I do and that the National Platform of MAGA must be tied into any advocacy etc.. done locally for Conservatism, who understand that Republican is not good enough, to save America Freedom Caucus, MAGA Republican is what’s needed, looks for and backs those candidates, fights for those candidates.  I could let the fibromyalgia make me obsolete, a nebulous presence in the universe, or a start that rises out of the ashes to fight hard for God and Country, that is up to me, that choice is mine to make and I choose option number two.  All in all it was a productive morning, even if a bit uncomfortable. 


Latest on My Journey

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What’s the latest on this journey from lost to found?  I have a new song out and I am moving along very nicely with my Universal Class courses, have only two more classed to go in the Self Hypnotherapy class and four in the coaching yourself class  I should be done with that by the end of next month.  I will start my next class this week once I am done with the hypnotherapy class, which is Lifetime Wellness.    One of the things I am drawn to is how to use the Wellness Wheel and Biblical Teaching in my work as a Coach, something the Holy Spirit is calling me to do.  I think I will figure that out in my working with and train with the Holistic Learning Center staring in the Fall or early Winter.  I am also volunteering online for now, hopefully also offline starting in 2019 for LiveYour Dream Foundation  Life is moving along and God willing and my tenacity strong, by next year I will be a freelance, Holistic Lifestyle Coach and will have the funds coming in so I can do quality production of my spoken word pieces and really make a path for myself successfully also as a healing spoken word artist. I will also be checking out an evangelical church that I think could become home.

That is what the journey has brought so far.  I will keep you posted.

I Got Lost Along The Way

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As I read this poem, it really caught my eye. I realized I got lost somewhere in my journey in life I got lost.  I got lost in regards to who I am, who I am meant to be, my calling, got lost.  I have kept seeing the thorns in my life, not the roses, the pain not the blessings, the hurt people caused, including my family, even those who never set out to hurt me.  I haven’t focused on the blessings, on the good times, which is what I should have focused on more so that any hurts.  Some hurts, some stuff people do is pretty bad, and I am not saying we excuse, we don’t, but if we mainly see that as the sum total of our lives it really does hold us back and it makes us indecisive because then we don’t trust ourselves, even when it comes to decision making and doing anything in life because we are convinced subconsciously we are going to get hurt, we are going to mess it up, fail etc..Even with our faith, we lose sight of our union with Father, Son, Holy Spirit, how to have that, that changes don’t come about from religion, but relationship.  A good and right bible teaching church community I am realizing matters and we should pray to find one, but it’s relationship that brings about the understand of how much we are loved that Christ gave his life, went through hell and overcame all he did so we could have life. I got lost in life, somewhere and forgot that that is the Kingdom of God in a nutshell and it is at hand, all I have to do is desire it and take hold of it, seek it each day morning, noon and night in my actions of how I am in the world, honoring my country, myself, in prayer, scripture truth, being in but not of the world.  I have to not focus on the thorns of the past, but the many roses of the present and future, the infinite possibilities.


The Past Paid A Visit

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I had a dream and that dream was of one who was a major part of my past. I had not really thought of them for a while, but I guess there are those who touch our lives so deeply, have such an impact for good or not, or a mixed bag, but so deeply that they truly are a part of us forever. How do I feel about this? 

Mixed bag really.  In a way I feel sad because we got it wrong in how we dealt with “us” the situation, relationship etc.. and it had potential to be perhaps even a great friendship, but we screwed up.  I am so sad because I think about the fact that we are so opposite, so opposite in our worldview, so I wonder if we did come together, if this dream were a premonition, foreknowledge, how would we reconcile that, and if we could.  Then there is also a sense of sweetness that the bond is so strong, even years later I have such a dream.  I also have to acknowledge that there is a pain associated with this relationship pain caused and received.  I can’t ignore that, and if I were to honor a pledge I made to this person, I would have to truly reconcile that pain, along with any loving feelings, couldn’t just ignore it, neither could they ignore any residual hurt they felt in my regards.  All that would have to be addressed.  Any fears, insecurities about ourselves and each other would have to be courageously spoken and addressed.  We weren’t ready to love each other, even if we did back then, now, perhaps we could, perhaps we could love, accept unconditionally, not try to fix the other, address what needs addressing and simply work on being the best me each of us can be, grow together.  Perhaps, or perhaps I continue to work on myself and continue t move on.  We shall see if the dream I had is a foreshadowing, a foreknowledge, and how I navigate it, we shall see.

Shalom and Amen

Trust, but Verify, Not So Simple


Instagram, and whatever the latest platform is an be treat tools for promotion.  However, they are also traps, and it can be tricky to navigate.  What makes it tricky?

In the age of google images and other places where you can get images to use, people can purchase or get for free images of persons o distinction, of celebrity rank.  One group of people often targeted by scammers in using their identity, information to prowl for and catfish for women or for men is the military and law enforcement.  You would think people would be more respectful of these two groups, but no.  How do you figure out if the person of high rank military, or celebrity is legit?  First of all do your research.  If the person the scammer uses is military of high rank, unless they are sent on some covert mission top secret, if they are doing anything high profile in DC or at any of the cadet academies etc.. if put in the name of the person and the date, you can see what shows up online.  If they say they are in the Middle East, or some far off place, but there is an article about them presenting a speech at a military graduation, or something of that nature, well guess you are talking to a scammer.  If the person even celebrity has always been a person of true integrity, ethics etc…with a very strong faith, real strong orthodox Christian etc.. faith,  they connect with you, saying you were one of the suggested friends, say they are separated etc..start whispering sweet nothings, I’d say you have a problem there.  If the person is decorated military, law enforcement, comes from a tradition of that in the family, honorable history, strong faith family etc…, that sense of honor and integrity is ingrained in them.  Does it seem plausible that they would see to start an affair via internet without being formally free of the first union?  If they constantly find excuses to not video chat etc.., or when they do they always do so in the dark, so you can’t really see them clearly, have a hat on half covering their face and if you ask them to take it off they have an excuse each time, hmmmm not good.  If you have someone who is open to and even suggests, let’s video chat, after you have spoken online for  a bit of time, they send you videos, and you video chat, it’s in the day time where you can clearly see their face etc.., surroundings, then good signs.  In the digital age, we need to be not paranoid, but cautious, as I am having to be with my own internet journey.


Some “Just Friends” Category

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Whether it’s online or offline, you get a sense of things when it comes to people, and if you work to develop discernment or have people around you that have that gift, but mainly your own gut when it’s not fear driven, but really contemplative prayer and meditative in nature will guide.

Some people you have an instant connection, which is great and you find them easy to talk to right away, feel at ease, all of that stuff.  Great, as long as you are sure who you are talking to.  There are some connections that are immediate connection et… as well, but even though both or a few of these connections have that ease, there is still discernment required.  Sometimes after a few conversations with each or several of the parties, you just know.  You have a Holy Spirit sense which one really has the maturity, common goals etc.., potential to be more than just a friend and which one either because of a certain immaturity you sense, for whatever reasons, that Holy Spirit intuition which person is the just friends one.  You have to honor that, honor that sacred intuition.  You have above all honor your own soul, own spirit about who to have in your life and in what way they fit into your life. That’s not always easy to do, but with faith, discernment, meditation, prayer, maturity, common sense, it can be done.  That is where I am now along with planning clearly my journey in life 2018-2020, laying the foundations.  It’s a great thing, working towards achieving your dreams, and getting there when you do. I pray that the vocational goals, goal of creating ministry through coaching and the arts combined, as well finally joining my life to a true soulmate are achieved. All I can do is my best, give of my best, of my best self.  All any of us can do.

Shalom and Amen

Online Potentials and Perils

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Like many things in life the Internet has its’ yin and yang, potentials, and perils so to speak. Instagram is an example of that.  I have had several gentleman follow me after posting videos to promote my blog, my music. 

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind interacting with fans once in a while, but these guys don’t seem to come in with a lot of maturity.   You have those that are like a bull in a china shop as the saying goes and immediately bombard you with personal questions, or those who immediately start calling you sweetheart, honey, babe, all this stuff, which is not appropriate unless you two are officially a couple for some time or are engaged. Then you have those who start off seeming nice enough, great, then after a few chats declare their love, are ready to upheaval their life for you, move to the ends of the earth for you.  They don’t know your background, your history, anything about your life, family, and you have not verified anything about them, their background etc…, yet they are declaring forever their love and wanting a commitment.   That is not realistic, definitely not a sign of maturity.  You can look at a photo, see someone’s videos online, all that and love certain qualities that come across, their eyes, their smile, you can feel something sparked, not saying you can’t, and when you talk online, chat you might feel very much at ease with them and they with you.  That does not constitute being in love or that the relationship is solidified in any substantial way.  Relationships take some time to build, you have to seek common ground, really know you will be there for each other through thick and thin, and all of that takes time, takes spending actual face to face time with each other.  Knowing a person past and present is not done in a few chats, falling in love, real Agape, and beyond love is not done in just a few chats.  Also, if someone is going to make any choices in life about changing anything in their life, it has to be for them, not you as the reason to run from where they are at now.  When any relationship on line is attempted to move at the speed of lightening to “love you to the end of time” or anything like that and they want a firm commitment of partnership, commitment, red flag.  For me anyway, I promised myself and God that when and if I were to make that solemn commitment it would be made with maturity, deliberation, prayer etc.., and the person would be one of like mind, goals and also one of maturity.  One can be spontaneous and still have maturity, but there is a difference between mature spontaneity and immature impulsiveness.  It’s important to know the difference. 

I am  open to love and marriage all of that, even through Instagram, but it has to be with a person who has a certain level of maturity and of course a MAGA Patriot, one of like mind.  If I sense any red flags I need to pay attention.


Still With You

I Am Still With You

As I watched the Capitol 4th Celebration on TV and they mentioned 9/11, I thought of the dreams I had had that week about people jumping out of buildings, buildings on fire, funerals, crazy dreams that made no sense at the time and that morning just before the alarm was set to ring, shortly before I had a dream with my Nanna, dad’s mom telling me, go back to sleep, stay in bed, it’s not your time to go.  I didn’t understand, but my gut said, listen to Nanna.  When the alarm rang and mom came to wake me up at 8:15 or so I said no, Nanna said to stay in bed, not time to go and I refused to go to the appointment. Well if II had I would have been in the Towers. 

Was it my Nanna? Was it God sending an angel in my dreams taking shape as Nanna so I would listen and not go that day? The theology really of it didn’t matter, still really doesn’t matter.  What did and does is that God was with me, felt I needed to be here, had something to do with my life, now granted fibromyalgia hit and hit hard, and I have had a winding journey to get to the understanding that I love inspiring and coaching whether directly or through the arts, but still.  It also as I remembered this and my dad, different people, realized they never leave us, their memory, even if there was family turmoil and they were not in our lives long, they never leave us.  I didn’t see Nanna after I was 10 years old, and my dad I was ten when I last saw him alive and then saw him again in a casket.  People may not be with us physically, but they don’t ever leave us, what they said, taught us, memories created, all of that crops up at times, depending. We are shaped by those in our lives, our interactions etc…I need to take a look at that for myself, my own life.

There is someone else who is always with us, the one who created us, He, the Word Made Flesh, and the Spirit of Counsel, and as I re-learn about our nation, it’s birth, different events that gave birth to us, to the USA, I know that to be true.  Never forget we are never alone, though people may forsake us, the Trinity and Heavenly hosts do not.  Amen