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We hate ending, most people do, endings mean change, they mean loss.  Sometimes, it has to be for any number of reasons.  Worse than endings are non endings, situations that never went full circle, never had closure, never had a goodbye as they needed, with so much left unsaid, unresolved. One of the things we need to  discern is when to say goodbye, when to close books and chapters, which is not always easy, but is necessary.  We might mourn the loss, the closing of that book, chapter, but if it is toxic, if it is not something God would have us continue then we need to discern that and walk away with closure somehow.  Even in terms of hopes and dreams that God calls us to, not our own stubborn self, but God, beginning the journey that God calls us on vocationally, but then letting fear stop us throughout life is not a positive.  If it is a God given vocation, not saying it will be easy, but it also wouldn’t be filled with pain tears and heartache constantly.  That’s not of God.   In all things we have to have some kind of discernment, in all aspects of life.

Shalom and Amen

Science, All the Answers?


We lost a great scientific mind Hawkins, and now doubt science matters, even the Vatican has a conservatory and engages in scientific research and those of the church engage in scientific reasoning along with biblical truth.  Those who can not will not open up to the Holy Spirit, to Holy Spirit truth, to scripture truth will stay within the realm of science only.  They will dismiss First Cause, saying it is not necessary to have a First Cause.  However there is a problem with that.

Human beings are supposed to operate on reason, on induction, deduction all that jazz.  What happens when you say there is no need for a First Cause or First Principles to examine and explain creation?  You violate reason, violate inductive and deductive reasoning.  Peter Kreeft put it well when he says “If there seems to be no physical cause, we look for a psychological cause: perhaps someone hypnotized us. As a last resort, we look for a supernatural cause, a miracle. But there must be some cause. We never deny the Principle of Sufficient Reason itself. No one believes the Pop Theory: that things just pop into existence for no reason at all. Perhaps we will never find the cause, but there must be a cause for everything that comes into existence.  the whole universe is a vast, interlocking chain of things that come into existence. Each of these things must therefore have a cause. My parents caused me, my grandparents caused them, et cetera. But it is not that simple. I would not be here without billions of causes, from the Big Bang through the cooling of the galaxies and the evolution of the protein molecule to the marriages of my ancestors.”  The sciences can tell us how, the mechanisms of creation of the universe, but not the who or even the why it was all created, why we were created, why we have emotions etc…It’s all links in a chain and the chain has to start somewhere with someone having created the first link.  St Thomas, though indirectly gives excellent arguments for First Cause.   If there is no first cause, then like saying I come from a poof in the air, so do my parents, their parents.  Though Hawkins was a beyond capable scientist he failed to acknowledge and fully appreciate, accept the need for First Cause, First Principles.  Neuroscience has tried over and over again and failed for example to explain consciousness.  Why, because all science is an external exercise and thus has great limitations.  This article says it well  Science can’t explain, never will be able to explain: the origin of the universe, the origin of the laws of nature, the origin of life and the origin of mind and thought because they transcend anything physical that can be measured.  This is where the spiritual realm can give answers and with solid thological indicutive and deductive reasoning of objective morality etc… provide a great map of it all, a grid. 


Pray, Then What?

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Okay, so you prayed, and prayed, and you prayed, now what?  I meditate and I pray every night, even pray the Anglican Rosary, have created my own meditation of positive affirmations, so where are the inundation of blessings, the miracles and all that I could ask, could, notice I said could.  I could also become angry, bitter, decide there is no God because geen wiz I didn’t get my wish my way when I wanted boo hoo, could.  What purpose would they serve?  None.  Instead what am I doing?  I following strong Holy Spirit guidance of what I am supposed to do with my music and this blog each day after listening to the mediation upon going to bed, listening to it a few times and praying the rosary.  What have I been guided to do, radio, focus on putting the songs up for sale on TuneCore and getting the songs played on radio, with goal of getting interviewed on radio.  I am hoping to also send the music to music blogs once I have the funds for a blitz, major blitz promotional campaign to send a few of my songs to radio and to blogs, have my fiverr virtual assistant take 10 hours or so and dedicate them to that.  I would like to focus my time on the writing, research, the recording.  Prayer is not an automated teller where you put the card in and poof out comes the money, not quick cash thing and it may take a good period of time to get any return on your prayer investment.  Your return on that investment may be a NO answer with nothing but walls and daggers etc.. everything you thought should be for your life shattered, so what ought to be can actually take place.  If we do trust and pray, not force, manipulate shake our fist in anger, defiant to do it and have it our way, some pretty neat stuff can happen, if we let it.  Praying is not really the hard part, the hard part is the trust and let go now, just let go, just let it go, not push, insist upon, just let go.  That doesn’t mean I don’t do what I am guided to do each day or each week, like I have been guided, prompted to offer an online seminar about Releasing Fear the first week of April and I will post details on here about ten days before.  We still do what we are guided to do in meditation and prayer, but in and with total peace.  I know, believe me I know, taht is not an easy thing.

Shalom and Amen

Is the Past Ever Truly Put to Rest?

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The past came has come visiting me these past few weeks, almost like a haunting, like a ghost.  It stays buried for a while, but then either something with the fibromyalgia, something will resurrect the ghosts of the past, all the frustration about not paying attention to God’s plan for me, frustration about letting my childhood stuff cloud my choices etc… into adulthood.  The past should stay in the past, shouldn’t cloud tomorrow, but I realized something.  It has taken away, rather the baggage I have carried has taken away  from me.  It has up to now taken away any sense of safety, of choice, any real sense of the ability to make choices, not the right ones. In essence, what was ahead scared me because what had been had hurt me so much.  Yet, I kept putting myself in relationship and career situations that would hurt me, cause pain, be one wall after another, one obstacle after another.  It is only now that I am coming to understand this fully, this notion of being scared of what was before me, so I didn’t embrace, seek out fully God’s plan for me because I was too hurt by what had been and couldn’t really trust anyone fully, not even God.  Am I in a place of being totally healed, where I can totally trust, even totally trust God?  No, getting close, getting there, but not totally there, not yet.  I am sure God understands and He is quite patient, so I just have to keep walking the journey till I get home, that’s all.   What does home look like? Lots of music and ministry/coaching and lots of smiling as I share God, and the lessons of life with all the world, God’s path for me.

Shalom and Amen

Can You Legislate Ethics etc…?

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How often have we seen politicians and others invoke their faith, yet when we look at their political lives or their lives in service to the church we nod our heads in disgust?  How many times have we hung our heads in a sense of defeat at how those in political and religious places on high have committed all manner of sin and transgression, in the case of politicians broken all kinds of laws that if we did the same thing, we would be crucified for, yet they skate off into the sunset untouched?  How many times do we see that laws do exist such as immigration laws, yet they are ignored, or not enforced?  Laws do exist to try and hold us to standards of good conduct etc.. and they should, but can laws alone truly make us an ethical moral society, one of true integrity, abundance, prosperity?  It seems not from the look of things.  Why not, why don’t laws alone work? 

The law alone can’t do two very important things, educate and change hearts.  Those two things are very important.  To educate for example on the foundations of America, including the important role the Christian faith played in it and Western civilization you have to have people open their hearts.  Once the hearts are open, then you can provide accurate education about the history of the nation, of the faith and so much more.  You can also come to an understanding of how to create balance of law and order with empathy, with the discernment that it is best to teach how to fish rather than provide the fish directly, and such.  Having laws, a framework to encourage ethics, integrity etc.. is important, necessary, and enforcement of those laws is also crucial, but that alone won’t do it.  It has to go much deeper, which is why civics, literature studies, the classics, debate and critical thinking teaching used to all be an integral part of education, of formation of youth in schools.  The law does serve to restrain the heartless as MLK aptly put it, so again we do require laws and we do require law and order, national sovereignty, even individual sovereignty, responsibility for our actions etc…  It is also imperative that hearts and souls be transformed to where day to day living is based on a foundation of objective moral ethical truths and integrity, for individuals and societies to thrive.   Without that, the law alone is not going to be enough, will never be enough, never.

Shalom and Amen

Woke Up With a Funny Feeling

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I have been feeling odd the past few weeks and even wanting to write songs that were not very uplifting, not really, which is not my usual style.  I was not quite sure what was going on, but then today I realized it when I saw this quote.  I realize I regret what could have been and wasn’t, as well as what was and should not have been because I did not listen to sacred truth, guidance, insisting on doing life my way, being impulsive in so many ways.  Decisions were made that were not authentic to the path I was really anointed to be on and I never took the time to really understand what ministry was meant to be in my life, how I was perhaps meant to combine teaching, coaching and the arts, how to train and prepare.  Now, I find myself with a life I don’t recognize as one I thought would be, which is a bit sad.  Not to say I can’t still do something very constructive with it, but if I had really found the right spiritual center early on in my life, had solid spiritual mentorship, followed true Holy Spirit guidance to understand all of this, my choice of where to study and other things would have been different and my life path would have been different.  I would now be living a life as I was meant to live, having been a blessing to a much greater extent.  I do hope that now I can change all that and I can open my heart, spirit and soul fully to total surrender to divine sacred guidance not fighting a fight that can not in the end be won, or if it is won at the cost of my very soul because in fighting against the tide of what I was likely anointed to in life by the Creator I have lost parts of my very soul, of my very self, and my health.  I only just now realize that.   Though it is a sad realization, it is one I have to accept and move forward with the best I can with what I have got from this moment on. and I hope my health can now begin to truly get on the mend.


Anger and Faith, Oh My

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A book was recently written “The Lost Shepherd” regarding Pope Francis, his Papacy.  We have vatican officials close to this Pope raging at anyone who questions what the heck this Pope and the Vatican is doing, violations of core magisterium.  It seems this Papal posse can’t handle the truth, doesn’t like to be told what’s what, lashes out, those around the Pope like Spadaro act like spoiled brats. So, is it “wrong” to be angry, ever?   Yes, it is.   However, it’s all about point of reference for that anger, and such, which is why in the faith community there is the term righteous anger.  What is righteous anger?  It is a reactive emotion of anger over mistreatment, insult, or malice of another, and even self. For example as a Church, the body of Christ when church leaders contradict bible truth about marriage, family etc… anger is justified.  When government violates the Constitution, especially as a pattern, anger is absolutely justified.  When there is actual mistreatment of people, helpless animals, cruelty, yes anger is justified.  If a child is being neglected etc.., or an elderly person, all of this is cause for anger, it’s righteous anger.  If you are getting passed over constantly at work for those less qualified because they “kiss up”, yes you would be angry and rightly so, wouldn’t you be? Anger can be the correct response or a dangerous emotional reaction. The nature of anger is defined by the motivation and the state of the heart. Anger over issues that would anger God, such as crime, abortion, pornography, abuse, oppression, and so on, is justifiable and can cause positive action.  Jails are full because of anger. Men and women rage at their kids, kids at everyone else because of anger. Families are destroyed because of anger etc….Women rage against men being taught that the Patriarchy is responsible for all ills in life and society, with no one seeming to be willing to take responsibility for their own lives and screws ups, no one willing to hear truth biological, scriptural or otherwise.    If one of faith and spiritual life is wondering what the heck is the difference between righteous and unrighteous anger this chart might help

There is also another factor, reaction, response.  Those troubled by the Pope have written him letters, have written books to try and get him to see truth, and taken different steps to bring him back to Magisterium truth.  In our government here in the U.S., we are seeing exposed wrong doings of various government agencies and hopefully constructive overhauls will take place, changes made to different systems that truly benefit all, or the majority.  People have taken to social media to put pressure and it seems to work.  Then you have the attempt to silence free speech by intimidating businesses into severing ties with the NRA when the problem is not the weapons, it’s people and society, bureaucracy breakdowns.  You have an education system that does not allow for vigorous debate and disagreement, speaking of truth, even if that truth hurts, offends, and that’s not a good sign for society, not at all.  When there is anger for whatever reason, including not liking truths told, it’s not the anger that is the issue, it’s whether it’s within the parameter of righteous anger or not and also the response that matter.  We should ask ourselves these questions based on the parameters of righteous vs unrighteous anger:  Is my anger truly justified?  Is my anger to intense for me to be in right mind at this time?  Am I too quick to anger?  Does my anger last too long?   If the answer is yes to more than one of these, to all of these, then we need to do some serious meditating, praying, etc…, 

Shalom and Amen

When A Friendship Fades Away

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We can know people for ages, and share so much of ourselves, be raw and honest to the hilt, and one day suddenly they are someone you find yourself saying “This is someone I once knew”  It’s a sad turn of events, but this is part of the journey of life.  Some people will be part of our lives until we leave this world and others won’t for any number of reasons, not necessarily dark and horrible ones.  Sometimes people drift apart, or one can’t handle the honesty of the other, total honesty of the other.  When things change, shift and things come to an end not because of anything horrible having happened, this piece of advice might serve as a good guide to have to move forward.


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Try and remember the blessings it did bring, the good stuff about it and wish them a good life.  If you are an intuitive etc… and sense big troubles on their horizon, even for the long term, send good vibes to minimize the impact on them, for them to be enlightened.  

Shalom and Amen

Does Silence Speak?

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There are times in life when in silence much is said and also in life there are times when there is a parting and much is left unsaid, things linger, hover in the air.  May we all find closure to all things and situations, and may we find wisdom from the Holy Spirit in moments of silence and reflection.

Standing Strong and Fearless

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Yesterday, one of my family members called and they asked if I took wine at communion, which I don’t, said that I shouldn’t due to the flu and what’s going around.  As we got into that discussion, I pointed out how the Protestant Episcopalian church by where I live dips the host, and I then said I only went a few times because they are very liberal and I am not a fan of liberal, I am strong conservative.  The response was insulting, as I was told because of that I am wrong on all side of things.   Generally I would have just taken it for mom’s sake, whose 93 and I don’t want to end  up creating a family rift.  However, this time, I remembered this quote and how important it is for society and self to stand strong in Biblical Truth, so I quietly, firmly stated that I am a conservative and not budging on truth.  It again brought to me the liberal mindset, that if you don’t agree with them on all points then you are wrong, or worse.  I decided I am not accepting that kind of crap from liberals, not even my own family.  I have no reason to be ashamed of being a Constitutional and Biblical Conservative, I am going to discuss more on this in another post.  This phrase is important, but not in the sense that you go to war with everyone, and when people read that Jesus turned the other cheek, it wasn’t that he was being weak, not what that means.  It means that he stood firm in who he was as the Christ, Messiah, Son of God, truth of scripture, didn’t wobble, was firm and steady in that.  He didn’t cower in speaking truth, truth of the Father, knew who he was and was not wavering in that truth.  It’s important we understand scripture and Christ etc… properly.  I realize that I must be like that in expressing my artistic self and in my faith, sharing it, standing firm in it. This weekend showed that I can stand up and strong in Christ, even to kinfolk, great feeling.