Life Lesson 28 and 29

45 life Lessons

Life is not stagnant, so we have to be careful not to get stagnant, not to get too complacent when things are really good, nor should we get stuck when things are bad to where we make them even worse by getting into a quagmire of despair. Life is fluid, and so we have to be fluid, while still working towards our vocation, dreams.  Friendship, and community, you don’t realize how important they are until you feel sick, or different circumstances crop up and without friends, community to reach out to, to reach out to you, it really sucks.  Insurance, all of that matters, but at the same time i won’t make you laugh, lift your spirits, but community, friendship will.  Friendship is one of life’s priorities. 

Shalom and Amen

Integrity and Happiness, Great Pair

Emotions and Meaning

Integrity, an important trait one that seems to be lacking often these days, but what is integrity?  It is not narcissism, that’s for sure.  It is being authentic in your worldview, in your faith, being your natural, organic, authentic self, no putting on masks to get to where you want to be etc…, raw you with honesty, truth, ethics, dependability, even when you are being very creative.  Integrity is what determines the state of your inner being.  This, integrity, living your life authentically and in this way gives you happiness because you are content with the blessings you have, are not envying, not seeking to destroy others to reach the top of the ladder, but you are still doing your best, being your best, realizing your full potential, following that inspired vocation and path that the Creator of the universe and you put into your being.  Maybe we need to look at what mask we are wearing to try and be what others think we ought to be or what we think we ought to be in order to reach the top, especially if that means destroying others, sacrificing our very soul, and who knows what else.  Maybe we ought to think about whether or not we want to leave a legacy to present and future generations of integrity and happiness or the total opposite, maybe, just maybe.

Namaste, Shalom and Amen

Life Lesson 26 and 27

45 life Lessons

We often are so preoccupied with what others think of us, are so desperate to belong that the Dark Side grabs us and we end up just being part of the herd, going along with what the crowd, group does, even when it is vile, harming to self and others, literally. What matters at the core is what we think of ourselves and what does objective spiritual and moral truth say about living life and how to live life?  That is what matters.  Others may mock you for following your calling, dreams, even for honoring all of that, and objective spiritual and moral truth, but that is their problem, not yours.  If they make it a problem, stand firm, don’t show fear, and if you have to walk away, do so smiling head held high.  Wen we think of healing, we think of wanting instant healing, of wanting things resolved now, in the moment, immediately.  Things don’t really work that way, even when we have strong faith that can bring us to forgiving, it may not be an instant thing.  It may take time, lots of spiritual meditating and praying, but it is possible to get there.  Give yourself and time time, give God and His angels time to work with you on the healing.  Allow yourself time to process, mourn grieve, be angry etc…to get to the healing.  It may happen more quickly for some than for others and for some things than for others.  No, one may never forget, but forgiving is necessary, not for the one who caused you the grief, but for you.  Unforgiveness is poison, and you don’t want that in your life or your body. 

Shalom and Amen

Authenticity and Narcissism

Emotions and Meaning

Authenticity is the opposite of Narcissism and sadly I am seeing lots of Narcissism in our society, on the Left.  Authenticity says I know I am a child of God, of the creator and i know what gift life is that is given to me, to all of us.  I am aware of my gifts, talents etc..but I know they are a gift from my creator, not something I gave myself.  Authenticity also means you understand, unlike narcissism, that life owes me  nothing, people, governments owe me nothing, God owes me nothing.  If I am given anything, it’s a gift, an opportunity, it’s providence that I helped bring forward by being authentic, not narcissistic.  Authenticity means I understand that I screwed up and will screw up again because like it or not I have an ego and it will rear its’ head not always in a good way.  I have to be self aware, not self conscious, there’s a difference.  Self conscious means I beat myself up for every little mistake and am never comfortable in my own skin, self aware means I am in the moment, in the present and aware of what I need to do, not do and change, am able to objectively see that and change it.  I hope as a society and as individuals we will get a lot more Authentic and way less Narcissistic!

Don’t Think It Strange

Don't Think It Strange.jpg

As I search for community, for unity and oneness, I am at times reminded that oneness with the Creator etc.. is not something can that can come from the outside, but rather it is something that has to come from the inside.  That is why I believe that focusing my coaching on Meditation, Reiki and NLP modalities, as well focusing on meditative prayer and activity as my dear Rebbe and Massiach Yeshua did to activate the healing within, connecting more to nature is the path I need to take.  I hope to begin attending weekly meditation sessions and then by December see about membership, so I can participate in the Reiki healing circle and other such activities.  I am not separate from the world, the universe or God, nature, any of it, though that does not mean being an eco nut, like everything in life, balance okay, balance!! This poem struck a cord with me and so I wanted to share it with you.

Namaste, Shalom and Amen

Life Lesson 24 and 25

45 life Lessons

When life throws us a curve ball, big or small, it hurts, it is frustrating, makes you wanna go “AHHHHHHH” and maybe if you are inclined to a victim mindset spiral into a full brown never ending cycle of kick yourself, why me etc… You could do that, could follow that pattern and we have all had those moments, but hopefully at some point you figure out that it’s not a healthy one long term, so how do you not stay in that pattern? You keep a journey maybe and you ask questions, like “Is there really no healthy alternative?  Is this going to really matter in five or ten years to my life, to those who truly love me?”  ask questions.  Let’s say the answer is “yes it will still impact me in five, ten, twenty years, well you still have choices.   How many people have made major detrimental life choices and then turned it all around, even became pastors who turn lives around and communities around?  Even when the answer to the questions is yes, doesn’t mean doom, doesn’t have to, this is why I love meditating and why I will be going to a buddhist center near me because I see how meditating alone benefits my clarity etc.., so even more so in group.  Does that mean I renounce my belief in Yeshua as my personal Rebbe, Massiach, and an important anchor in my life along with the Bible, no, but I will be looking and studying the Bible through the eyes of metaphysics and philosophy pretty much.  Whatever Fribromyalgia throws at me, there won’t be any screaming, any long term pity party or anything like that.  That’s my choice. 

Social media on the one hand is really a great tool for communicating and so much more, but on the other hand, everyone gets to openly throw eggs at ya, aim and shoot so to speak, so it also means you may find out exactly what people think of you, and it may not be what you expected, could be good or bad.  We can get so busy thinking about what others think of us, wanting their approval, that we don’t work on getting to where we are supposed to be, where we are truly meant to be, who we are truly meant to be.  We need to focus less on what others think and more on what legacy and impression we want to leave for future generations, for our children, grandchildren.  When I see the Left at these rallies with vulgar signs etc.. and their kids carrying those signs, I cringe.  Is that what legacy they are leaving their kids, is that who they truly are?  It really boggles my mind that they would do that to their children, teach that to their children.  They shouldn’t not do things because of what anyone will say, but whatever actions you take, your behavior, has consequences and leaves a legacy, so what will yours be?  What will mine be? Something to ponder.

 

Curiosity and Authenticity

Emotions and Meaning

Why do we often go gaga over kids, think they are adorable?  After all, they can be like a tornado in your home, but yet we often think they are precious, adorable etc… Part of that is because they have that sense of wonder, of curiosity about life, people, self, they are inquisitive, though at times that can drive adults nuts with the constant “why? but why?”.  Still this sense of wonder they have is beautiful, and for a while even teens and young adults might maintain it to a certain extent, but then life happens, it seems to beat us down, if we let it, and we no longer are curious about life, people anything, which is really sad for us and for society.   Time for adults to have a healthy curiosity about faith, life, love, arts, nature, to have that awe, that innocence, bring some of that back.  The other reason kids are a pip is they are themselves, even when playing pretend their authentic self is present.  Kids are not trying when they are young to be something they are not, not trying to score point etc.., kids when they are young, really young are just being themselves, being their core self, reveling in life, trying to, though these days society is a darker tone and not that easy for them to do so.  If you think back, if you are my age 50 something, you can remember block parties, neighborhood guys looking out for the kids, jump rope in the street, hopscotch outside, being yourself.  Time we really figured out who “Me” is holistically in healthy ways and claim our authenticity for our own sake and for the sake of our broken society.  For me, I plan on doing self Reiki with chakra chanting, and keep listening to the chakra meditation, weekly join a meditation circle by my home to really peel away the layers and understand as a child of the Most Sacred Source, the Creator of the Universe, Hashem, Yahweh what my truest core self is.  I have a good sense due to doing the exercises in my life coaching classes, but I still want to go deeper to understand myself and what makes me tick.  I raise a symbolic glass to us finding our curiosity and our authenticity for all time.

Shalom and Amen

Where To Go From Here?

lonely evneing road

 

I have greater clarity after meditating on this that my core spiritual self rejects organized religion with lots of bureaucracy and hypocrisy,  yet I do want community, but I am also not really feeling up to spending the two years or so learning new rituals, a new faith etc.., nothing complicated anyway.   If I look at the threat of my life, the two things that are constant are Metaphysics and Meditation, on my spiritual journey anyway.  Therefor, what do I do now?  Do I just go back to Roman Catholicism just because it’s what I am familiar with? Do I pursue Jewish studies, that faith path, which means a whole new way of living, which in my household with a very Catholic Italian mom is not too easy, add my special diet and all that, gets tricky, very tricky. I firmly believe in God, firmly embrace Yeshua as my Rebbe, my Teacher, all of that, a strong anchor for me, Mashiach.  It comes back to the threat and both are positive ones, they are quite Zen and in meditating, I like to do chakra meditations or a particular type of very easy going exercise while listening to sacred music, instrumental.   I also happen to be a stickler for this quote, even if I have fallen prey now and again to relative morality, not a good thing I assure you. I happen to be a stickler for living up to this: ” A system of morality which is based on relative emotional values is a mere illusion, a thoroughly vulgar conception which has nothing sound in it and nothing true.”, courtesy of Socrates.  I also happen to be a warrior, not one to not say what I have to say and if you don’t like it, not my problem.  What do I do with all this? Oye! 

Like I said I look to the threads.  I need to focus on my wellbeing, releasing the fibromyalfia and some other stuff from my system and life.  The things that help me release, center besides meditating on connection to Yeshua, to Christ, to that anointing are philosophy and meditation, active, not passive meditation.  Therefor, seems to me that I need to find a place near home, which I have that offers Zen meditation, hatha yoga and I can engage in that and as I do the meditating etc… focus on connection to the Trinity, cleansing of self and life, healing in Yeshua.  I will never let go of Yeshua as my personal anchor and Rebbe, nor will I not study scripture independently, but right now I have to focus on my coaching studies, and my health/wellness, so I can have a New Year with a better state of wellness and prepared to be the best Holistic Life/Relationship Coach I can be. 

Shalom and Amen

Spiritual Core of Me

duality-human-nature-11601507

As I embarked on this journey of finding out who I am, the DNA testing and all that and have made a journey that spiritually is like a maize, I am having to really look at what gives me true peace, clarity.  What is it?

The thing that gives me real peace, clarity is meditating, meditating on the metaphysical, metaphysical meditations, meditating on the Kabbalah Tree of Life, certain music and affirmations, doing so in Yeshaua’s name calling on him as my Rebbe, my friend.   That is what gives me peace, clarity, contentment, not religious ceremony or things of that nature, but celebrating the Jewish feasts along with Advent and Christmas as birth and ushering in the new, releasing the old with the help of my personal Rebbe and Friend Yeshua makes a difference.  Am I Jewish, Christian, what?  I am I suppose simply Metaphysical Philosopher with a great love for the Jewish Roots of my personal chosen Rebbe and Mashiach, Yeshua.  That is my path, my journey, so learning more about different techniques of meditation that I would be comfortable with is where I realize my spiritual journey needs to be.  I need to honor that, and to honor what I believe that Yeshua is the Mashiach.  As for a particular denomination, not something I am ready to embrace, but I do have a philosophy, core one, this quote from Socrates, sums it up well.
“A system of morality which is based on relative emotional values is a mere illusion, a thoroughly vulgar conception which has nothing sound in it and nothing true.”

I need to stay true to this and a few other core principles, including a few key proverbs http://www.beliefnet.com/faiths/christianity/galleries/10-proverbs-to-simplify-your-life.aspx  I will be able to live a healthy and abundant life.

 

 

Ghosts Come in Different Forms

Transforms Her Dark Light

A few weeks ago I went to have some medical records and saw someone who there was from the first encounter this spark this natural flow of energy, and then every time we would see each other this natural banter.  I knew he was “it”, but it never went anywhere beyond bantering, smiles and joking. It was very sweet.  Last night my fibormyalgia pain because of the weather  was kicking up a storm, the pain was pretty intense in my legs and my hands, but in spite of the pain, a friendly ghost made their way through the scene, yup the memories of this connection, of our bantering, that sweet connection.  I focused on that and on God, on Yeshua how much he loved God, how he was willing to give up his life, even if you put aside the Messiah context, to do so because he wanted an end to the bureaucratic crap that was keeping the people from being close to God, close to forgiveness and healing.  Even if just on a metaphysical scale, it’s still something, that he was willing to lay down his life for his fellow man for their ability to have closeness with God, not be under the elitist bureaucracy that plagued religion.  Those two things, really helped me through the pain.  We often think that Ghosts have to be negative, but they can also be sweet, comforting, and for me remembering this connection, the sweet element of it is a positive ghost, a comforting one, even if it never went beyond the bantering, though it had lots of potential to go the distance.  Still, it’s a nice memory, and brings comfort, as does thinking of Rebbe Yeshua.

Shalom and Amen