The Life I Want

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As I look at this I see what I would like my life to look like, a snapshot of what I would like it to look like.  It is also my wish for others.  As I make this journey to create a new life, one that pushes past the fibromyalgia, there are days when the meds calm everything down the pain, all the stuff that comes with it, the lack of sleep etc.., and I can see this all happening very easily, and then there are days when it’s a lot harder.  Today I went to my neurologist for a follow up on my hand which was in pain a few weeks ago and she didn’t like the way I was moving my neck so she did a check and I ended up having to get my homeopathic with a touch of cortisone, again, though I had shots six weeks ago.  Does it make for a tired me at times and the ideal life seem a bit distant? Yes, but not impossible, not with grit, with faith, with determination.  That means I have to ask questions about whether the choices I am making are healthy in the long term, and I have to not be impulsive, spontaneous if stirred in the Spirit by the Spirit, yes, but that’s different than impulsive.  I hope to build this life, this snapshot for the long term using meditation that helps me ask and answer crucial questions, enhance my gifts.  Life can be an amazing journey, in spite of the bumps in the road. 

Amen 

A Lover’s Farewell

Northern Lights II

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I came across a website that had public domain songs, poems and one particular piece the first stanza caught my eye and thoughts and reflections started coming at me, so I decided to record them and share them with you.  

Happy Memorial Day and to All those in our Military, Law Enforcement, and to those no longer with us, like my dad who served in the military, was injured, God Bless.

The Fading Away

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As I look around and as I look at life I see, what do I see?

I see vague memories,

Flower in a book of long ago, a fabric of a favorite dress,

Now faded, so you can’t quite tell the color that it once was.

I see faded parchment, paper that now is yellowish, delicate to the touch,

Stars that are no longer shining in the sky,

Day that goes into night,

And night that goes into day.

That is what I see.

 

Just as these things fade in life,

I have seen people fade out and away,

Bonds that one thought were deep and strong,

They slowly faded until they were but a distant memory.

In some cases it was because truth was spoken that could not be accepted,

In others, who knows, one day suddenly there was silence,

No particular incident or reason, just silence.,

Day into night, night into day, a fading away.

 

Not The Endings That Haunt

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We hate ending, most people do, endings mean change, they mean loss.  Sometimes, it has to be for any number of reasons.  Worse than endings are non endings, situations that never went full circle, never had closure, never had a goodbye as they needed, with so much left unsaid, unresolved. One of the things we need to  discern is when to say goodbye, when to close books and chapters, which is not always easy, but is necessary.  We might mourn the loss, the closing of that book, chapter, but if it is toxic, if it is not something God would have us continue then we need to discern that and walk away with closure somehow.  Even in terms of hopes and dreams that God calls us to, not our own stubborn self, but God, beginning the journey that God calls us on vocationally, but then letting fear stop us throughout life is not a positive.  If it is a God given vocation, not saying it will be easy, but it also wouldn’t be filled with pain tears and heartache constantly.  That’s not of God.   In all things we have to have some kind of discernment, in all aspects of life.

Shalom and Amen

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Hope is what keeps us sustained so that we can achieve goals, and as long as we are remembering to nourish those goals with guidance from the spiritual realm of our Creator, His Holy Spirit, appreciating what we do have as we make the journey to recieve what is in the Lord’s plan for us, then Hope is a beautiful thing.  At times yes, it can seem like a chilly place, and we can get discouraged, but that is when we need to seek out the Lord, keep doing what we are prompted by the Holy Spirit.  Remember any prompting of anything, if it is not in keeping with ethics, integrity, clear moral boundaries, true to one’s self as a creation of the Most High, is not from His Spirit, but from our own Ego, desires or something else.  As scripture says, test what you feel, and once you know it is from the highest realm of spiritual wisdom, don’t fight, move forward in hope and faith.

Releasing the Grip

Releasing the Grip

Remember that if you hold onto things too tightly you suffocate the life out of them, and knowing what to hold on to and what to let go of, that includes relationships is crucial in life, even if not always easy, sometimes even painful.  This new year lets discern this and let go of what needs letting go of, what is too toxic, what can’t be saved.

An Ode to Poets and Poetry

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Why write poems and songs, why record songs and compose music any of that, some might say it’s not practical to dedicate your life to that, the chances of money making are small, but we don’t do it for the money, some of don’t, so why.  This is why, for you the public and for sharing life, faith and everything in between, to inspire and much more.

Life Lessons

Life Lessons

Life has rough edges, and ideally we would like at any given time for a life without rough edges.  It can drain us, suck joy out of us, even if we are not careful make us bitter.  When I came across this, I had to share it.  I had to share it because as I read it, it resonated very much with me, and perhaps it will also resonate with you, inspire you. Happy Holidays!  I hope you will also consider premium membership.  I just added new material and that you will check out and like my youtube videos at https://www.youtube.com/kappello