Loving Yourself, What Does It Mean?

Loved Herself

As a person of faith, I understand that I will stumble and fall, and I understand that I have made some lousy choices in my life.  I have been lost and searching for my center, only in the last year or two found it.  I realize I am not perfect, will never be perfect.  However, as a child of the Most High, I realize that it is a privilege that He thought I was worthy of being created.  As my parent he would want me to make good choices, decisions, would encourage me to do so, provide solid advice for doing so, which he does in Biblical truth.  This also means that I need to value this very much, as well as my God given gifts, talents, apply them rightly with ethics and integrity.  I need to value myself as a sacred temple in all my actions, choices etc…, It means no one has the right to harm, use or abuse me in any way, that I have no right to harm myself either.  Life has thorns, no denying that, but if I remember that I am the beautiful rose loved worthy of being created, and understand that of others, though I may not agree with their worldview, actions and lifestyle because they are contrary to biblical truth, I have an obligation to somehow share this view with them, but how I do it matters.  How I share with others matters.  I hope I can achieve full understanding of this and grow as a person, an artist and in all things, this understanding as a core principle. 


7 Things U Must Give Up, Be Happy

When I saw this, I thought of the New Year, of  “resolutions”.

7 Things You Must Give Up

We often think about what we want to get for the New Year, or do and all that, but what about what we need to give up, release, let go of to be happy?  I have had a tendency in the past to run from problems, not dealing with the core issue of things, which is well, me, my baggage, the internal stuff I never really resolved about my childhood, my parents divorce, the crap I had thrown at me because of it etc…On a recent episode of Eastenders, we are not sure how far behind in our episodes here in the U.S., one of the characters said something that was very true.  He said that now matter where he went he couldn’t escape the one truth, he was would always be him.  He realized was the problem was with his own self, maybe unresolved issues, negative behavior patterns.  It resonated with me because a lot of the negatives in my life could have been avoided if I had truly processed and dealt with my baggage, if I had made choices well thought out, still following Holy Spirit guidance, but not always been impulsive, even when receiving Word of Knowledge as they say.  Then there is the reliving of the past over and over again, beating yourself up about it, which serves zero purpose.  Is looking back overall on your life periodically to assess where you are, what you need to change about your life and maybe behavior patterns a negative thing?  No, actually quite wise.  That’s not the same as beating yourself up over and over so you don’t move ahead, don’t accomplish goals and dreams put in your heart by the Lord to follow.  Procrastination, this is a big one for me, always a reason not to do things that I feared I would surely fail at, so time was wasted, a lot of it, going in circles and not achieving concrete goals.  I am working on changing that and I have to some extent.  I also realize I can’t make excuses for my lousy choices, but I can make a decision not to repeat those patterns and make better choices, which again I am doing.  Each of these seven things I can relate to in my own life and I am sure many, if not most people can.  What has helped me turn it all around really is prayer and faith, finding my faith and spiritual identity, one that is firm, solid, can inspire me and help me to inspire others.  May I keep on this journey and at the end of the journey the Lord be able to say “well done”. 


Spiritual Self Care


The spiritual awakening can be a tough one. One of most aspects of spirituality filled life is self care. Self care is nothing like a selfish attitude. Just remember the saying that you cannot possibly water the plants from empty vessel. If you don’t recharge or refill your cup, you simply cannot pour into other cups. The best way to practice spiritual life along with fulfilling experience is to practice spiritual self care. I am presenting to you the tips which helped me cope up as well as fully live my life.


The breaks can refill you. Arrange the family gathering to remember love of family. Arrange going somewhere to appreciate the gift of traveling ability. The short breaks will surely allow you to recharge your stamina. Staying constantly sharpened can blunt a blade.

Learn to Say No and Yes:

You might become too receptive to people’s requests too much. If this is the case, simply learn to say no once in a while. You deserve self-care and time for yourself.

If you have become too indulged in solitude, remember that we need people’s company in our life too. We also need to say yes equally to saying no. The goal is not to be alone, rather create balance of self and others place in your heart.

Embrace the Chaos:

Sometimes it is the most chaotic moments when we don’t know one of our biggest gifts is waiting to be given to us for being patient. Embrace all the difficulties and chaos of life. Thank master that it is for you to grow and become stronger and better. It is exactly why it is there in your life. Don’t let any other thought take place. Be of mind that it will only get better with temporary set backs.


Wear the cloak of gratitude and your life will be covered in all aspects as said by Rumi. It is true. Be grateful for your life. You will enjoy life as you are and you allow it to be instead of how others view it. You deserve best and this habit will ensure it.

Spiritual self-care is needed for your growth and blissful solitude. Remember that your relation with God is personal which also means that staying in good health and shape will strengthen your spirit too.


Not On Schedule, OY!

evening ocean

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I had it pretty much planned out.  I had the plan for what I was going to record and have posted for Thanksgiving and prior to Advent, had a plan, was going to work out great.  I should have remembered.  What should I have remembered? 

The best laid plans of mice and men of course, such plans can easily not be God’s plans or can be easily upset by Lucifer’s mischief.  With the flu, viral general infection, and bad sinus infection that is giving me constant nausea it’s making it hard to stick to my plan.  Do I chuck it, forget it, get really angry at God, the universe etc…? No, annoyed, sure and am in my perfect right to get as annoyed as I want.  It’s my plan gone amok and I’ll cry, for like ten seconds, if I want to.  Then, then I decide how can I kick Satan in the tushi for messing with me!  The original plan was one song per night three nights a week starting to record last week, well that plan went out the window.  Instead it will be writing and recording several songs a night every night potentially starting next week.  See how Lucifer and his army, his legions like that turning of lemons into lemonade! I am too bitchy to let him and his army win, so if I am supposed to spread holiday cheer and share the Good News, then I will find a way to do it, no breaking any laws ever, but where there is truly a will, there is a way. 


Overcoming Faith with Fear

Christ Consciousness

In traditional homes, our children have been taught to fear the unknown. While the adults have been trying to prepare the children for world problems, they have been unintentionally performing a negative programming. I don’t speak this for everyone; however, some of us know what it is like! We have been continuously taught to fear the unknown. We have made ourselves nervous of what might happen or how worse the things may get. While some may argue that it is this approach that prepares us to handle the unknown easily. What if I told you this is the approach that makes us afraid of change? What if that change is spiritual or positive? Then without doubt, this fear of unknown is what is stopping us from experiencing what God has planned for us.

A thought may occur in your mind. Isn’t being afraid nowadays a good habit actually? The fear lets us prepare for worse which lets us avoid it. And who can argue right?! I mean look at this crazy times. Political upheaval, natural disasters, diseases breakouts, economic crisis etc. just to name a few… It is very easy to be shaken all the times. It seems very impractical to be not worried. I support you. However, you also must know the adverse medical effects of depression which is sole consequence of fear. Bible suggests that in Christ we live unshakable. It didn’t say wrong.

Note that I am not asking you to give up worries. They let you prepare beforehand for disasters. However, what I am suggesting is that you must let go of fear of unknown. Fear of unknown is impractical. You must fight your fear with faith of everything happening in best manner. Belief helps! It lets you put your hope in future. We have greatest gift of present which we can utilize by living in moment. How can we live in moment when fear of future prevents us from doing so? Faith helps in this obstacle.

The battle against fear is a something which we can only win through our faith. What we want to accomplish in life can never be won through constant worries and fear. As the scripture suggested, “Fight a good fight of faith”. This is achieved by knowing the fact that we are spiritual beings having temporary existence on earth. Our Lord loves us. He sent us here for a reason. He sent us so that we could live up to our fullest potential. He has sent us so that we could fulfill ourselves spiritually and physically, thus ascending to our higher selves. By acknowledging that every cloud has a silver lining, every trouble comes with opportunity in disguise, we can get through this. I know some of us have lost relatives; some of us have suffered heavy losses, and how is there a silver lining in this? Well, trust me. God loves you more than your own mother. If something was taken from you, it was only for purpose of letting you grow. Over the time, you will get something even better. It is coming despite of your attitude; you just have to prepare yourself to receive its fullest by practicing faith.

Core Beliefs, What Are They?

Garden Path

If you look at this garden path, it seems to be leading up to a memorial of some kind, or a central monument, something, a centerpiece, well as I looked back on my life I realized that what makes me me is not a church, or a building, membership in any particular one, though community matters and I am sure there is one that reflects who I am and these core beliefs.  I realized for me to be well, I had to get straight what they are and then focus on honoring them very constructively.  What are they?

The Universal Moral Laws/Noahoide Laws =  1. One God,  2.Respect the creator one God (do so even when nothing seems to make sense around you and you are ticked off at him for how he allows things or manages things), 3. Respect life (doesn’t mean you don’t have the right to defend self, family, community property, nation if attacked, you do), 4. Respect the institution of marriage. (one man and one woman as instituted by God, don’t mess with that dimwitted humanity!), 5. Respect the rights and property of others and honest in all your business dealings. 6. Respect G‑d’s creatures (life is precious, so respect it, never take a life in cold blood, and never out of vengeance),maintain justice.  7. Justice is G‑d’s business, but we are given the charge to lay down necessary laws and enforce them

Christ, Anointing and Prayer – I believe Christ was begotten, not made and that he had a very special anointing, to give a very particular example of sacrifice for others in away that others were not for a particular purpose, that he did not come to abolish the Nohaite Laws, but rather to reinforce them for Jew and Gentile, bring all together under the Nohaite laws.  I believe that prayer whether a Mass or reading of scripture and prayer from the heart, wither way is pleasing to the Creator, one creator of all things.

Metaphysics and the branch of metaphysics in various forms can be very informative and helpful in spiritual and personal development

Prayer and the Arts – The arts is the greatest form of prayer there is, when it is sacred and beautifully presented and from the heart.  

Charity and Welfare – If we truly want to bring welfare then let’s bring all of the above and let’s help people to help themselves to prosper in all ways, on all levels including financially discovering and focusing their gifts.

I realize now that I need to create a life that focuses on these things, and activities that will allow me to work in a group setting, perhaps a a c0working space, rent that monthly and have that sense of community, but still focus on the arts and doing workshops online, things of that nature, maybe there even create a spiritual meditation circle.  I need to do what I need to do to honor this core of who I am and live it on a day to day basis.

Young People, All Is Not Lost


When I think all is lost with the younger generation, I come a cross something like this and my hope is restored for them and even for the Church perhaps, including the Catholic Church.  This young lady understands the dangers of relativism to our society.  Hoorah!


Please listen and let us all learn, let us fight to reverse this ugly trend in schools in all facets of society that has done so much damage and continues to do so, and seeks to eradicate all truth of our foundations as a nation.  If you look at all four stanzas of our national anthem you will understand them, what they are.

Beauty, Goosebumps, Close to Tears

Holy Ghost

Yesterday as we celebrated the Latin Rite Mass at Shrine of the Most Precious Blood in Manhattan, with the Latin Chant etc.., goosebumps, almost cried at one point for the beauty of it.  I also thought of the direction the RCC has taken to be PC and be of the world. the mass exodus to them more staunch Lutheran faith, or conservative truth like it or lump it Evangelical, this article I had come across came to mind.


I also thought of how this parish has been having its’ own struggles, how it has so much potential being so rich in artistic and Italian history to thrive.  We have various fellowships and societies that have affiliated with us, including the Constantinian Order of St. George and others, who have these beautiful Masses at our parish, who understand the reality of this very article, the truths of it.  I thought about what had been done so far to try and bring people into the parish and recalled afterwards my conversation with several of the Society and Fellowship leaders prior to Mass.  It dawned on me that the problem with what has been done is that it is not connected to a concrete cause, nor to Context, to Catholic, Biblical and Evangelization Context.  It was not bringing people back to the roots of the faith, of the identity of the parish itself. Surprisingly people want church, not modern junk, but church, real tell it to me like it is padre, church, not mean spirited but like it is.  They want programs that will make them feel like family in and through Christ, not man, in true communion with Christ through the liturgy, liturgical music, fellowship and evangelization, studying together  They want beauty and truth in a world that does not offer that, they would like a strong identity, one which only the church can provide in Christ, and a truth that is not a shape shifter, but stays consistent throughout time.  This is why many are leaving to go Lutheran and Evangelical, to get back to what they feel is the root, evangelizing, making disciples, truth, gospel truth, and activities that are in line with the Gospel, not the secular world.  

What can I do to help bring the parish, the church I am in, as music coordinator, member of the parish to its’ roots?  I am going to work with these societies and fellowships to make sure that activities engaged in are connected to 1. A Cause 2.Scripture 3. Liturgy and the Mass 4. Solid PR  I pray to the Lord that I can achieve this and help bring the parish back to full life, help make it a home for those who may have left the faith, those seeking a true traditional Catholic home.  For that to happen I realize cause, and context are crucial and unless we get very focused in this regard and a solid PR strategy to get word out that Tradition, Heritage and also Innovation is alive at this parish whatever we do won’t be known to anyone.  I hope to make sure it is known far and wide.


Focus, Maturity, Does that Mean Dull?

soaring eagle

When we think of focus, maturity, grown up, stability, and if you say that to a “young person” they roll their eyes and think “dull city”, no way do they want to hear that.  In today’s snowflake climate, yes I am using that word, get over it, no one wants to do any of that, get focused in a good way, mature, grow up and take full accountability for their life, streamline their activity etc… For the longest time in my life, neither did I.  

I believed that commitment to one thing, making a choice for one path in career, in spirituality etc.., even marriage, that major covenant, scared me to death, though I had not realized it, not really, not to what extent I had not grown up enough to be able to be like an eagle and soar to achieve my full potential and the path I was meant to follow.  The path I was meant to follow was that of ministry through the arts, while honoring my culture.  However, I now realize that in order to have true freedom, I have to have true structure, clarity of path, of boundaries, streamlining of activity, of thought, philosophy and worldview.  There has to be clarity in all these things, not based on what anyone says I ought to have, not because I want to be liked or want to “feel like I belong” to a click or anything.  It has to come from true divine inspiration, meditative prayerful contemplation and study, so there is a inductive and deductive, also heart and spirit conclusion to my worldview, my vocational path understanding, to releasing my fears, baggage, so that I don’t ever do busy for the sake of busy.  Is my growing up etc…. dull and boring? NO, just the opposite.

Now I am focused on my catholic and Italian heritage, on music and the arts within that community, really delving into it, giving it my all, connecting to it heart body spirit and soul.  With this I can start to focus my music on the deeply spiritual, on the faith based, and my activities can be focused on really exploring and enjoying my culture, connecting to others who love the culture, who revel in it.  That can be very inspiring to me on many levels.  I can have peace and enjoy life day to day, smell the coffee so to speak and though the fibromyalgia is ever present, it doesn’t really have to take over life, even if I have to make adjustments to accommodate.  With a structure of self discipline, of decluttering my life on many levels and focusing it, streamlining it, I can focus my creativity, my energies, really flourish in what I am meant to do.  For my personal life, for connecting with my twinflame soulmate, that will make a huge difference because I will likely be in the right place to connect with that person and they with me, so everything I am meant to have in my life, to achieve, I will.  If I were scattered, fragmented still that would not be the case, not be likely, so growing up, maturing, focusing, streamlining all of that does not mean dull, or boring it means the opposite. Growing up, focusing, clarifying once and for all on a number of things was a true blessing and I pray I will thus be a blessing to many others in my lifetime.