When you think of moving forward, building something up, a lasting legacy, something that will stand the test of time, you think of foundation, I do.  That is what I was thinking in terms of a particular project, in regards to a particular place, iconic piece of history that I hoped could be saved.  However, when I think of how that comes about, I envision a solid team of people that really work to get to know each other like a family knows each other inside out.  I envision intricate collaboration on an almost daily basis, everyone involved, teamwork in the broadest sense.  I envision solid friendship of the team members, a lot of creative juice flowing, brainstorming as a team.  None of that is happening and that is a big hurdle as I see it.  If there is no real collaboration, if there is no building of friendships, learning and growing together as a team, there is not team.  If there is not team, then the chances of a sustained legacy for the long term, well not sure on the odds.   That is sad because it is a beautiful icon, history of the Catholic faith of Italian immigrant community.

I have this beautiful icon and It is tied to my culture and heritage, so on the one hand I want to help, truly, but on the other hand, when there really isn’t collaboration as I understand collaboration to be, do I stay and really keep feeling like I’m banging my head against the wall?  With the fibromyalgia which had calmed down a bit, but has acted up in the past few months with a vengeance, do I want to be in a situation where I am banking my head against the wall, or feel like I am doing so?  I really don’t have an answer yet, not fully.  I hope I do soon, very soon.

Amen